Perfect, Except...

for more feels, listen to Hymn For the Missing by Red
read this slow so it lasts the whole song
wait for the lyrics before reading

~Tony's point of view~

We drove to the cliff and laid down on the top of the car.
"Ever think about having a family?" she asked me.
"Yeah, sometimes I do."
"Tony..."
"Yeah?"
"I'm pregnant."
I immediately sat up and gave her a hug. I'm going to be a father!

~next morning~

"I have to go to work, I'm sorry," she said.
"Okay, I love you..." I said as I gave her one last hug.
"I love you too," she said.
She drove off and I sat down on the couch.
A few hours later, Vic called.

me: hey man
Vic: hey
me: what's up?
Vic: some bad news. Bri got in a car accident.
me: what?! how?!
Vic: I don't know. I was just driving to Hime time's place and I saw her car.
me: thanks for telling me, I'm heading over right now.
Vic: it's by that bridge you two hang out a lot by except she crashed underneath.
me: thanks man. gotta go.

I got in my car and drove to the bridge. I saw her car and got out of mine. I ran over to her and they were putting her inside the ambulance. I climbed in, not caring whether or not they would let me.
"No no no no no Bri, please be okay..." I whispered. She just laid there motionless. I couldn't even tell if she was breathing. "Baby please be okay..." I was crying now. She was my everything. "Will she be okay?" I asked aloud.
"Maybe, we don't know yet," someone answered. We were rushing to the hospital and they had put an oxygen mask on her.

~back at the hospital~
~wait until the chorus to read this part (Where are you now? Are you lost?)~

"She slipped into a coma. If she wakes up, she won't be awake for long. I'm sorry," the doctor said. I kneelt beside my girlfriend.
"Hey sunshine," I said trying a weak smile. "I love you. They said that if you wake up you won't be conscious for long. But I just want to tell you that I love you. And I always will."
There I sat for hours and hours. Clutching my girlfriend's hand. I kept mumbling things to her in hope she would hear but she didn't. What if she doesn't survive? Then what? All of our memories, all the hardships, everything; it won't be the same without her. Tears falling uncontrollably and whimpers begging her to wake up. I can't imagine a world without Bri.
It's been a long week and she's still unresponsive. I practically live there now. I never leave the room in case she wakes up. And today she did.
Her eyes slowly opened.
"Hey baby," I said. I pulled out the ring from my pocket.
"Hey," he said weakly.
"They said you won't be awake long so I'll just try to cram everything in. You complete me. I love you, I always will."
"I love you too, Tony."
"I know this is early, but will you marry me? Just to say I know you would've?"
"Yes!" she gasped at the sight. I slipped it on her. "Tony, it's beautiful."
"Not as beautiful as you," I said.
She was fading and she was fading fast. I started crying.
"Baby please stay," I pleaded.
"You know I can't do that," she smiled weakly.
"I love you Bri,"
"I love you too but I can't hold on."
"Forever with me."
They asked me if I wanted to be in the room when they pull the plug. I didn't want to see my fiancée die right in front of me but I also didn't want to leave her. So I said I will stay in the room. It took me a while to calm myself down. But they pulled the plug and her line went flat. I sobbed uncontrollably.
And she was gone. Her eyes slowly closed and I just wanted to cuddle her one last time. But I couldn't. And I won't be able to ever again. How can I make life alone? She's the one who can cheer me up when I've had the worst day. I walked to the bridge in dread, not being able to hold my head up. What was the point of life? She's gone, I have nothing to live for. Once I got to the bridge, I stood over the edge. This is where our memories where. This is where we would sit and talk through our problems. This is where I kissed her for the first time. I wrote down on a piece of paper to her:

~wait for 2nd chorus~

Hi Bri,

I remember your smile the first day I kissed you. Your face lit up like the stars and moon. And you told me you loved me. Then, I had felt truly loved. I loved you and you loved me right back.
You were in a car crash about a week ago, and you slipped into a coma. It was the most painful week of my life. I sat there next to you begging you to wake up, even though I know you couldn't hear me. But when you were awake, I told you everything I needed to. And I proposed and you said yes. But you were soon fading and I just wanted to hug you one last time but I knew I would never be able to do that ever again. I would never be able to cuddle you again, or kiss you again, or look into your beautiful eyes one last time.
I'm going to miss you and so will a lo of other people. But I'm going to see you soon and I can't wait. I've already called up my mom and the guys and they said their goodbyes to me.
I know you wouldn't want me to do this but I really have no other choice.
It's almost time love. I'm at the bridge, waiting for the right time. I love you Bri, and I'm coming home.

Much love,
Tony<3

With the note in my hand, clutched tightly but not crushing it, I stepped off of the edge. I'm coming home Bri, I'm coming home.

~wait until song ends for more feels~

Notes

just so you know I cried writing this. I cried hard. I had to clutch my fave sweater. I'm sorry but I had to write a sad one.

current song-- I'm NOt oKAY
current mood-- I'M rEALLY NoT OkAy