I Introduce The Selfish Machine

"Your hair smells so good." Tony whispered as he shoved his face into my neck. It was three in the morning, and we were laying in our bed back home in San Diego. The rain hit the window fiercely.
"I just bought some new shampoo, so I'm glad you like it." I said, flipping through Leanna's giant wedding notebook. She was a wedding planner, and insist on planning ours. I was just searching for things we might like.
Mrs. Perry. Piper Perry. The Perrys. I like that.
Tony's arms wrapped around my waist, and he tugged me, then rolled over so my back was on top of his chest. I watched the muscles in his arms flex as he squeezed me. My bare back was cold against his bare chest.
"Tony, what are you doing?" I asked, placing my head next to his in the most awkward way.
"Cuddling with you."
"I'm cold."
"It's probably because you're not wearing a shirt. I mean, I'm not complaining, but, I mean-"
I sat up, my butt against his hips. I put the big notebook on top of his chest. "We need to pick a date so we can get pictures done and send out save the date invites." I may not be a girly girl, but I love weddings.
"Don't sit on me like this." He stated.
"Why?"
He sighed, and I could feel why. "There's only two thin layers between us and well, you can feel why."
I sighed. "Oh, alright. Just pick a date."
"October 21."
"This year or next?"
"2012."
I rolled off Tony and sat up beside him. "Pay will be old enough to be our flower girl so that'll work." I said. The book still sat on Tony's chest, and he started rubbing my lower back as I looked through it.
I should have just said yes at the restaurant. I shouldn't have ran out. I know Tony feels like I'm going to run out of again, but I won't. I promise I won't. I actually love him.
I leaned over and kissed Tony, passionately. "I love you, Tony."
He was a little taken back, but then smiled at me. "I love you, Piper."
I moved the book off his chest, then turned off the lamp. I snuggled up next to him, my ear right on top of his heart. I listened to the thud as he pulled me against him, holding me tightly. I never even thought I'd date a guy this long, or even marry someone. But, here I am, laying in the arms of the man I truly love. I don't deserve this. Not even in the least bit. He shouldn't have taken me back, but I'm grateful that he did.
Right when I started dirfting off, my phone vibrated on the side table. I heard Tony groan next to me as I sat up to answer it. It was from Leanna.
"Leanna, do you have any idea what time it is?" I asked, but she didn't hear me. She was screaming and crying into the phone. "Leanna, Leanna, what's wrong?"
When she told me, my jaw dropped. I jumped out of bed, pulling a pair of sweats on and a tank top, I didn't even bother with a bra. I was slipping my flips flops on when Tony spoke up.
"What's going on?"
I paused. I didn't want to say it, because the moment I said it, it would become real. "Lee's at the hospital. She-she thinks she's misscarrying."

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