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This Love Was Out of Control

Me Or Him, It's Your Choice

*Vic’s POV*

“Hey, Kellin! How’s it going?” Kellin was at my front door for the first time since he moved out.

“Hey,” he said flatly. “Can I come in?”

“Sure, man.” He walked in slowly and headed to the living room. “What’s up?”

“Well for one thing,” he started, “can we talk in your room? It’s private and I don’t want Mike hearing it.”

"Mike isn't here right now. But ok."

We walked upstairs and went to my room. We sat on my bed.

“Is there a problem? Are you ok?” I asked, staring at him. It seemed like he didn’t want to tell me. He hesitated for a second and fidgeted his fingers.

“Are you…uh…well…” I had all ears on him. He folded his legs.

“What is it, Kells? You can tell me anything, you know that.” I placed a hand on his knee. He flinched a little and shook off my hand with his leg. “Kellin, please tell me what’s on your mind. What’s wrong? If someone is giving you shit, it’s on!” I pounded my fist in the palm of my hand, acknowledging that I would kill who ever laid on hand on him.

“No,” he laughed a little. “Not that. It’s something else. I’m a little embarrassed to say because I don’t want you to yell at me if I tell you.”

“Just tell me. I won’t yell,” I assured him.

“I saw you…kissing Jaime,” he confessed.

My jaw dropped. The blood in my veins rushed throughout my body. There was tension stuck under my skin and it finally managed to crawl its way up. I stiffened my back and clenched my jaw. My eyes pierced on his like I was stalking my prey.

“W-What? Are you seeing things?” I laughed a little.

“I know I’m seeing the truth…and I don’t like it,” he scowled and folded his arms. “I didn’t know…you were…” He knelt his head down, too embarrassed to say the word.

“Are you gonna bust on me?” I came closer to him.

He sighed and placed a hand on my shoulder. “No…but are you like, in love with him?”

“Yes…I love Jaime. He’s my world,” I smiled to myself. Kellin didn’t seem pleased.

“He’s your world? Do you really love him? You’ve known him probably only for three weeks and you say he’s your world? You’ve known me way longer; since the first day of middle school.”

“What do you have to do with me and Jaime? What does our love have to do with you, Kellin?”

“N-Nothing. Nothing at all.” He got up from my bed and headed for my bedroom door. He quickly twisted the knob and flung open the door. He turned and looked at me furiously. “Hope you’re happy with your newboyfriend.

He emphasized the word boyfriend and it made me upset. He’s not my boyfriend; we just have a thing for each other so technically we’re not together. Neither of us asked each other out yet.

I don’t understand why he’s mad at me. What does he have against me? Being gay? Mike didn’t care and I thought he would be the main one to shoot me down or call me out. But Kellin is just trippin out. I’m still the same asshole of a man. All because I’ve changed a little, in a name, doesn’t make me any less different.

“Kellin, wait!” I ran down stairs and stopped him from leaving. “Are you mad at me? All because I’m g-”

“I’m not against you being gay. I think it’s fine. If you wanna be in love with a guy, then so be it…but…why him? Why…Jaime?”

“What’s wrong with Jaime? If you get to know him, he’s super sweet and funny. He’s someone I can really connect with. He’s so amazing and I couldn’t ask for someone better because he’s the best. He’s-”

“Shut up, Vic! Just shut the fuck up!” Tension aroused from his eyes and they turned red. “You don’t love him! How can you love him?! HIM?! Out of any other guy you could’ve choosen, why that fairy?!”

“Fairy?! How dare you call him that! You don’t know him! You don’t know what he’s been through! You have no right to judge him!”

“But I know you very well and I’m judging you for liking him.” His voice softened. “You can’t love him and be my friend at the same time. I’m sorry. It’s either me or him or our friendship is fucking over. It’s your choice, Fuentes.”

“You can’t do this to me! I’m not choosing between my best friend and the guy I love. It’s not fair.”

He started tearing up. I can’t stand to see Kellin cry. The last time he cried is when someone bullied him in front of me in middle school. I know what I did was wrong so I decided to not be an ass to him anymore and help him out. To stand here and watch him weep now was honestly devastating.

“Please, Kellin,” I choked. I had a lump in my throat that I couldn’t gulp. My eyes filled with a burning sensation of misery. “Don’t make me choose. Don’t make this hard on both of us,” I barely breathed out. “I can’t do it.”

Tears waterfalled his eyes. They steamed down his face and halted at the bottom of his chin. I tried wiping them away.

“Don’t,” he said, steppin away from me. “Six years of friendship and you’re throwing it away for some guy you barely know. Six years over a few weeks?…..I can’t do this anymore, Vic.”

My eyes were hurting. The pain in my heart grew larger with every step Kellin took back and every word he spoke.

“What are y-you s-saying, Kells?” I wanted cut to the chase. He can’t be serious about this.

“I’m so sorry. Our friendship is done. I‘m leaving.”

“No, Kellin! Please no, don’t go,” I pleaded, running to the door and grabbing his arm.

“Don’t…don’t…touch me. Don’t tempt me to do it,” he said staring in my now faded, glassy eyes. “The more you look at me; it’s killin me, Vic. Don’t fucking tempt me.”

“Don’t tempt you to do what?” I questioned.

He brought his soft hand up to my face and caressed my cheek slowly.

“Kellin…..”

“Good-bye, Vic.” He started trailing out the door and I pulled him closer to me.

“Stop! You can’t leave. Where are you going? Home? I doubt it! You’re making it sound like you’re about to terminate yourself.” He looked at me with innocent, glum eyes. There were heavy bags under them and he looked pale. He knelt his head down and began crying. “Oh, Kellin…please don’t do this. You’re my best friend. I’m still the same dumbass or asshole I was before.” He cracked a small grin across his face. “I’m not changing my appearance nor am I transforming the way I act. I’m still Vic. It’s just that now, I’m into guys. You said it didn’t bother you.”

“But why him?” he asked me, still staring at his shoes.

“I fell in love. But I’m no different than how I was like…6 months ago. So please don’t do anything to hurt yourself. Come in so we can talk about this.”

“I don’t wanna talk about it. If I come in, can you just sing to me?”

“Sing?”

“It will make me feel better.”

We walked back in the house and headed for my room. I laid down on my bed and patted the spot next to me. He crawled onto the bed and placed his head on my chest.

“I’ve actually started writing a new song. It’s gonna be an acoustic one since we have no other members to help us with it.”

“What’s it called?” Kellin asked.

“Hold On Till May. I’ve only gotten a small proportion of it done and I think it’s gonna be a middle verse.”

“Can I hear it?”

“It’s not done though…”

“I don’t mind. Lemme hear it.”

And as the sun went down we ended up on the ground
I heard the train shake the windows
You screamed over the sound
And as we own this night
I put your body to the test with mine
This love was out of control
3-2-1 where did it go?


“Why did you stop? That was beautiful.”

“That’s all I got, for now. And we're still best friends, right?”

"Of course."

There was a long pause until I realized that he drifted off to bed. I felt my eyes getting heavy as I closed them and passed along into a deep sleep.

Notes

KEEP READING MY WONDERFUL READERS!;) sorry if there are errors blehxD

Comments

Would really like to see a sequel :)

I just started reading this and im on chapter five then I accidently read the top comment about Jaime dying and now im pissed at myself

You little fucker JAIME IS NOT ALOUD TO DIE I CRYED FOR THREE CHAPTERS STRIGHT but it was nice that you put him memories at the end it's a great story

Ptvlover213 Ptvlover213
5/30/15

DUDE I READ THIS IN 3 DAYS AND RN ITS 1:52 AM AND BAWLING MY EYES OUT LIKE HELLA NOT ONLY BECAUSE OF THE ENDING BUT MY FRIEND'S GOLDFISH JUST DIED AND I COULDN'T HELP TO BE EMOTIONAL BUT GODAMN IT

@piercethevie

Sorry, I just really freaking love this story and I kinda lost it when you killed Jaime.