Let Love Bleed Red
You'll Pay For Your Sins
I was 10 only 10 when my mother walked out on me and my dad. I still don't know why she left, my dad always tell me it's because she didn't love me. But I refuse to believe that. He enjoys making me feel like shit. Ever since she left he been an alcoholic, and when he drinks he gets verbally and physically abusive. I've been hospitalized so many times I can't even keep count. But every time he'd come up with some clever excuse as to why I was like that. I cut to numb the pain, and I have been since I was 12. Partially because of my home life and partially because I get severely bullied at school for being "different". I've only had 3 friends since middle school but they bailed on me. I decided to get out of bed and ready for my first day at San Diego High. After I was as satisfied with my appearance as ill be, i slipped out of the house. Skipping breakfast, as usual.
"Good morning! How can I help you?" The overly happy secretary asked me.
"Um..I'm K-kellin. I'm new here." I replied almost inaudibly.
"Oh yes! Here is your schedule, sweetie. On the back is your locker number and combination. Have a good first day!" I let out a small smile and hurried out of the office in search of my locker.
Once I found it, i put my things in there and took out the things I thought I'd need. I closed my locker and attempted to walk to class with my head down in hopes I wouldn't have to speak to anyone, but failed horribly. I bumped into someone which resulted in me being slammed into a locker, hard.
"Wanna tell me why you did that?" A guy with short hair, angel bites, and weird contacts seethed.
"I'm s-sorry.. I d-didn't mean t-to." I stuttered. He slammed his fist into the locker next to me which made me jump and start crying.
"Awwww, is the little faggot crying? I'll give you something to cry about." As he pulled his arm back to punch me I heard the most angelic voice.
"Josh back the fuck off!" The guy yelled. Josh laughed before directing his punch to my stomach which caused me to yell out in pain and fall to the ground, dropping my things.
"The pussy had it coming, he fucking bumped into me!" Josh yelled back.
"I don't give a shit! It was obviously an accident. Just leave the poor kid alone." The beautiful tan guy with chocolate brown eyes and perfectly straight teeth argued.
"Whatever, Fuentes. Have fun with this faggot." The kid shook his head at Josh and extended his arm out, helping me up. I couldn't help but blush when he didn't let go of my hand.
"Oh, sorry man. You okay?" He said as he pulled his hand back. What was I thinking anyways? He's obviously not gay. And even if he was he wouldn't go for a fat, ugly, suicidal freak like me.
"Y-yeah, I'm f-fine." Fuck this stutter. I wish I wasn't so nervous talking to people.
"Good. I'm Vic." Vic said with a warm smile. What a beautiful name to match such a beautiful person.
"K-kellin." I said quietly.
"Nice to meet you Kellin." The way he said my name made my knees go weak. "What class do you have first?" I took the piece or paper out of my back pocket and it read that I had math first.
"Math." I said.
"Oh, sweet! That means we have class together." I couldn't help but smile knowing I could get to know Vic better. Maybe I will finally have a friend. Maybe things will get a little better. Maybe this year will be a good one.
"Good morning! How can I help you?" The overly happy secretary asked me.
"Um..I'm K-kellin. I'm new here." I replied almost inaudibly.
"Oh yes! Here is your schedule, sweetie. On the back is your locker number and combination. Have a good first day!" I let out a small smile and hurried out of the office in search of my locker.
Once I found it, i put my things in there and took out the things I thought I'd need. I closed my locker and attempted to walk to class with my head down in hopes I wouldn't have to speak to anyone, but failed horribly. I bumped into someone which resulted in me being slammed into a locker, hard.
"Wanna tell me why you did that?" A guy with short hair, angel bites, and weird contacts seethed.
"I'm s-sorry.. I d-didn't mean t-to." I stuttered. He slammed his fist into the locker next to me which made me jump and start crying.
"Awwww, is the little faggot crying? I'll give you something to cry about." As he pulled his arm back to punch me I heard the most angelic voice.
"Josh back the fuck off!" The guy yelled. Josh laughed before directing his punch to my stomach which caused me to yell out in pain and fall to the ground, dropping my things.
"The pussy had it coming, he fucking bumped into me!" Josh yelled back.
"I don't give a shit! It was obviously an accident. Just leave the poor kid alone." The beautiful tan guy with chocolate brown eyes and perfectly straight teeth argued.
"Whatever, Fuentes. Have fun with this faggot." The kid shook his head at Josh and extended his arm out, helping me up. I couldn't help but blush when he didn't let go of my hand.
"Oh, sorry man. You okay?" He said as he pulled his hand back. What was I thinking anyways? He's obviously not gay. And even if he was he wouldn't go for a fat, ugly, suicidal freak like me.
"Y-yeah, I'm f-fine." Fuck this stutter. I wish I wasn't so nervous talking to people.
"Good. I'm Vic." Vic said with a warm smile. What a beautiful name to match such a beautiful person.
"K-kellin." I said quietly.
"Nice to meet you Kellin." The way he said my name made my knees go weak. "What class do you have first?" I took the piece or paper out of my back pocket and it read that I had math first.
"Math." I said.
"Oh, sweet! That means we have class together." I couldn't help but smile knowing I could get to know Vic better. Maybe I will finally have a friend. Maybe things will get a little better. Maybe this year will be a good one.
update! !!!!
2/27/14