No light, no light in your bright blue eyes

I never knew daylight could be so violent

A revelation in the light of day

You can choose what stays and what fades away

And I'd do anything to make you stay

No light, no light

Tell me what you want me to say

Kellin's POV

When I woke up, I felt the bed get a lot lighter, then I turned my head to see that Victor wasn't here anymore. I rubbed my eyes, got out of bed, and walked into the bathroom, switching on the lights.

"Vic?" No answer. I walked out of the bathroom and decided to look outside. What the fuck is he gonna do outside anyway? It's like 1 am.

The moment I stepped outside, I saw a figure walking away more and more. Then I realized it was Vic, so I followed. I'm kinda curious as to where he's going so I think I'll just keep quiet for now.

It took me a while to realize that he was headed to the gates. Why is he going there? I hid behind one of the trees and then he started talking to some guy. I watched as the guy handed a teddy bear to Vic.

"What the hell?" I whispered to myself.

They started talking but I couldn't make out what they were saying. The guy started throwing his arms in the air, looking angry. Next thing I know he's pulling Victor in for a kiss. I feel my heart sink to my stomach. He won't kiss him back. He can't. But he does.

"V-Vic?" I finally speak. It took everything in me not to cry in front of him.

"Kellin, it's not what it looks like, I swear! Let me explain!" Victor immediately rushes over to me. He tries to take one of my hands but I pull it away.

"Kellin please...I'm sorry." Victor puts his hand on my shoulder but I push him away again. I can't even look at him right now. I just...I just can't believe he'd do this to me. How long has he been cheating?

I could feel the tears rising. I didn't want him to see me cry. I pushed him away one last time and ran straight for the forest. When I came up to the path I kind of wanted to go to the other side...you know, just to see what's really there. But no matter how betrayed I felt and how mad I was at Victor right now...I wouldn't go to the other side without him. So I went where the monsters were. I ran all the way until I reached the center and dropped to my knees.

I let myself cry. I wen screamed a few times. I just needed to get everything out. I was angry, but the more I got into my head about this, the more the anger faded away and the depression started to set in.

"Kellin?!" I heard Victor's voice. I silenced my crying so he wouldn't know where I was. But of course, he came to the center and sat down next to me. I turned around so my back was to him.

"Kellin, please let me explain, babe."

"Don't call me that!" I snapped. "Just leave me alone..."

"Kellin, you need to let me explai-"

"Fuck off!" I growled, turning around. "Just stop trying to apologize! You clearly enjoy kissing that guy so why don't you go and do it right now?!"

I stood up ready to leave, until he pulled me back down, causing me to fall on him. He rolled us around so he was now on top, holding me down. He leaned down slowly and pressed hi lips to mine. I kissed back and that only angered me even more. I pulled away and kneed him in the balls, getting up when he let go of me.

"Fuck!" Victor groaned, rolling over on his side.

"How can you kiss me like that after putting your lips on someone else?!" I started crying again. "You..you're fucked up, Vic! I h-hate you!" Victor managed to get up, still groaning in pain.

"D-Don't say that. You don't mean it-"

"Well how about this? We're done. We're over and I do mean it. Don't talk to me..." I spoke, running away. This time he didn't catch me, this time I didn't wait for him to try and convince me otherwise. I ran and ran, until I got to Patrick's cabin.

I knew he'd probably be asleep, and Mike's in there but I didn't care. I knocked softly, hoping to god Patrick would be the one to answer the door. When the door opened, it was him. Perfect.

"Kellin? What are yo-"

I didn't give Pat any time to answer because before he knew it, I was smashing my lips to his. He wasted no time in kissing me back. I shut the cabin door and pressed him up against it, kissing him even rougher than before. Patrick's hands found their way to my neck, while mine rested upon his hips.

"I change my mind. I'll be your boyfriend." I whisper, out of breath. Patrick's face was on fire. He was Scarlett red.

"R-Really?" Pat asked with wide eyes.

"Yes." I spoke, kissing him again. I don't need Victor. I need someone who actually wants me. Just me.

-

After the whole ordeal with Pat, I went back to my cabin and ignored every apology that came out of Vic's mouth. No matter how much it hurt, I wasn't gonna let him know that.
I was currently at the cafeteria for breakfast, when I see Patrick.

"Patrick!" I call out. He smiles shyly and walks over to me with his food and sits in front of me.

"H-Hey.." Patrick speaks. He's so quiet. I smile and peck his cheek. When I look at him, his face is burning red.

"How'd you sleep?" I asked.

"I-I slept really g-good...especially after th-that kiss..." Patrick smiled, looking down at his food. I saw Victor enter the cafeteria. I took my chance and reached over to hold Patrick's hand.

"I can kiss you like that again." I smirked. His eyes went wide and he laughed nervously. I could feel Victor's stare, but I kept my eyes on Pat. "Do you want me to?"

"I um...y-yes. Yea, I do." Patrick finally looked at me. He smiled and held my hand tighter. I smirked, knowing Victor was watching. I could see him out of the corner of my eye, sitting with Mike. He fucking deserves it. I leaned over the table and held Patrick's face in my hands. I took a deep breath and kissed him. He kissed me back, but softly. So what I intended to be a rough kiss like last night's ended up being a slow, romantic-like kiss.
It didn't last long though, because soon enough, Patrick was being pulled back and away from me. I opened my eyes and saw Victor standing there.

"What the fuck are you doing?!" He screamed, pushing Patrick on the ground and kicking him in the gut. I got up quickly and got to Patrick's level.

"What the fuck is wrong with you?!" I yelled at Vic. The better I looked at him now, I realized he was crying. There were tears streaming down his face but he looked pissed. It wasn't much longer till Mike came over and fell to Pat's side as well.

"What's wrong with me?! What's wrong with you?!" Victor screamed again. The whole cafeteria was looking at us. "You can't just kiss him like that!"

"But I can! We broke up! Remember?! You should be happy about this! Now you can go kissing whoever you want and not worry about having to lie to me!"

"You never let me explain! I wasn't cheating on you, okay?! That was Jaime! He kissed me!" Victor insisted.

"But you kissed him back!" I yelled. "How can I trust anything you say?" I quieted down. Victor didn't say anything, he just looked at me with sad eyes. I scoffed and helped Patrick up, holding his hand and taking him out of the cafeteria.

"Are you okay?" I asked.

"Not really...I'm sorry."

"What? Why are you sorry?"

"It's my fault he got angry...he yelled at you because of m-me." Patrick spoke.

"No, no it's not your fault. I should be apologizing to you. You got hurt because of me." I replied, making him look at me. He smiled wearily. I pecked his cheek and continued to walk us to my cabin. When we got to it, I let him sit on my bed and went through some of Vic's things, knowing he had that icy hot stuff from when I got hurt.

"Lift your shirt up." I told Patrick.

"W-What?" Patrick's eyes go wide.

"I'm gonna make it feel better." I chuckle.

"Oh um...o-okay." Patrick does what I tell him and lays back. I quickly start to massage him with the icy hot, making sure to be gentle. Patrick's looking down at me with a shy smile as I do so. But just when he looked at me, reminded me of when Victor did this to me. And that was enough for me to want to cry again. But I didn't, I toughened up and worked through the massage I was giving him. When I finished I gave him a quick kiss on the lips and went to put the stuff back in Victor's duffel bag.

"How's that?" I asked.

"It's better, thank you."

Then the bell rang and Patrick and I got up, ready to meet up at the flagpole with everyone else.

Notes

Title credit- Florence + The machine