You Said Forever
I Never Meant To Hurt Nobody, I Only Meant To Do This To Myself
Tony came to see me every day while I was on watch in the hospital. On the second day, I asked to speak to him alone. Everyone left the room but him, and he sat in the chair next to my bed, holding my hand the whole time.
"Hey Tony, I know how I acted the other day, but there is something that I really need to tell you," I started, cautiously.
"Yeah?" he asked and I nodded. "Tone, I wasn't faking about having a thing for you throughout the tour. I honestly don't know what caused me to go for Mike in the end, maybe it was guilt, maybe it was pity, I don't know. What I'm trying to tell you is that even when I knew I'd never have a chance with you, I was in love with you. I never wanted all this to happen, I never wanted you and Mike to split. But, Tony, I can't ignore these feelings. And I know that you feel somewhat the same way-well, at least you did before I fucked around with Mike. I guess what I'm trying to say is....I love you...and I'm sorry," I said, my voice trembling with the tears that were now rolling down my cheeks.
He looked somewhat startled by my words. His expression was full of confusion and contemplation, as he looked towards the floor. He removed his hand from it's position on mine and the tears came faster.
Why couldn't I have realized this before I hurt him? I never meant to hurt him....or Mike....or anyone. I love them all so much, but Tony has always held a special place in my heart. Maybe he felt the same way, but then I went and fucked everything up. God damnit Savannah.
Tony's POV~
"I love you....and I'm sorry.." her words repeated in my head. I let go of her hand and stood up, beginning to pace in contemplation. I know I love her, but does she know about Ana? And what if this is also pity? What if she doesn't really love me? I thought.
I paced quickly back and forth across the room with these thoughts. I looked up and saw she was crying into her pillow, and I wanted to go over there and wipe her tears away. I wanted to kiss her and tell her everything was alright, but I was still mad and confused as to why she went off and did this shit to me?
After a few more moments of pacing, I walked over to her bedside and sat down again. She refused to turn and look at me. "Savannah, do you know about what Ana and I did?" I asked nervously. She looked at me and nodded, and I looked at the floor again. "I am not going to beg for forgiveness or anything, I know that was completely in the wrong. But I will explain why I did it. I was hurt, and angry that Mike took you from me. I missed you so bad. Ana texted me and told me that she was here to see you, and I told her you were at the hospital, but you couldn't have visitors. I was selfish, I told her she could come over to our house. Ana reminds me so much of you, that I decided she'd help me get over you. It only got worse," I explained.
I looked back up at Savannah, but she had turned back over. She mumbled something, but I didn't catch what she said. "What?" I asked. "I said, I never meant to hurt you, but I guess it's only fair that you got revenge."
I walked around to the other side of her bed and looked at her tear stained face. She tried to hide it, but I rolled her over and lightly pinned her arms down so that she was forced to look at me. "Savannah, this world lives on hurt. The last thing I ever wanted to do was hurt you. I never meant to hurt nobody," I said, slipping a song lyric in to see if she'd finish it. "I only meant to do this to myself," she finished.
I don't know why, but the silence that fell over the two of us as we stared into each other's eyes was completely comfortable. It's like we both unfolded all of the other's secrets. Before I realized what was happening, I leaned down and our lips collided. My heart sped up immediately and I felt relief wash over me. I'd longed for this moment since I'd met her.
When I pulled away, we returned to the comfortable silence, and I stayed there hovering above her for what seemed like forever. It was a perfect little forever. But it still confused the hell out of me.
"Hey Tony, I know how I acted the other day, but there is something that I really need to tell you," I started, cautiously.
"Yeah?" he asked and I nodded. "Tone, I wasn't faking about having a thing for you throughout the tour. I honestly don't know what caused me to go for Mike in the end, maybe it was guilt, maybe it was pity, I don't know. What I'm trying to tell you is that even when I knew I'd never have a chance with you, I was in love with you. I never wanted all this to happen, I never wanted you and Mike to split. But, Tony, I can't ignore these feelings. And I know that you feel somewhat the same way-well, at least you did before I fucked around with Mike. I guess what I'm trying to say is....I love you...and I'm sorry," I said, my voice trembling with the tears that were now rolling down my cheeks.
He looked somewhat startled by my words. His expression was full of confusion and contemplation, as he looked towards the floor. He removed his hand from it's position on mine and the tears came faster.
Why couldn't I have realized this before I hurt him? I never meant to hurt him....or Mike....or anyone. I love them all so much, but Tony has always held a special place in my heart. Maybe he felt the same way, but then I went and fucked everything up. God damnit Savannah.
Tony's POV~
"I love you....and I'm sorry.." her words repeated in my head. I let go of her hand and stood up, beginning to pace in contemplation. I know I love her, but does she know about Ana? And what if this is also pity? What if she doesn't really love me? I thought.
I paced quickly back and forth across the room with these thoughts. I looked up and saw she was crying into her pillow, and I wanted to go over there and wipe her tears away. I wanted to kiss her and tell her everything was alright, but I was still mad and confused as to why she went off and did this shit to me?
After a few more moments of pacing, I walked over to her bedside and sat down again. She refused to turn and look at me. "Savannah, do you know about what Ana and I did?" I asked nervously. She looked at me and nodded, and I looked at the floor again. "I am not going to beg for forgiveness or anything, I know that was completely in the wrong. But I will explain why I did it. I was hurt, and angry that Mike took you from me. I missed you so bad. Ana texted me and told me that she was here to see you, and I told her you were at the hospital, but you couldn't have visitors. I was selfish, I told her she could come over to our house. Ana reminds me so much of you, that I decided she'd help me get over you. It only got worse," I explained.
I looked back up at Savannah, but she had turned back over. She mumbled something, but I didn't catch what she said. "What?" I asked. "I said, I never meant to hurt you, but I guess it's only fair that you got revenge."
I walked around to the other side of her bed and looked at her tear stained face. She tried to hide it, but I rolled her over and lightly pinned her arms down so that she was forced to look at me. "Savannah, this world lives on hurt. The last thing I ever wanted to do was hurt you. I never meant to hurt nobody," I said, slipping a song lyric in to see if she'd finish it. "I only meant to do this to myself," she finished.
I don't know why, but the silence that fell over the two of us as we stared into each other's eyes was completely comfortable. It's like we both unfolded all of the other's secrets. Before I realized what was happening, I leaned down and our lips collided. My heart sped up immediately and I felt relief wash over me. I'd longed for this moment since I'd met her.
When I pulled away, we returned to the comfortable silence, and I stayed there hovering above her for what seemed like forever. It was a perfect little forever. But it still confused the hell out of me.
Notes
SO Tone and Savvy kissed, but does that mean they are all better now?
I feel like I'm all alone guys /.\ why you no comment? Please let me know you're still there!
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~Shayde~
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I updated :)
11/5/14