Worlds Over, Time to Die. Nothing Left but our Souls Inside.

Days, weeks, months. How long has it been? I don’t know what day it is. I don’t know how long this has been going on. I want it to end! I am so tired of being uncertain, being scared for my own damn life! Vic has shut me out and everyone else has their own problems. It’s so tense and no one is really mentally here. They all have their heads elsewhere. I have been sneaking out quite a bit. I see what Rebecca has been doing, I’ve heard the fights between Kellin and Mike and I hear what Alysha says to him. No one notices, no one cares. We are pretty much fighting for ourselves at this point it feels like.

I want to rip my hair out. I want to scream and curse the heavens. What good will that do? No one will hear me. The thought crosses my mind at times that we are the only ones alive.What if we are? Are we going to be forced to spend the rest of our lives fleeing and fighting? I didn’t ask for this. None of did! We didn’t want to become murders. We wanted to continue on with our glorious lives. I was a model, now I’m forced to wield a knife and slay what could be friends. How fair is that?

Can you tell I haven’t had anyone to talk to? I have distanced myself from the group but they haven’t noticed, least of all Vic. I don’t even think I’ve eaten in two days. I know I haven’t slept in at least three, or what it four, days? I feel my mind slowly slipping away. I didn’t know what else to do. I figured maybe if I wrote how I was feeling that it would help sort things out. Maybe show me a different way.

I’ve been getting reckless lately. I fall behind and stray away from the group. I go out on scouting missions and leave the group then. When I am on lookout I leave the camp when my partner isn’t paying attention. I’m not sure why I am doing it either. Am I suicidal? Is this my way of trying to die without doing it myself? I DON’T KNOW!

All I know is I feel this darkness creeping up on me. It’s consuming me and driving me mad. It doesn’t really matter though. No one notices and no one cares. It’s a dog eat dog world. Every man for themselves. I wasn’t cut out for this life. I enjoyed being coddled and pampered.

Maybe someone out there will read this. Maybe it’s pointless on our parts and we only do it because we don’t want to think that we’re alone. I am starting to think we might be. We might just be the end of the human race finally dying out. This is our extinction, just like the dinosaurs….


Sorry I just threw up. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I didn’t even really have anything to throw up since I haven’t eaten anything. I guess all this worry is stressing me out. I am feeling weak now so I better go.

~Danielle

“In the end, As you fade into the night ,Who will tell the story of your life?”

Notes

Well hello beautiful people! It has been way to long! Things have been hella crazy and busy lately. School, work, and school. It's never ending.

Hope you guys enjoyed this little chapter. Have a look into Danielle's mind. She is kind of losing it. Who really wouldn't tho? It's the end of the world as we know it!

~Raz (I might be a bit crazy *insert crazy laugh*)