Login with:

Facebook

Twitter

Tumblr

Google

Yahoo

Aol.

Mibba

Your info will not be visible on the site. After logging in for the first time you'll be able to choose your display name.

A War in My Head

Numb

I feel so incredibly guilty about what happened with Tony last night at the end of exams party. My mind can’t wrap itself around the whole situation, why did it happen? Did he mean what he said about him being in love with me? If so why didn’t he tell me before now? I don’t know what to do now. Thinking of Tony’s kiss makes things difficult. I don’t know why but it’s a totally different feeling from Vic’s. Something I’ve never felt before and I honestly know know how he made me feel it. I see Tony in a whole new light now, one that I don’t know if I can turn back on now.

My mom told me never to give my heart away if I’m unsure who it belongs to. Did I give Vic my heart too soon? Honestly I shouldn’t have gotten involved with anyone this close to graduation. I have way too much to lose, I’m move to LA with Alex and Brian in two days and I haven’t even told Vic yet. My parents are unaware and I can’t even deal with telling them yet.

Vic looked at me from across the park. His smile could light up the whole world but he was too damaged to know it. I found his journal, the songs in it were broken. His heart was broken, and this relationship was the only thing keeping it together.

I felt the fire in my heart burn when he looked at me. I couldn’t break his heart when I leave but he isn’t for me. I know this now. We aren’t meant to be, but that doesn’t stop me from loving him. It doesn’t stop me for yearning him every second of the day. It hurts to imagine my life without him, or the rest of the guys but it is vastly becoming my future.

No one would ever know the depth of my feelings for San Diego but I have to get out of here. I stood up and walked over to Vic. “I love you” I told him for the first time; he looked at me with the most sincere looks of love I’ve ever seen.

Vic stood up and took my hand in his, “I love you too Lynn” He whispered. And that’s all Victor Fuentes ever wanted, was someone to love him. Whether it’s real love or just something between two teens, I got to give him it. The real thing he wanted.

All those weeks ago in that parking lot, he told me he wanted someone who wanted him back. I gave him that. I got to give him it. And now I’m two days away from taking it all away.

----

“Look at you Lynn, you’re like a princess” My mom told me, for the millionth time. I didn’t wanna look like a princess. I sorta look like a kid on those beauty pageants. I’m so out of sorts here. My dress was black and white, my mom had no luck trying to get me to wear a prom dress that was any other colour. It fell down to the floor, it was backless and wrapped around my neck with a simple strap. It wasn’t too fancy but it still makes me really uncomfortable. My hair was down and wavy, just as normal.

“Mom, I look like I should be going to a film premier” I huffed. She rolled her eyes and took another picture of me. The doorbell rang and I walked over and opened it.

Tony stood on the other side in a suit. I looked at him and smiled, we haven’t really spoken since the party. I kinda hoped he would forget it like I have tried to. People will just get hurt otherwise. “You look awesome” He said softly, it broke my heart to hear him speak like that. He deserves so much better.

“Thank you Tony, you look so handsome” I smiled at him.

“Budge over Tony” I heard a voice from behind him. Tony moved over to let Jaime, Vic and Harley into my house. Vic kissed me quickly and I closed the door behind Tony.

“I need to get pictures of you guys” My mom gushed, she loved my friends for some strange reason. I guess she’s finally over Taylor.

We all got together and took a few pictures. She made me and Vic pose for some couple pictures. “It sucks that Mike isn’t here” I sighed to Vic.

“Don’t worry babe, he’s gatecrashing” Vic winked at me. I could smell whiskey on his breath, making me frown. I wasn’t aware everyone was getting drunk at prom.

“Oh okay, that’s good” I smiled at him, it wasn’t genuine. Nothing was tonight.

“Let’s go or we’re gonna miss our own prom” Jaime reminded us all. I said bye to my mom and dad, they were happy that I was going to prom and having a nice time.

We got into the limo and were at prom in no time. It was being held at a nearby hotel which was really fancy and pretty. I got out the limo and took everything in. Tonight had to be special, in every way. We walked into the room and it was filled with people, beautiful dresses and smart suits. Everything was so, prestine. I’m not sure it’s something I like, being imperfect is something I’ve always enjoyed.

Taylor looked over to us and walked over. “Well, well, well the freak show has arrived” She smirked at us. I rolled my eyes and pushed past her.

“I really can’t wait to never see her again” Tony moaned loudly. I nodded in agreement. I know how he feels.

After some light refreshments and some dancing to shitty chart music, it was finally time for prom king and queen. Harley was announcing the winners since she was the head of prom committee. “Hi everyone, I hope you are all having a really good night so far. It’s time to announce the king and queen of prom” She seemed so confident which is good. I’m proud of her. “The nominees for king are: Jack Abrams” A few cheers were made. “Alexander Jackson” A few more cheers were made. “And Jaime Preciado” A shit ton more cheers and clapping were made. Mainly from us but a lot of people were cheering for Jaime. “This years prom king is... Jaime Preciado!” Harley shouted.

We all looked at Jaime. He was in shock. He kept mouthing what, over and over again. After a few minutes he made his way up to the stage. “Oh my God” Jaime said into the microphone. Harley gave him his crown and he just looked so happy. “Thank you, everyone who voted for me. I know I’m not exactly the most intelligent or important person but it means a lot that people wanted me to win. Thank you!” Jaime stepped back and everyone clapped, cheered and roared for him. He looked so happy.

Harley walked back over to the mic and waited for the crowd to die down. “And now for prom queen” She grinned. “The nominees are: Lisa Thomas” A few cheers. “Hannah Charles” A few more cheers but nothing special. “Taylor Owens” A small number of cheers and boos mixed. It made me laugh. “And Lynn Gunnulfsen” Harley looked at me and smiled, the cheers were so loud. “And the prom queen is...” I took a breath, kinda nervous actually. “Lynn Gunnulfsen” Harley said happily into the mic. The crowd were really cheering for me. It felt nice.

I walked up to the stage and Harley put the crown on me. I looked at Jaime and he gave me a hug. The microphone was there, and it was time to do what I was up here to do. I walked over to it and took a deep breath. “Thanks for everyone who voted for me, it means the world to me. Thank you so much. I never thought I’d be the one to win something like this” I took another breath. “I used to be best friends with Taylor Owens” I said pointing to her in the crowd. Everyone looked at her. “But I realised that she’s a horrible person, and if you’re in doubt then I want you all to know first hand why she’s a horrible person” I looked at Vic and Tony in the crowd. They were all waiting. “I’ve kept text messages she’s sent me about EVERYONE in our year. Feel free to read them all” I said nodding towards Mike. He was standing behind the stage. He pulled the rope that dropped hundreds of sheets of paper, with all the bitchy comments and texts about our peers. “Have a good life everyone” I watched as the paper fell around everyone. Taylor stared at me in disbelief. The paper fell like confetti.

I walked off stage and over to Vic and Tony. “Well done” Vic smiled at me, his revenge was brutal but I did it for him. Taylor broke down into tears, people were finding their burns and she was getting cornered.

“Lynn!” I heard. I spun around and seen it was my principle. “That stunt was disgusting. Leave now” He told me.

“Will do sir” I saluted him. I grabbed Vic’s hand and we all left. Tony, Harley, Jaime and Mike in tow. We walked past Taylor. She gave me a sad look but as I walked by I just gave her the middle finger, it ripped her apart.

We went back to Vic and Mike’s house, their parents were gone. Everyone decided to get wasted and have an after prom party. Everyone except me. I didn’t want to be drunk tonight. Once everyone was suitably wasted, they left. But I didn’t. Vic asked me to stay the night, and I said yes.

“I love you so much Lynn” He mumbled to me, looking at me with such love. I felt my heart melt.

“I love you too Vic” I kissed him softly. His lips tasted like peppermint. We fell backwards onto his bed, my hands firmly around his neck. He trailed kissing down my jawline and onto my neck. Making me moan slightly. I pulled him back up so I could look into his eyes. “Vic” I said quietly.

“Yeah?” He stared into my eyes.

“I want to give you myself tonight” I mumbled, looking at his lips. His face broke out in a huge smile. He kissed me again but this time it was so much passion. Like he’d needed me or he’d die.

I forgot that I hadn’t told my parents I was staying at Vic’s tonight and my phone began ringing. It was in my bra so I couldn’t just ignore it. Vic pulled away and I sat up. “Go into the hall if you want” Vic suggested. I nodded and walked out of his room.

“Hello?” I answered the phone.

“Lynn where are you?” My mom spoke down the phone. It’s unusual but she rarely phones me to see where I am.

“I’m at Vic’s, we went for an after party thing” I explained.

“Oh okay, have a nice night” She said softly down the phone, obviously very tired.

“Thank you, you too mom” I said hanging up the phone.

I was about to walk back into Vic’s room when Mike came out of the bathroom. He drunkenly smiled at me and then fell over. “Oops” He giggled to himself. I helped him up and took him to his room, laying him on his bed. “Thanks Lynn” He mumbled. I just kissed his forehead and got up to leave. “Wait” He whispered.

“What’s wrong Mike?” I asked him. He grabbed my hand pulled me down to sit next to him on the bed.

“I’m sorry if I was shitty to you in the beginning” He mumbled. I just laughed.

“It’s okay Mike you weren’t shitty” I told him. He just shook his head.

“I didn’t think you’d stick around, you weren’t meant to. Vic said you wouldn’t” He said softly.

“What do you mean?” I asked him.

“Vic bet me that he could make you hate Taylor and ruin her life for $25. Vic wanted to turn you against her and make you fall in love with him. He hates her so much and it ruined him what she did to him” Mike slurred. “He wanted revenge and saw you as the best way to get it. I went along with it” He could barely hold his head up. “I’m sorry” He mumbled, closing his eyes and falling asleep.

I felt like my chest was going to burst. My eyes watered and were about to spill. How could Vic do that? I’m just a bet? I stood up, legs aching. There was $25 lying on Mike’s bedside cabinet, so I picked it up. I could barely see from the tears in my eyes. I walked down the hall to Vic’s room and opened the door. He lay on his bed, staring at the ceiling, singing softly to himself. He sat up once he realised I was standing at the doorway. “Hey babe, was that your mom then?” He asked sweetly. I felt like strangling him.

I walked over to him and dropped the money onto his lap. “You won” I shot at him. He looked up at me with a confused look on his face.

He picked it up and made a face at it. “What do you mean?” He asked, confusion all over his face.

“You successfully ruined Taylor’s life and made me fall in love with you. Well done, I hope it was worth it for twenty five fucking dollars” I spat at him.

“No, no that’s not what happened I swear” He stood up and grabbed my hand.

“Get off me!” I screamed at him. The tears were streaming down my face. “I was just a fucking bet to you. That’s it!” I shouted. The pain was unbearable.

“Lynn let me explain” He begged.

“No!” I screamed. I ran out of his room and down the stairs. “If you dare follow me I will call the cops you asshole” I cried as I left his house, slamming the door. I couldn’t go home, but I have nowhere to go... except Tony’s.

I walked towards Tony’s house, the cold air nipped at my bare skin and the broken pieces of my heart filled the street around me. When I arrived at Tony’s house I knocked on the door softly. After a few minutes the door opened to reveal a very tired looking Tony. “Lynn what’s wrong?” He asked, worry covering his face.

Notes

Second last chapter...

Comments

Sequel! You make my heart hurt!



please write a sequel I'm begging

xonsd xonsd
4/25/15

Sequel!

kelseyyy_lee kelseyyy_lee
4/25/15

Goddamn that was a good story

freedom_writer freedom_writer
4/25/15

@Candy_Monster

;)

Colourfultears Colourfultears
4/25/15