Worlds Over, Time to Die. Nothing Left but our Souls Inside.

Vic has been writing this journal for a while now but up until now, I've refused to write in it. He finally talked me into it today.

Personally, I've never been one to write. Sure I helped write the pierce the veil albums, including the one we didn't get a chance to release but that was lyrics and music. I was just a bassist. Writing personally I don't feel great about. But if it makes Vic happy, why not.

Currently, I am 'guarding' a storage container we found, but I'm really just using that as an excuse to be alone. I haven't been happy at all since that day. Sure I've got my band and my friends whom are basically my family, but I lost my real family.

Mum, dad, Chris. They're all gone. My entire family. Everything that I was, gone.

I haven't been the same since, and it's taking it's toll on me mentally and emotionally. And it's also having a toll on my friends, but what can I do. When I'm alone at this container, I like to sit and listen to the quiet sound, but it doesn't last long. The voices in my head over take and scream so loud I feel as if my mind is going to collapse.

On occasions, like this one, I let the pain have it's affect and I cry. I can't help but cry. I let the tears fall as if they are an overflowing waterfall. Tumbling down my face, they leave stains. I know I shouldn't, I should be strong for everyone. I should really Help them cope with what they are dealing with, but sometimes I just can't. Letting myself be this weak is my only coping factor.

I am protecting Jessica with my life after with what happened to Erin. I am so scared to lose her. I just couldn't cope losing her. I've lost enough.

I think that's all I'll write for now. This page is beginning to become stained with my tears. Vic will probably make me write again. I just don't know when.

Notes

Hi guys, I'm AbbieSaysHi, and I'll be writing for Jaime. unfortunately I won't be able to write much because I'm just too busy, and it's a little hard trying to keep up with everyone else.

But I hope you guys enjoy (: