"VIC VIC WAKE UP!!!" My eyes shot open and darted around the room. This wasn't Mike and Alysha's house. Everything was white. And it was bright. Almost like heaven. Did I die in my sleep or something? "How could you Vic?! How could you?!" A voice close to Iris's said. I tried to bang on the walls to get out. The last thing I needed was this. "Why didn't you beg for me to stay?! Now I'm out here and all alone. How could you leave me alone?! I thought you loved me???!!"

"I- I do love you Iris. You had work." I stammer. "You could have begged if you truly loved me. How could you??! HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME??? HELP ME VIC HELP ME!!!!" Suddenly, Iris pops up out of nowhere but she's distant from me. She crumbles to the ground on her knees screaming, "HELP ME VIC!!! HELP ME!!! DO YOU EVEN LOVE ME??! HELLLPPPPPP!!!!" My legs learned how to work again and I made my way to her.

"I'm coming!!!" As I ran towards her, she stretched her arms out so I could grab her hands. "HELP ME VIC!!!!" She screamed bloody murder. "HELP ME AND THE BABY!!!!!" The baby!!! Shit I forgot! Once I reached her, I grabbed her hands but then she disappeared into the air. In black smoke she disintegrated into the air.

I sat up from my place where I slept on the floor, breathing heavily. My skin was covered in layers of sweat as I panted. My shirt stuck to my chest as my hair stuck to my forehead. I can't sleep anymore. She's haunting my dreams even though she isn't dead. Standing, I stumble over everyone and reach into the drawer before pulling a pack of cigarettes out of it. I don't smoke but I oh so needed these. I pushed through the door and onto the patio.

Sitting in the chair, I pull a cancer stick out and light the end before putting it in between my fingers before pressing my lips to it. It felt so good and eased me. The knots in my stomach and the tension in my body eased down. The air was cool and it calmed me down since I was a sweaty mess. Birds chirped quietly as if they knew there were infested teeth chomping, flesh eating monsters out here.

Crickets joined soon after and suddenly I felt less alone. As if the nature was with me and supported my search for my loved one. She's all I got. Reaching into my pocket, I pull out the stick and face it. When was she gonna tell me? How would she have? So many questions roamed my mind like the Geeks. Inhale, exhale, relax, repeat. That's how it went for five more minutes before my menthol was finished. It felt good. And I felt better.

As I listened to the chirps of the birds and crickets, I watched the Geeks roam the streets. They groaned and growled as some studied carcasses and dead birds. "Can't sleep either?" A voice from behind murmurs. The chair next to me creaks as the person sits. "Can I have one?" I nod and hand the carton to Kellin. The menthol's aroma fills the air once again as he lights it. "Why couldn't you sleep?" I ask still staring forward at the Geeks.

"I dont know. Just feel creeped out. Like something's gonna happen. And Jesse's sobs don't help. What about you?" Kellin asks blowing smoke out as he speaks. "Iris." I whisper. "I know Vic. God only knows what my sister is up to. She's little Miss Troublmaker. I remember all the things she did in school. Like taking the screws out of the teacher's desk and it just crashed down when she dropped the books on it." Kellin burst into quiet laughter and I soon joined in.

"I miss her. She's my baby sister man. And your girlfriend. The love of your life. Fuck." Kellin breathes out in a smoke filled breath. "I know. I can't stop thinking about how she's pregnant and how we could have been engaged by now. We were gonna be a family!!! Then the world decided to fuck us over. " I say sadly. "Y'know what I like to think? I like to pretend that we're on tour and shes home. You should too. We've done it before. And when we find her, it will be just like being reunited from tour."

"That's smart." "Don't forget that. Okay?" The man warns as he flicks his cigarette out. "I need sleep and you do too. We have our house then Jaime and Jessica's. Then we do what we can...find Iris and get the fuck out of here." With that, he patted my shoulder and walked back inside. Maybe he's right. Pretend it's like a tour. Just like all the other times. Memories flooded over me like an ocean. Just like the first time Iris couldn't come on tour to do merch because of work.

The door opened and her keys jingled in the hallway. "Vic?" She calls. She enters the living room where I sit. "Are you coming?!" I ask fidgeting. She frowns and shakes her head then I pout. "Aw man I was so excited!!" She places herself in my lap, snaking her arms around my neck as I do the same to her waist. "I'm sorry." She pouts a bit. "I'm gonna miss you!!" I murmur into her neck whining.

As I kiss her neck, she says, "I know I'm sorry. Maybe next time." "It's okay. I love you no matter what. I'm just bummed. I'm gonna miss you." I murmur into her neck. She giggles and fidgets from the tickle of my breath on her neck and I kiss her neck again.

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"Don't goooooo!!!!" Iris whined as I washed my dish. Frowning I say, "I wish you could come." "Me too." She pouts. We pack my stuff up into the car before we enter it. Iris wanted me to drive this time. She would drive home. "I'm not gonna be happy this tour." I mutter as i drive and she holds my hand as I run circles into it being a habit. "Why? You need to try. You love tours!!!" "I know but I'm only happy when I'm with you." I see her blush and I smirk. I try a lot to get her to blush.

The car pulls into the parking lot where the tour bus awaits with Jaime and Mike waiting outside for me. When I look at Iris, her eyes are glossy and her lips quiver. "It'll only be a couple months. Then, we'll be together again and I'll give you the best hug ever and then later I'll give you the best sex ever." I wink causing her to smile a bit as I rub the back of her neck. She bites her thumb as she nods and sniffs. "I love you." I say.

"I love you too." She chokes out. "Can I get a kiss??" She nods before taking my face in her hands and pressing her lips to mine. After a few minutes, we break away and I kiss her cheek before exiting the car and grabbing my stuff as she also leaves to switch sides. I wait for her next to the drivers side and hug her tightly. "Love you." I say. "Love you too. Don't forget to Skype and call or text me when you can." "I would never." After we pull away, Iris waves at the two men before entering the car.

The engine roared as I walked with my bags to the bus. "This tour is gonna be kick ass. And you'll be home to Iris in no time." He pats my back. Let's hope.

When I'm pulled out of my memory, I notice that I'm crying. Fuck Vic get a hold of yourself! Wiping my eyes I collect myself before pinching the bridge of my nose. This was gonna fuck me up. And there was only a matter of time before I go insane. Defeated, I stand up and stumble back into the house before laying down in the spot I slept in. Before sleep overcomes me, I whisper the one thing I always think,

"Please be safe."

Notes

Ahhhh sorry it sucks I'm writing on my iPod so if the grammar is not great then you know why. This one was mainly about Vic and how he's missing Iris. I wrote this one because my boyfriend went back home to San Diego (I'm proud from where I come from lol I know why) and I miss him. So Vic and I feel the same I'm rambling sorry. So tell me what you think if you want another chapter!

-Midnight