Kissing In Cars

Victor's P.O.V.

It's been three days since Kellin and I are on "good terms." I should be happy, right? Well not so much. Kellin's been acting nothing but cold towards me. What did I do? I thought we were good now!

I honestly don't know why he's being so weird. He won't ever let me near his bed anymore; he can only come to mine. Not only that, but he goes to the bathroom to write in his notebook now and that's actually what he's doing right now. He's been in there for an hour and I just want him out here with me so we can cuddle and kiss and stuff and it's frustrating because that's another thing he's been avoiding! Affection! I've only gotten four kisses from him these past three days, may I tell you were also only on my cheek. What. The. Fuck.

The worst is when he pulls his hand away everytime I hold his hand. It feels like a punch to the gut evertime he does it. I've asked him a million times if he's still mad and he keeps insisting he's not, but how can I believe him when he's been acting like this?! It's almost time for lunch, so he's gonna have to come out of that bathroom soon! Doesn't he think any of what he's doing is making me feel bad? Well it is. It hurts.

I thought Kellin here was the one who liked me more than I liked him but I guess not! My head has been crazy, trying to think up a good reason why he's barley letting me touch him! I really, really, really like him and it's killing me inside everytime I have to pretend I'm okay with him pushing me away. Maybe Kellin was a mistake. Maybe I shouldn't be dating him...maybe he's just gonna turn out to be just as bad as Justin.

"Victor?...What's wrong?" Kellin had finally walked out. I quickly turned my head and wiped away at the tears that had fallen to my cheek and put on that 'oh so happy' fake smile I've been putting on a lot lately. Why am I so sensitive?

"Nothing, just allergies. So what took you so long?" I asked, smiling like usual. Kellin walked over to his bed, put his notebook under his pillow, and came back over to sit at the foot of my bed.

"Just a lot of writing. So you wanna go get lunch?" Kellin asked, smiling back at me. I nodded and went to reach for his hand as I got up but as usual, he snatched it away and walked ahead of me. Once again I felt that all too familiar feeling in my gut. Once we were walking towards the cafeteria, I made an attempt at kissing him, yet he turned his head so I wound up kissing his cheek. He gave me a warm smile in return and walked just a little fatser.

"You know what, go eat by yourself! I'm not fucking hungry." I snarled. I quickly made my way back to the cabin, trying my best not to let myself cry again. I couldn't hold it in anymore; I felt the tears slowly fall and when I heard the door open I ran into the bathroom and locked it before I'd embarrass myself.

"Victor, what's wrong?" Kellin called through the door. I covered my mouth, muffling the sound of my crying. I feel like such shit. I haven't felt like this since things with Justin started to get bad.

"Victor." Kellin knocked on the door a few times before he attempted to get it open. After a while I didn't hear Kellin anymore, there was no knocking, no calling, no moving or anything. I took that as him possibly not being in the room anymore and let myself go. I removed my hand from my mouth and cried to get it all out. Maybe this is how it's gonna be with every relationship I get into? Maybe I'm always gonna feel like shit. I thought Kellin was gonna be different.

"Victor, don't cry...tell me what's wrong, please."

Fuck. What the hell am I gonna do? Is he that clueless? "Fuck off."

"No. Let me in, please." Kellin spoke. "I'm skipping lunch for you. Doesn't that mean something?" Kellin chuckled. I didn't say anything, I just got up from the spot on the floor I was on and went over to unlock the door. I sat down again and watched as the door opened.

"Vic, what's wrong?" Kellin whispered, walking over to me. He sat down and faced me, waiting for me to speak.

"You." I answered.

"Me? What do you mean? Why me?"

"You're just like Justin...I thought you l-liked me but all you've been d-doing is avoiding all contact with me. Do you have any idea how shitty you're making me feel?" I whispered, looking to the floor.

"I'm sorry, Vic...I promise you I'm nothing like Justin. Believe me, please.."

"How can I if you're only acting like he did?" I asked, quietly.

"I'm so sorry...I swear I'm not like this, I just...you're my first boyfriend and I already get bullied and treated like shit at school...I don't want it to be like that here. I don't want people seeing us and being disgusted, I don't want to feel like shit anymore. I'm sorry..." Kellin sighed.

"But you're making me feel like shit. Does that make you happy?" I felt more tears fall out and I didn't even care to wipe them away. I didn't have to though, Kellin did it for me.

"Victor, I won't do it anymore...I promise. I'm sorry I made you feel this way..." Kellin's eyes were filled with tears now. I guess he does feel bad about it. "I lo-um..." Kellin bit his lip before he said anything more and instead pulled me close for a kiss that I've craved for way too long. I pulled him onto my lap and let him tangle his fingers in my hair as I felt his body relax into mine. This was a thousand times better than a peck on the cheek. Our lips moved together downright perfectly, our tongues danced heavenly, and I was feeling like I was finally back on cloud nine.

There is sure as hell no doubt that I am completely infatuated with Kellin Quinn.

Notes

Okay, the title xD um...yea, I don't know I just felt like it, lol. Anyway, here's the second update. cx yea, bye.

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