Login with:

Facebook

Twitter

Tumblr

Google

Yahoo

Aol.

Mibba

Your info will not be visible on the site. After logging in for the first time you'll be able to choose your display name.

To Love Preciado

Introduction

I'm not your typical sixteen year old girl. What sets me apart from others is the fact that I'm not ignorant like most. I've been through so much that it is hard finding beauty in this unpleasant world. I see the ugly and the ugly seems to see me as well. Everyday I am attacked by this ugly that lives amongst us.

I believe everyone has some sort of problem, their own kind of ugly. It is something that drags them down and feeds off their emotions. Something that brings them to their lowest points and destroys them throughout the years. In this case, my ugly would be my father.

From day one he has caused the majority of my pain. Since my birth he has been an alcoholic. With the abuse of alcohol usually comes the abuse of something else. My mother and I became his victims several years back. I can't tell you how many times I've watched him slap my mom across the face or how many times he's burned cigarettes out on my skin. He is a monster, he is the cause behind my darkened, broken soul.

I try not to dwell on my problems, I try to be happy, to be strong. Of course, it's extremely difficult, but after a while you learn to pretend and shield your emotions from the outside world.

School is the only place I can be happy and feel safe. Most would say they hate going to school. Me, I love it, I love learning. One day I hope to go to college and major in music.

My music seems to be my life-support, it keeps my mind from becoming an overload of thoughts. When it comes to playing piano, guitar, or bass guitar, I feel at ease. Music can't get rid of all my stress and worries, but it sure does help a lot of the time. I just wish my life could be as simple as plucking a string or pressing down keys.

Notes

Comments

@twitchdelaraven
I HAVENT BEEN ON HERE IN MONTHS BECAUSE YOU WOULDNT UPDATE AND SCHOOL BUT YOURE BACK

@ImGoingToChangeTheWorld
I'm honestly flattered :) I didn't really think someone enjoy my writing that much.

twitchdelaraven twitchdelaraven
11/8/15

I'm so sorry I haven't updated in like a bazillion years! :( I was having trouble logging in. I'll start updating right away!

twitchdelaraven twitchdelaraven
11/7/15

Omg :0

DoOmKiTTy95 DoOmKiTTy95
8/9/15

Amazing. Please update again soon.