Can we create something beautiful?

I loaded the last boxes into the van then looked back at my empty house. "I sure am gonna miss you" I stepped back slamming the door closed. This is totally insane! I can't believe im leaving this place. Khilo Bay Hawaii,a tiny part outside Ouahu, where houses get more and more scattered. The longer you're out there the more isolated you feel. I've lived here my whole life, i don't really know anything else. My phone started ringing, snapping me back into reality. It was my older cousin Mimi. "Hey are you on the road to the airport yet?" I climbed into the van turning onto a lone road. "Yeah I should be there in like 10 minutes" she sighed then hung up. Geez she's soo impatient. Mimi left the island right after high school, but that was always her personality. she was just too big for this little place, unlike me. I blend in, like the sand on the beaches. you can't really see each individual grain, it's just one big cluster fuck of tiny broken rocks. I'm just a piece of a broken rock, just like everyone else. I drove to the airport listening to the radio, not really paying much attention to it but listening. I passed by the mini mall i went to every weekend and the market you had to wake up extra early just to get the good cucumbers. "And as the sun went down, we ended up on the ground! I heard the the train shake the windows, you screamed over the sound. And as we own this night, i put your body to the test with mine. This love was out of control, 3,2,1 where did it go?" The lyrics rang loudly through the van bringing me out of my nostalgia and forcing me to raise the volume. The melody engulfed me, it was just so beautiful. "If I were you, I'd put that away. See you're just wasted and thinking about the past again. Darling you'll be okay" those lyrics struck me. Who is this guy? Why is he singing to my heart? I can't...change the station. I reached my hand up to the dial but a female voice shot me down. "I f you were me, you'd do the same. Cause i can't take anymore. I'll draw the shades and close the doors. everything's not alright, and I would rather..." Before i knew it I ended up in the parking lot of the airport in tears. What would she rather do? what did she do? please don't tell me this is how im going to end. Please, this song is just so beautiful. I waited until the song was over. The radio personality came on moments later. "That was Pierce the Veil's smash hit, Hold On Till May featuring the lovely Lindsey Stamney. Upnext we have Sleeping with Siren's If you can't hang" I turned off the radio then got out taking out my luggage. I looked at the boxes in the backseat then sighed. "Urgh how am i gonna get this to cargo?" I looked around then took out my phone checking the time. I have time to figure this out i just need to chill. "Hey..." I turned around, Kailin was smoking a cig by his motorcycle staring at me. "oh..hi" I tugged at my bags loading them onto a push cart. "So you really are leaving" I kept putting bags on the cart. "Yeah, i need a change" he came over, putting bags back into the van then stopping seeing the boxes loaded in the backseat. "you don''t have to do this Layla" I grabbed the bag from him putting it on the cart. "you just dont get it, do you?" he leaned against the van looking around. "What can i do to make you stay?" I kept loading boxes onto the cart. "Nothing, there is nothing you can say or do to make me stay" he growled then looked down. "Well fine, it's best you leave anyway" he grabbed another cart helping me put boxes on then walking with me to cargo. We walked in silence, sheer and utter silence that only forced me to want to leave. If you want me to stay then just say so, don't do anything just say it. Just tell me, you want me. Do you even love me? We got to cargo, i handed the man 40 bucks to load my things together then grabbed my carry on heading to the gates. Kailin followed behind me quietly. When I got in line, he stood behind me. He even carried a bag for me. When i checked my bag in, he stood behind me. Not once did they asked him for a ticket, it was as if they were waiting for him to stop me. When we got to the gates i looked at my phone. He had exactly 10 minutes to stop me. I sat down to wait for the boarding call. He stood beside me. I looked up to him, Come on Kailin. Do you love me? yes or no. "Layla....." I held my breath waiting for what he was going to say. "I'm sorry i hit you" i looked down remembering. "I'm sorry i made you cry all those times" he didnt once look at me. "I'm sorry i cheated on you with all those girls" my throat was closing up. Then why don't you just tell me how you feel, if you're so sorry. "I'm sorry Layla" I got up nearly screaming. "If you're so damn sorry then why did you break up with me? Fuck it Kailin. Why don't you come with me" the announcement for boarding call echoed through the now silent sitting area. people got up looking at us, questioning our sanity. He smiled handing me my bags. "Because i just didn't care enough" he turned around leaving, disappearing into the crowd of travelers passing by. I wiped my tears then handed the ticket collector my ticket. I put my bags above me in the storage compartment then sat by the window looking out at the airport scenery. "Asshole" the plane took off and I dozed off. I wonder what San Diego is like. I'm so glad im leaving this place. Before i knew it, we were landing in San Diego. A few hours and a very cheesy in flight movie is all it took. haha. "LAYLA!!!!" I carried my bags lazily as i got of the plane walking towards Mimi. "Hey.." She hugged me tight then grabbed one of my bags. "Where's the rest of your stuff?" I shrugged then yawned. "I paid the cargo dude to ship my shit together so it should be unloading now" We walked to the cargo area fetching my things then pushing them to the parking lot. "Wow Layla what didn't you bring?" she said sarcastically loading my stuff into her tiny Prius. We paid some guys to help us bring everything into her apartment. I couldn't help but think about Kailin. i wonder if he stood behind to make sure i got on or that i ran after him like a puppy. I wonder if he even cared. I sat down on her fluffy couch looking around. Mimi's walls were a rosey pink and her furniture was white. Something you would see in a Barbie dream house or something. She had a plush rug underneath a glass table in the middle of the living room. "Hey you can sleep in this room until you find your own place or whatever" She opened the door to a room across from her room. The walls were painted a faint pink with a floral print decor. I laughed looking at her, "you made a replica of your old room from when you lived in Khilo Bay" she rolled her eyes tossing my things in the room. "Yeah yeah whatever, i got all brand new furniture so i didnt wanna throw it out. it was still good stuff" I got up going into the room looking around. everything looked the same. She did this so that i could feel like i was home.

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