Mirrors on the Outside
Chapter 16
~Laura's POV~
It's been a few weeks now, and things are good. At least, I think they are. I wouldn't know, since my only previous relationship was Craig, and that just doesn't count. No questions there.
Jaime's always been sweet, but I mean as a boyfriend, he couldn't possibly be any nicer. There's only one thing I'm scared of, and that's love. Sure, I tell the guys I love them as friends all the time. But I never had family to love. I never had friends I said that to before this, and I certainly never loved Craig.
He hasn't brought it up, clearly, since our relationship is so young, but I'm kind of frightened for when it does. I feel like either I'll say it and not be totally sure or understand if I mean it, or not be able to say it back and really hurt him. That's the last thing I want to do.
I guess I'll just have to talk to my turtle. Incidentally, we are curled up in his bunk watching movies, so now or never.
"Hey Tone, can I talk to you about something real quick?"
He pauses the movie. "Of course!" He responds, smiling and brushing my hair out of my face. I gulp quickly.
"Have you ever been.... in love?"
He looks at me for a second and his smile grows. "I don't think so, sweetheart. I've only ever dated a few times, and it was never serious."
"Oh." I deflate a little, but of course Tony notices.
"Why, Lala? What's on your mind?"
"I - I think I might love Jaime. But I'm scared because you guys are the first people I've ever loved, even as friends. And I don't want to say it and not really mean it, but I also don't want to not be able to say it at all. I mean, he hasn't said anything, it's just me overthinking, I guess. Never mind, let's just keep watching."
He shakes his head. "Girl, you have to own up to your feelings. That's all that is important in a realtionship when you really care. So if it comes up or it feels right, speak your mind. That's the only true advice I can give."
It's been a few weeks now, and things are good. At least, I think they are. I wouldn't know, since my only previous relationship was Craig, and that just doesn't count. No questions there.
Jaime's always been sweet, but I mean as a boyfriend, he couldn't possibly be any nicer. There's only one thing I'm scared of, and that's love. Sure, I tell the guys I love them as friends all the time. But I never had family to love. I never had friends I said that to before this, and I certainly never loved Craig.
He hasn't brought it up, clearly, since our relationship is so young, but I'm kind of frightened for when it does. I feel like either I'll say it and not be totally sure or understand if I mean it, or not be able to say it back and really hurt him. That's the last thing I want to do.
I guess I'll just have to talk to my turtle. Incidentally, we are curled up in his bunk watching movies, so now or never.
"Hey Tone, can I talk to you about something real quick?"
He pauses the movie. "Of course!" He responds, smiling and brushing my hair out of my face. I gulp quickly.
"Have you ever been.... in love?"
He looks at me for a second and his smile grows. "I don't think so, sweetheart. I've only ever dated a few times, and it was never serious."
"Oh." I deflate a little, but of course Tony notices.
"Why, Lala? What's on your mind?"
"I - I think I might love Jaime. But I'm scared because you guys are the first people I've ever loved, even as friends. And I don't want to say it and not really mean it, but I also don't want to not be able to say it at all. I mean, he hasn't said anything, it's just me overthinking, I guess. Never mind, let's just keep watching."
He shakes his head. "Girl, you have to own up to your feelings. That's all that is important in a realtionship when you really care. So if it comes up or it feels right, speak your mind. That's the only true advice I can give."
8/18/13