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Make Me A Promise

We Miss You ~ Part 3

Natalie's POV

Where do I start? I have no idea. I could not begin to tell you how much I loved her. She was my partner in crime. Bianca was the greatest friend anyone could ask for.

I remember how we met. Our parents worked together & had organised a play date for us. We were 6 years old, I remember seeing her arrive. She had Jaime with her. She was telling him off about something, I knew we'd instantly be good friends.

Oh we really did become good friends. We'd spend hours in each others rooms. Me, her & Jaime. My mother always told me not to get too close, I soon realised why. At the age of 8 I moved away. Even so young, I missed her.

We were reunited at the age of 17. I had transferred to a school in San Diego for my senior year. She instantly knew who I was. She never did forget me. That was one good thing about her, she didn't forget people.

Being away from her that long was horrible because she was the first proper friend I had ever made. I used to beg my mom to take me to see her. It never did work.

Anyway, I soon learned more about her. She had battled depression due to family problems that she never did tell me. I was proud of her, she never gave up fighting against it. She was a happy girl. One day she took me to meet up with the rest of her group of friends. I have her to thank for Vic. If it wasn't for her, I'd of never of got this far with him.

During the rough patches of my life, Bianca always helped me. I used to call her up, tell her code red and she'd soon be round with a tub of ice cream and films. She'd sit with me, talk to me, help me see positive sides to things.

That's one thing I loved about her, no matter what she was doing she always made time for the people she cared about. Maybe always putting others before herself wasn't good, but it showed she cared about people, it showed she loved the people around her.

Her life was far from the perfect fairytale. She had her ups and downs, her depression came back. She began harming herself again to free herself from the pain she was already feeling inside. I tried to help her, I tried my hardest to help my best friend. I failed her.

I always think to myself about our childhood. Them 2 years as children, the laughs we had. What really caused such a beautiful girl to start out a path of self-destruction? Why did such a kind beautiful girl feel like she had no other option?

What did I love about her the most? Her personality. She could light up a crowded room in a spilt second. There was something about her that made her different. Her smile could cheer anyone up. I've never been so proud to call someone my best friend.

Everyone loved her, when she was with Mike after Pierce The Veil hit the big time, even the fans loved her. There were a few that didn't, the stuff they'd say was horrible. It was the fangirls who thought they really had a chance with him. Do you know what it's like to be called pathetic, worthless, not good enough, fat, ugly?

That's what she used to get, she was non of them things. If they had given her half a chance they would of known she was a caring person. I don't mean to bitch but it infuriates me to see that people would do that.

Bianca's death has hit us all hard, especially Tony. But who can blame him? The guy has been in love with her since high school. I will never know why they stopped dating. I've taken it just as bad but I have to be strong for the sake of the others. No-one knows that I lay in my room or my bunk just crying, just crying until I fall asleep.

No-one knows that I sit alone looking through old pictures of us, praying to god that we could have her back. No-one knows when I'm alone I scream out loud with pain knowing she's not here. On the outside I'm portrayed as strong to the others but inside I'm breaking down.

What more do you expect? I can't keep pretending everything is fine when it's not.

Please come back to me, to us.

I miss you princess, I always will.

Comments

@Turtles____
I'm going to say yes? There's a sequel to this, then a sequel to the sequel which I'm currently writing/posting at the moment.
vickyptv vickyptv
11/20/13
Sequel to the sequel? Yes or yes?
Turtles____ Turtles____
10/28/13
Ive read this story multiple times and each time I bawl and its fucking perfect <3
CourageKeeper CourageKeeper
8/17/13
Ive read this story multiple times and each time I bawl and its fucking perfect <3
CourageKeeper CourageKeeper
8/17/13
I just finsihed the story. I had to run up to l my room so my mom wouldn't ask why I was crying. This story was sad, but still perfect in every way!