Worlds Over, Time to Die. Nothing Left but our Souls Inside.

I can't even begin to describe what happened. It all went down so quickly but at the same time, it seemed like life slowed to a crawl; A matter of a few minutes somehow turned into an eternity.

I remember the gunshot and the hard thump to the ground above us. It was muffled by the cries from Danielle who had gone into labor and Vic who had no idea as to what he should do about it. He had sent Tony and I to see what had happened and the image, until the day I die, will never leave my head.

I had felt like the world had slowed when we opened the door to the attic. It looked like the set of a cruel horror film. All the blood and gore covering the walls and floor I felt like I couldn't move. One of my best friends was splayed across the floor, pieces of him everywhere yet I couldn't do anything about it but stare. I looked over to Tony who was holding back all the reactive emotions and we both knew how hard this was going to be. I walked out of the room and what little I ate within the day wanted to jump out of my stomach.

I ran down the stairs with urgency, Tony following close behind. I stopped just before the last few steps and looked around at all of the uncertainty in everyone's faces, the hopeful looks from some and the already knowing looks from his brother and his pregnant girlfriend.

It was a heart breaking sight to behold and I hope that never again will I ever have to witness this scene again.

I looked Vic straight in the eyes, keeping my emotions closed off for now, and shook my head. I watched as my best friends, their girl friends and family cry out in the agony of their lost member.

All of their cries and sobs just sounded like white noise to me, the shock hadn't set in yet.
I pushed everything aside when Vic started freaking out even more. Katelynn hopped up from consoling everyone, including herself, to help Danielle. Being through three pregnancies herself, she was a pro with this. Danielle would be in the best of hands.

I tried my best at calming Vic down.

“Listen, I know this is scary right now, but were all going to make this work and none of us are going let anything bad happen to this child.” I said, grabbing ahold of his shoulders. I would do anything for this oncoming child. I couldn't be there to protect my own and I will never let anything happen like that again; my own flesh and blood or not.

He asked me to clear the room and make sure no one ventured upstairs, it was bad enough Tony had to see him like that.

I had cleared the room, making sure everyone stayed in the living room and had everything they wanted. I made soup from what we had left in hopes that it would ease everyone's still aching hearts meanwhile my wife was delivering a child into the fucked up world.

Some religions say that when a person dies, God replaces them instantly with a new life. Low and behold, not even a day after Mike, Ciel was born.

A few hours of quiet sobs and screams from downstairs later, A little one was brought into our messed up little family.

I watched a Vic came up stairs cradling him in his arms while Katelynn was helping a sickly but smiling Danielle up.
We were introduced to the newest member, little Ciel. He was beautiful.

I felt the emotions in the room shift from sadness to joy. It's magical how something so tiny and new can make such a difference in everyone's mood.

I looked at the baby, tears welling up in my eyes as I remembered the day my little girl was brought into this world. His tiny fingers wrapped around mine when Vic handed him to me to hold and I couldn't take it. This little boy was a gift, not just to Vic and Danielle but unknowingly to me as well. I wiped the tears from my face and smiled down at the adorable boy.

I handed him back to Vic and gave him a crooked smile. I felt heartbroken and overjoyed at the same time.

As the days have past in these two weeks, spirits have lifted with Ciel around. While we still mourned the loss of Mike, a new life had all of our attention.

The other day, Vic pulled Alysha and I aside, Danielle was there too with Ciel. I smiled down at the now wide eyed boy and he smiled back.

"What's up Vic?" Alysha asked as she looked down at the boy as well and smiled softly.

"Well, we had something to ask you guys." Danielle said in a soft goofy voice which made Ciel giggle.

"What is it?" I asked, not moving my eyes from Ciel. I cared far too much for this little human than I probably should.

"We want you two to be Ciel's Godparents. We know how much you guys care for him and if anything should happen to Dani or I, We would want you two to take care of him." Vic said with hopeful eyes and both Alysha and I glanced at each other, a little shocked but happy.

"I'd be honored to be his Godfather." I smiled and Alysha agreed.

"It's what Mike would want." She said and nodded her head.
I have a godchild now and he was perfect. I love him like my own and want to protect him like so.


It's good to see everyone finally happy again and while our hearts still hurt and ache for Mike, we remember him in only good memories.

It's been hectic and a wild ride of emotions, I don't think this is the end of it but things are definitely looking up from here.

Soon we'll be back out, traveling to DC in hopes of finding some salvation that Katelynn told us about.

Until next time, little black book.

~KQ

Notes

MY HEART HURTS.


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