You Said Forever

Savannah's POV~

After a good five more minutes of crying, I dried my eyes and crawled out of the cupboard. I had made my decision on what I was going to do. I had a plan.

Step one was to go talk things out with Tony, that is, if he even wanted to talk to me. I made my way down the hall quietly, and opened the door to Mike's room, because I knew that's where Tony would be. I opened the door slightly, just wide enough for me to get in and shut t softly behind me. Tony wiped his eyes and stood up.

"If you're looking for Mike, he's in the bathroom throwing his guts up," Tony said harshly. This might be difficult. "No, Tone, I was actually looking for you. We need to talk," I said, sitting down on Mike's bed and gesturing for Tony to do the same. He reluctantly plopped down on the opposite side of the bed, and looked at me expectantly. I sighed and began.

"Tony, I know you have feelings for me, and I'm sorry if I've been leading you on, but I really don't feel that way about you.....not anymore. I want you to know that it was me who kissed Mike, he didn't do it. I did, and if you want to hate me, or not talk to me, that's fine. Just don't punish any of the guys for not doing the same," I said. Tony looked hurt, but I stood up and walked out of the room anyways.

I felt like a bitch for saying it that bluntly, but he needed to hear it. Now it was time for step two; take care of Mike. I walked into the bathroom where Vic was making Mike vomit the alcohol that caused him to pass out. Vic looked at me, and I nodded. "You sure you can handle this?" he asked skeptically. "Yeah, I used to do this with my best friend after he'd binge drink. I got this," I assured him. He nodded and hesitated a bit, then left the small bathroom.

I made Mike puke one more time, and knew it was all out, because now he was dry-heaving. I ran a cold bath and helped him undress, since he was conscious but weak, then helped him climb into the bath tub. I took a rag and lightly wiped him down with the icy water, efficiently waking him up.

"Savannah?" he asked, once he was stable enough to see who was bathing him. "Yeah, Mike. It's me," I said, handing him the rag. "Why are you in here? I'm naked!" he said, suddenly aware of his nudity. He attempted to cover himself with the rag and I laughed. "Mike, hon, I've seen it all before. If I see something I haven't seen before I'll shoot it," I said, still laughing as he splashed around trying to hide his body.

He finally gave up and laughed as well. He was sober now, so here goes nothing. 'Mike, do you remember anything that happened before you drank the rest of that bottle?" I asked him. He looked confused at first, then realization crossed his face.

"Yes....we....kissed?" he asked. I nodded. "Tony saw, and he, uh, really hates me now. But I kissed you, and he knows it wasn't your fault, so he isn't mad at you," I explained. "And I did it because, well, I realized that I really like you. A lot. And I know it's wrong and you probably don't feel the same way, so if you want I will just leave."

He looked like he was in shock. He and I stared at each other for a while, then he snapped out of it. "I.....I need to get dressed. Can you leave?" he asked. I could tell he was trying to be polite, but I also got the message and nodded, then left.

I crawled back into the cupboard and balled up. This family is falling apart, and it's all my fault.

I reached into my pocket and pulled out my silver frenemy. I hated the pain, but I loved it just the same. I grasped it tightly, remembering the promises I'd made to Jaime two months ago.

I'm so sorry.

Notes

Poor Savannah :( I will maybe upload ONE more chapter before I leave for camp this Sunday, but I don't know when. Either tonight or tomorrow I will try! :)

Also, I know it's a struggle, but please stay strong <3 If you feel like you have no one else, you have me, and I love you! Darling, you'll be okay <3
~Shayde~