*Vic’s POV*

“I passed!” Jaime screamed, jumping out of the car and running over to me, almost tripping over his feet. He jammed his chest against mine and pushed me to the wall, embracing me in a strained hug.

“What happened?” Mike asked from the couch.

“OH MY GOD, I’M SO PROUD OF YOU, JAIME!” I thickened our hug and demanded my lips on his. I coasted my tongue in his mouth, craving for entry. We mixed our saliva for a few seconds until Mike parachuted his way over to us. He drifted us apart and came in my face.

“I said what happened?!” Mike repeated.

“I got my driver’s license! I can go wherever the fuck I want now without anyone driving with me!” Jaime hurtled back to me and pushed his over-excited body on mine, encoring his action from a minute ago.

“Oh…” Mike wasn’t pleased. “I thought like you hit the jackpot or some shit like that.” He sat back on the couch and continued to apply mouth-force to his chips and quesadilla, along with his large Coke slush.

Skinny fatass.

“We should celebrate!” I was in too much of a caterwaul that Jaime was the one who had to keep me placid.

“Maybe later, we could uh…” He bit his lip and winked at me.

“Oh shit.” I smiled widely at his comment. I know what that means. He wants to do the nasty. “What are you thinking about?” I tried to make it sound like I didn’t know what he was talking about. Being completely clueless is driving him insane. I clutched his shoulders tightly and leaned into him.

“Oh you know, just a little fun and all,” he winked again, seizing my waist.

Ok, this was kinda fun teasing him. He knows that I know what he’s trying to tell me. I’m just being a bother but it’s really funny seeing him pout his lips at me. “What kind of fun do you speak of?”

“Damn you, Vic! How do you not know what the fuck I’m getting at?!”

“He’s wants to fuck you, Vic. He wants to fuck you hard.” Mike made it very clear to me.

“I know, fuck face,” I directed towards Mike. “I was just trying to tease him a lil, damn. I like when I see the ecstasy in his eyes. It‘s cute.” I looked at Jaime and twiddled my fingers. He twitched his nose before pulling my face closer to his and indulging me with erotic kisses.

“You’re so beautiful, you know that right?” he said to me.

“Well, I do now,” I joked, kissing his forehead. “Shall we dance to your victory?”

“Bro, speaking of dance, are you guys going to prom together? It’s in like three weeks,” Mike pointed out.

I looked at Jaime for a second. He was skeptical, but he answered for both of us. “I don’t think we will. I’ve always wanted to but I don’t mind spending our day inside…all alone with nothing to do…sitting around being bored. Mr. I Don‘t Want To Ruin My Reputation Because I‘m Gay doesn’t wanna go. He prefers to keep our relationship private.”

Thanks for pushing it in my face, smartass.

“That’s some bullshit. Vic, you’re really not going because you’re afraid of what people will think of you?” Mike said, getting up to get a glass of water. “I say, be who you are. That’s what our music is about. You see Jack and Alex? That don’t give a damn what people think of them.”

“That’s because their social status is mediocre,” I stated, trying to defend myself. I slanted my body, digging my elbow into the counter and taking in what Mike was explaining.

“Even if they don’t talk to a lot of people, they’re both still popular and have a great future ahead of them. All Time Low is an amazing band and their shit is fresh.”

I feel stupid. Really stupid. My own flesh and blood is telling me how to live my life. “Hope it doesn’t smell though,” I giggled, along with Jaime by my side.

“Yeah, whatever. Sa-da-tay,” Mike said, pushing past us and walking to his room.

“You’ve been watching Pootie Tang haven’t you?” I questioned with a smile on my face.

“Whaddah-tah,” he replied, walking into his room and closing the door. He already knows I love that movie and using his words makes me laugh. Whaddah-tah means something like alright, gotcha, or yes. In his case, it means yes.

I pushed Jaime against the couch and straddled his hips. “Thank god he left. I’ve been waiting to do this the whole time.” I shoved my tongue in his mouth, parting his lips. I traveled my lips down to his neck, brushing against it. Jaime let out a small moan. I sucked on his skin and left bruises. “Sorry, I couldn’t resist.” I smiled at him and rested my head on his chest.

“You’re fine. What do you mean you’ve been waiting? You could’ve done this even when Mike was in the room. He doesn’t care, remember?”

I pecked his lips. “Yeah, but I’d rather kiss you without him saying ya nasties and shit like that. Or wait, maybe that’s Tony.”

“Yeah, babe, it’s Tony who says ya nasties to us all the time. Get your facts right. But hold your facts because I want those luscious lips on mine right now.”

~~~

4th hour was really odd today. Usually when I walk in the class, everyone yells my name or hugs me. Today, I didn’t even get a single glance at the door. Something was up and I didn’t know what it was.

I sat in my seat. I shuffled through my bag to find a mechanical pencil. By the way, why are mechanical pencils called mechanical? There’s nothing mechanical about it. It’s fucking plastic. I pulled out my notebook and began to write more lyrics to the song we started two days ago.

♪ Maybe I‘ll pretend right now
But I swear to god I‘m gonna change the world…
Oh my god, this is paradise. ♪

I glanced at the other song I had in the back of my notebook. I wrote this a while ago but I never mentioned it to Mike. I wrote it way back when I was in Yesterday’s Mistakes. The only person I told was Kellin. He saw it and he loved the lyrics. I didn’t think it was ready to be sung yet. I feel like it needs something at the beginning. I don’t even have a name for it, but I think I might make this song into two separate pieces and connect them in the end.

♪ I’ll be the brightest you’ll see! (x4)
Don‘t rain on my parade
It‘s gonna glow in the dark
I like it better when you can‘t keep warm
Don‘t ruin a perfect thing, a perfect thing
The boy on the blue moon dreams of sun ♪

I really miss Kellin. I don’t see him too much anymore. I’m looking at him right now, laughing with Austin and Alan while Austin shoots spit bubbles to the back of Jenna’s head. She turned around and shot one back at him. There so funny. It’s like she already knew he was gonna do that to her.

Jesse was too busy flirting with some whore in our class. Sorry not sorry. Everyone knows she’s a whore. Long blonde hair with huge boobs, sticking out for everyone too see. Her shorts were pulled up so high. She walks like there’s a stick up her ass. And that girl was Stacy. God, bad memory with her. The day I was having a sex dream about a boy I didn’t think I knew at the time, turned out to be the love of my life, was the day that Kellin asked me if I was screwing her…well in my dream at least.

The teacher was no where in sight. Must be late coming from a meeting, something they tend to do all the time. They hold up our minutes, which means we can’t get to our homework fast enough to finish it before the hour ends. I honestly think teachers should get tardies as well because it’s not fair how they’re late to class and don’t get a Saturday school for it. I mean, well, not a Saturday school but something like that. They should make up a rule where if a teacher is late to class, he can’t give his students homework that day. Fuck yeah, I like that idea! I’m so smart.

Mike was scanning through pictures on his iPhone when I decided to walk over to him. No one came up to me to see how I was doing so I guess I can make that change.

“Whatcha doin’?” I asked. He ignored me. “We have soccer practice later so b-”

“WHAT? YOU’RE GAY AND YOU FUCKED HIM ALREADY?!” Mike said in the most asshole, smartass, sarcastic way he possibly could.

*Jaime’s POV*

I can’t wait to see Vic today. Only a couple more minutes till class starts and we get to practice some more soccer moves together after school. There was only a few minutes before the bell rang when Mike popped in the room, making an announcement. Vic wasn’t in the room yet so I guess it didn’t matter if he heard or not.

“Guys, listen up.” Everyone had all ears on him. He looked outside the door to take a quick glance before speaking again. “I have something to tell you guys. Vic is gay.”

My jaw dropped. His own brother ratted him out; when he clearly told him not to tell anyone. What an ass.

“So?” Alan said, sipping on his water. “I’m bi, but what does that make me?”

“The same beautiful person,” Austin said, kissing his cheek.

I recollect him and Caesar being together. I know for a fact she doesn’t care if Austin is bi or not and is in love with Alan. She has someone better to cherish now.

Tony. My best friend, who’s been through everything with me, someone who knows my past and possibly my future.

“I know, but Vic is really embarrassed and thinks that his reputation will be ruined if people knew. He already knows that I know and so do a couple people that he trusts.”

I took a quick peek at Kellin; he was already eyeing me from his seat. He nodded his head, confirming what Mike said about a couple people that Vic trusts with his secrets.

“It doesn’t matter if he’s gay. He likes boys, whatever,” Jesse added. He turned back to Stacey and stared at her boobs. Fucking perv.

“Well this sucks,” Jenna began, “I really liked him.”

“He has a boyfriend,” I spat to her, already getting invidious from her crushing on him.

“I’d like to know who it is. Who ever can get Vic to cooperate with them deserves an award.”

“Hand it over,” I said, pretending to accept a scholarship to college.

She gave me an addled look. “Wait, you’re his boyfriend?” I nodded my head. “Unbelievable.”

“Wow, Jaime. I’m impressed,” Lyndsey smiled. “He used to be such an asshole and you turned him into a sweet guy.”

“Nah, he turned him into a fucking butterfly,” Mike joined in. Kellin laughed his ass off in the back. Mike can be a real douche face at times, but that was hilarious. Now everyone knows that Vic and I are together. Well, I mean, this is the only class that knows but I‘m pretty sure it will get around. “Ok, when he comes in the class, don’t look at him or talk to him. Don’t even take a peek at him when he walks in the room. If he walks up to me during class at any moment, I’ll blurt it out. Besides, I gotta see his reaction. It’s just to prove a point; the point of no one giving a shit if he’s gay or not. No one cares nor will any of us judge him because he’s still the same guy. And by the way, if he ever flirted with you, he was lying so don’t take it to the heart.” Mike glanced out the door. “Here he comes! Don’t giggle or laugh at him. Don’t look at him or hug him or nothing. Leave it all to me.”

~~~

“Whatcha doin’?” Vic asked Mike, who was playing on his iPhone. He ignored him.

I was really pissed that Mike had to prove his point to Vic. But then again, he shouldn’t be embarrassed for being gay because no one really cares. He’s still one in a million. We are all very accepting of him so I hope he doesn’t flip a shit.

“We have soccer practice later so b-” Vic was cut off by Mike screaming “his point” out to the class.

“WHAT? YOU’RE GAY AND YOU FUCKED HIM ALREADY?!” Mike said in the most asshole, smartass, sarcastic way he possibly could. He didn’t have to fucking go over board with it. Did he really just say fucked him? Yeah, he’s going too far and it’s honestly not necessary.

Vic’s jaw dropped and everyone kept quiet and stared at him, just what Mike told everyone to do.

“Mike?! WHAT. THE. HELL?!” Vic bellowed, now glancing at all the stares he endured.

Mike stood up, looking Vic dead in the eye. “Vic, bro, you don’t have to hide in the closet. It‘s ok to be gay.”

“But…but I’m not gay!” Vic argued. “I don’t know what you’re talking about.”

My heart just sank. It feels like someone ripped it out and put it in a blender. How could he say that? I thought he loved me. He even defined True Love to me. I don’t know how much more I can take. He’s already hurt me twice and one of them was a misunderstanding; the other one, really hurt me inside.

“What? Yes you are! You have a boyfriend and he loves you! Don’t act like you don’t give a shit about him. Like I said, you don’t have to hide in the closet because we’re all accepting you for who you are.” Mike tried to talk some sense into Vic but he wasn’t cooperating.

“I’m not gay, I don’t have boyfriend, and you’re fucking pathetic, Mike!” He stormed out of the room and never came back to class.

He really put me down in front of the everyone. They all know that Vic and I are together. The whole class glared at me with frustration and agony in their eyes. Caesar even came over to my seat and hugged me tightly. I tore up a bit but I didn’t let it get to me.

“That’s boge, man,” Austin said towards me. “Did he really just say that?”

“None of us care if he’s gay or not. We just proved it before class even started. Why does he have to hide it?” Mike discorded, slouching in his chair.

“I’m so sorry, Jaime. I really am. I guess the asshole was still there. It was just hidden behind his sweet smile,” Jenna added, trying to comfort me.

“I just don’t understand what it’s a big deal to him?” Alex put in. “Being gay isn’t gonna make his popularity go down the drain.”

“We all still like him for who he is and we’re not gonna stop being friends with him because of that,” Lyndsey said.

“But seriously though, that’s some bullshit for him to say that!” Jack joined.

Everyone’s comments made me feel a little better. I wiped away my falling tears and dried off my face with my sleeve.

“You ok, Hime Time?” Caesar said, patting my back and leaning her head on my shoulder.

“I guess I’ll be ok. He’s just trying to figure himself out. But I don’t think he had to say he didn’t have a boyfriend. That’s rude, especially when I’m sitting right here!” I don’t even wanna go to soccer practice now because of that. But I have to so what am I gonna do? Not go because of what Vic said? Uh, no. I can’t let that get to me but it did break my heart when he said he didn’t have a boyfriend. He looked straight at me when he said it too.

~~~

*Vic’s POV*

Soccer practice was rolling in. We had a game next week with Clairemont High. Coach still wants to go to the finals and beat Kings Beach but it’s very tough, knowing that Kings Beach hasn’t lost in three years. They got a streak going on but we’re tempted to break it this year…and we will.

I was dribbling the ball around by myself (I usually do it with Mike, but he‘s an asshole so I‘m practicing on my own) when I caught Caesar giving me the evil eye. She walked up to me and placed her hands on her hips.

“Vic, can I talk to you?”

Great, I already know where this is going. It’s because of what happened earlier in 4th hour. I put on a fake smile and kicked the ball in the net. She pulled me to the side and slapped me on the shoulder with all her might.

“Ow! What the hell? That hurt.” I didn’t wanna rub it but she’s got some pretty hard slaps that leave marks.

“Don’t what the hell at me, Vic. What’s wrong with you? How could you say that?”

“Say ow? Well you have hard sla-OW! AGAIN?!”

“You’re such an asshole, Victor! I’m talking about what you said back in the class. Jaime was sitting right there listening to you go off at Mike about how you’re NOT gay. When you left the class, I had to make him feel better because he started tearing up. Let me tell you something. I don’t give a flying fuck about what you said back there. All of us know the real you now and you can’t hide it. None of us care that you’re gay. Austin, Mike, Jenna, Lindsey, Alex, and Jack we’re complaining about how you’re so timid about it. You better fucking apologize or else you really don’t need Jaime around you. You don’t deserve him if you don’t fix this shit between you two. He thinks you don’t love him anymore because you said you didn’t have a boyfriend. I know you love the hell out of him; I see the spark between you two in class sometimes. He even turns around to see if I’m watching and I am. I gave him a thumbs up the other day because he was doing great and not trying to go over his limits with you in class. Fuck the fact that you said you weren’t gay, but saying you didn’t have a boyfriend in front of Jaime made him upset. So plight it or else you don’t fucking deserve him! And you better win this practice game or else we‘re never gonna beat KB in the finals!” She walked away and sat on the sidelines.

Kellin approached me, leaving the risers. “Hey, Vic.”

“I know you didn‘t come over here to wish me good luck, so what is it? It‘s obvi-”

He sighed. “Shut up and let me talk. Don’t throw your love away with Jaime. You know you love him. You won’t find anyone who would forgive you for kissing someone else. When you kissed me, and he saw, he was heartbroken but he still forgave you. If it was you and I dating, I would’ve dumped you for doing that to me. Jaime let it slide because he knows that you love him and you didn’t mean to do it.”

“What’s your point, Kels?” I was sort of fed up with people coming up to me and telling me about what happened in 4th hour. I already know what I said was wrong but…

“That you shouldn’t say stupid shit that you’re going to regret. What if Jaime never moved here? Would your life be altered? You bet your pretty little face it would!”

I chuckled at his comment. “I get it,” I confirmed, staring at my cleats.

“Just remember something, you meet someone, you know he means the world to you, he gives you all his love, so do the same for him.” He walked back to the risers and sat with Caesar.

Realization struck my mind. Caesar was right. I’m an asshole. I shouldn’t have said what I said back there about not having a boyfriend and about not being gay when I clearly am. She’s right about the spark between us. She’s right about me not deserving Jaime. He needs someone who can come out of the closet and be themselves around everybody and not just certain people. He’s not for me. I’m such a dick. But…I’m gonna prove to him that I do love him. Kellin was also precise. When I know for a fact that I have something worth risking, it’s all worth it. Don’t let something valuable just slip away for a stupid comment. Jaime is so beautiful. I met him a while ago, knew he meant the world to me, so I gave him everything, and he did the same for me. But for now, we gotta win this game!

~~~

The soccer game ended and we all cheered to our victory, even though it was just practice. Coach cheered on Mike for making the winning shot.

I ran up behind Jaime and tackled him to the ground, finally not giving a shit if people on the team saw me kiss him. I wrapped my arm around the back of his neck and leaned into him, kissing his beautiful lips, making those necessary butterflies appear in the pit of my stomach just like the day I saw in him in McDonald’s.

“I…..what?” Jaime didn’t know what to say. I made him flustered.

“Shhh, don’t say a word,” I pressed my finger to his lips. I stayed laying on top of him. “Jaime, I’m so fucking sorry about what I said in 4th hour. I didn’t mean it. I was…scared. I’ll admit it, I was so scared about my stupid reputation and I thought people would not want to be my friend anymore. It goes to show that I was wrong and Caesar and Kellin were right.”

“Caesar and Kellin?” he questioned.

“They came up to me before the game started and knocked some sense into me. Especially Caesar. Ok, I take that back; BOTH of them taught me a lesson. If I try to hide the truth with a lie, I can lose the most beautiful thing in the world.”

He gave me a questioning look. “…Me?”

I nodded my head and helped him from the ground, getting him back on his heals. Mike advanced over to us and laughed from me falling on top of Jaime.

“See?! I told you so! God, I hate when I’m right all the time!”

Show off.

But I did learn a valuable lesson. I’m going to keep it in my mind forever. I don’t want to steal what Kellin told me in his letter but I feel the same way…about Jaime.

♪ They say that love is forever
Your forever is all that I need
Please stay, as long as you need
Can’t promise that things won’t be broken, but I swear that I will never leave
Please stay, forever with me. ♪

Notes

*title credit: Pierce the Veil;)
*both sets of lyrics credit: Pierce the Veil;)
*If You Can't Hang reference;p
*James Dean, Audrey Hepburn reference:PP

btw, i think i have mistakes in here so forget those pls...i was in a rush