Worlds Over, Time to Die. Nothing Left but our Souls Inside.

I know a lot of you are probably wondering what happened. Honestly I don’t really even know. Papa Fuentes got bit and now is gone. How did I not know, how did we not know? He hid it from all of us. To say that I am devastated is putting it mildly. We travel on somberly and no one hardly talks. I don’t even know how to help Vic.

He has closed himself off. He refuses to talk to anyone, including me. Thankfully Mike has Alysha and he seems to find some comfort in her. Their mother is heartbroken though. We have made a sled to carry her on because she can’t even walk. She just falls to the ground in tears.

I thought that maybe this trip would be better than staying where we were but I am starting to second guess that decision. I feel so empty right now. Vic trails at the end of the group and if I try and talk to him he just shrugs me off. I know it’s hard to lose someone you love but I feel like if I can’t reach him, I will lose him. I have no idea what he is feeling right now.

We have been traveling for a few days now and I can tell everyone is losing heart. Our food has also been running a bit low because some of it spoiled. We made a group decision that once we found a suitable place, we would make camp for a while and find food and collect ourselves.

Honestly it seems like the hordes are getting worse. They are in bigger groups and we see them more often. We have already fought so many and we are on high alert to make sure no one gets bitten. What are we really going to do if someone gets bit? That is what worries me. We don’t know how to cure it. What if I get bit? What is going to happen? Am I going to kill myself, will someone else have to do it? These questions keep me up at night.

I hardly get any sleep at all and what sleep I do get is riddled with nightmares. I dream that I have been bitten and I can’t control myself and I bite everyone else and Vic kills me. It’s the same dream every night and I wake up in a cold sweat with tears running down my face. I haven’t told anyone else because they all have their own problems. I just really don’t want to see this dream come true.

We still haven’t seen any signs of life other than our group. No one else is around or they are all hiding. We stumbled upon a deer the other day and someone managed to shoot it. However we couldn’t eat it because it was infected. It seemed whatever it was was spreading to the animals. That only terrified me even more.

Now when we stop to camp, the fires are brighter and the guards are more alert. No one is allowed to leave to at all without someone with them. We found a pond a day or so ago and the girls bathed while the guys kept guard then the guys bathed will the girls watched out. We washed our clothes and moved on.

It felt good to wash up, even if it was only for a little bit. We have none of the luxuries we took for granted just a month ago. I had no idea our life was going to change so drastically. I would have to my parents I loved them, I would have spent more time with friends, I would have cherished life just a little bit more.

This whole experience has changed me. Let’s just hope I can survive it.


~Danielle

“Tell my voice what it takes to speak up, speak up. And keep my conscience clean when I wake”

Notes

What's gonna happen next??

~Raz