Tony's POV

“Promise me you'll try not to get bad again.” I whispered as she cried harder than ever.

“I can't do that Tone, I can't promise that stuff.”

I never thought for one second she would ever get bad again. I remember that day like it was yesterday. That day I had found her in the bathroom after trying to take her own life.

Ever since we were kids, I had always been protective of her. I got even more protective of her at the age of 13 when I began to fall for her. Yes it was possible to fall in love at such a tender age. I never told her, I kept it to myself. I didn't want to ruin the friendship we had together.

Bianca had a rough upbringing, I felt for her I really did. Her father, her real father, was an abusive drunk. He'd beat her, verbally abuse her. She'd sneak out late at night, come to mine just to escape him. She acted tough but deep down she was just a broken girl at that time.

“I don't know what I'd do without you.” she smiled gently up at me, wiping the tears from her face.

“It's what friends are for, I love you B.”

“Love you Tone.”

Everytime I told her I loved her, I meant it. I didn't just mean it in a friendship way, I literally meant it. I did love her, if only she knew just how I felt. Let me skip forward to high school, or should I say when we met the Fuentes brothers. I remembered them from the night before, they had basically crashed my party.

Vic seemed straight up decent, Mike on the other hand I instantly didn't like. I knew his type. I'd seen him eyeing up Bianca that night. He'd screw her over, that's what people like him did. I didn't want him hurting my girl. Now for a while they got on, which to me was weird considering they argued so much.

Anyway, have you ever sat back and watch the girl you love be with someone else? Watched that person break them down? All because I was too much of a pansy to tell her how I felt. Now look where it's left us? It's left nothing but heartbreak. I wonder, did she really know just how much she means to me?

She literally meant everything to me, it may not of seemed like it but I would of died for her. I'd of taken a bullet for her, I'd of done everything I could to make her smile, to make her feel protected, make her feel loved. That's all she needed.

She needed someone there, but we weren't. That's what kills me inside, I know I wasn't there for her. I let the girl I fell in love with down.

What is there to say? Well let's start with how beautiful she really was. That's one thing no-one could ever deny, she truly was beautiful. On the inside & the outside. She was kind as well. Always put people first, maybe that's not such a good thing if you think back. Maybe she'd of opened up more if she wasn't like that as much.

I regret ever losing touch with her when the band made it big, the hurt I caused was unbelievable. She trusted me and I broke her just a little bit. I really didn't want her to stop trusting me, but I guess it wouldn't happen. If I'm honest I kind of took her for granted.

No-one expects a suicide like that, I never expected it from Bianca again.

When I found out she was expecting Adriana, I was pretty excited. I knew what night it would be from, which meant me & Mike both being the possible father. I prayed every day, that it would be me. Mike didn't like it, he hated the fact I was Adriana father.

We got closer than ever, I stayed with her and helped every possible way a daddy can. There was just one thing, Bianca started to grow distant. She would stay in her room, she wouldn't hold our daughter, she began rejecting her as such.
I should of been able to spot the signs, I should of been able to save her. I didn't want her to leave, she didn't have to go. My beautiful princess thought she had no other option.

Maybe if I'd of gone about things differently. It'll always be a 'maybe if...' or a 'what if...'.

I made a promise to her that I would make sure Adriana grew up to be a good girl, I would do that. I would make her proud of me once again.

From here on out Bianca, I promise to look after myself, look after Adriana. I promise you I'll never forget you, I promise you I'll love Adriana with every last breath in me.

I promise you, I won't let you down. Not this time.

I hope to god she's in a better place. She deserves nothing but happiness.

I wish I could of been the reason you did smile when you were here, with us. She was one of a kind, something special & I swear to god you will not find someone who loves her more than I do.

One day, I'll get too see her again. Until then, all I can do is be strong for the people around me. Be strong for my little girl, be strong for Bianca.

I love her, I always will.

I miss her, I always will.

Rest In Paradise beautiful.