Worlds Over, Time to Die. Nothing Left but our Souls Inside.

Nobody knows what I'm planning and thats the most fucked up part of this all. I've given them plenty of fucking signs, but they don't know. They probably don't care. I'm a fucking asshole. Danielle won't even talk to me and if she does she's always angry.

I get that I fucked things up with her, but I didn't mean to at first. At first we both just needed someone that could show us that we both still had worth and were cared for. I guess that just fucked it all up. I'm on my last bottle of alcohol. I had found about 20 bottles and I'm on the last one.

Nobody even knows how I'm feeling. I've been ignoring everyone. Well, everyone except Danielle. I just want her to forgive me and I know not that, that will never happen. God damn I really fucked up. Let's see if I can make this last bottle go slowly.

I can't deal with this world. I kill zombies to get rage out, but then I'm left with the hurt that I've lost people. I'm killing things that could've been my dad. I could've had to kill my dad! That thought haunts me every damn day. I think I'm going insane.

Drinking is the only way I can cope with this world. It makes me numb. Sometimes I just want to get so drunk that I can't kill a zombie, just so one can bite me and I have a reason to die. Sometimes I question on if I should just kill myself, but I look at my mom and brother and realize that I can't do that to them.

That just makes me sound worse. I can kill myself because I care about my brother and how he would feel, but I'll fuck his girlfriend and possibly get her pregnant. God, what kind of fucked up person does that? I guess the answer would be me.

I just want the world to go back to normal....I want my life back.

Notes

The next Mike chapter will tell you his completed plan. This just was kinda spur of the moment, but I hope it's good. I haven't been doing too well lately, but really wanted to go with this feeling I had that was telling me to write in this story.

Prepare yourself for the next Mike entry to find out what his plan has been.

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-Rose