Worlds Over, Time to Die. Nothing Left but our Souls Inside.

Everybody was so quiet, after we found out…

We found out...

It's hard to write about it. It's been such a big jump from a death to the birth of Danielle’s son. He was so adorable, and something inside of me tells me I should help and take care of that child, just like if he was my own. Jaime's been quiet too, and I understand.
They were like brothers.
Hell, they all were.
Years and years of spending months and long hours touring and recording, their bond was so tight. It hurts all of us. Alysha's hasn't talked to anyone, she hasn't said a word, since we found out. She would let out screams, and non stop crying then eventually, silence.
Me and Mike were never too close, but we did share many new year's and Christmas's together.
He and Jaime were pretty close, hell I even remember when they both worked on a rap album, just for the heck of it. They laughed and joked about the lyrics, but it came out pretty good in my opinion. It made their bond closer than before. It's like a piece of earth just got destroyed, in our every own shelter. I can't say much about Mike, other than that he was an amazing person, with an amazing personality.
I just wish I could've help him in any way to change his thoughts… but in this chaos, who would ever listen. I asked Jaime if he was okay.

All he gave me was a “yeah. I'm fine.”

I feel like Mike’s death just got him back into the hole he was in the beginning of all this.

In other times, I feel like there's nothing going on with me doing something for our own survival. I just sit there, and stare, and just do nothing. Maybe cause it's been quiet outside for a few days. it's been a quiet, quiet world right now. but I know this silence won't last for long. I can feel it.

On the kind of happy note. Everybody also seems to be happy or with a little high spirits after Ceil was born.
Our little Fuentes.
It was like he was a sign for us to move on, and keep on fighting until we get to secured and ensured safety.
Maybe. I suppose.
Never was the religious one,but signs always do appear, whenever you least expect them. I look around at the faces, who's eyes screamed out a new hope. From our tiny memeber to our oldest.
Mothers were together, giving advice to Danielle, Fathers, in which I mean, Vic and Kellin, just having that dad talk.
Sisters were playing with a brother who lost his.
Everything seemed to be okay.
But I can't say.
Its going to come down somehow, but for now, I will enjoy the view of family that Ciel brought with his arrival. I look at my boyfriend, and well, he's okay.
I know he is.
He always gives me the sight of his smile, that always fills me up with happiness. I could go on and on, but I think the other thoughts are for me to hold on too, as a memory tape paying and recording in my head.

Rest In Paradise, Mikey. One day or another. I'll be seeing you soon.

-J.H.

Notes

What a bunch of downfall of feels, don't you think? but at the same time, what a feels trip! Personally, I was throwing my phone on the table and even making my parents think I was going crazy, but that's okay. Nobody is really THAT sane.


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That's it for me!
Maybe I'll throw in a Liam chapter soon, we shall find out.
Until next time, survivors!
-K