I've got a war in my mind...

A/N Sorry about the beginning i had it written and then it got deleted :'( But the second half of the chapter is better i promise...

Today is the day. The day i have been dreading for as long as i can remember. Mating ceremony day. This wouldn't bother me except that whoever my mate is will hate me no matter what. You see i am a fertile Neko and there are two dominant Nekos on the group being mated today. That all fine and dandy until you factor in that they are both gay and have serious boyfriends. Vic has Jaime and Kellin has Mike. Though Mike isn't being mated today. All of a sudden i am tackled in a hug by Ashley, my best friend.
"Don't be sad!"
"I am going to be sad because i am loveless. Permanently and you know it."
"No i bet that once you get mated your mates not gonna be able to control himself."
"Oh shut up Ashley me and Vic used to be best friends and me and kellin were close but they pushed me away in the hopes that the other would be mated to me. Im just facing the music."
"Oh hun no. Just try to be happy? For me?"
I smile. but its fake. "okay. But only for you."
"Thank you Secret!!!"
I head home and change into my outfit for tonight. I head to Ashley's house after bidding my Dads farewell and making sure all of my things are caked for when i am forced to move out. I get to Ashley's door and immediately he opens it without me knocking.
"you looks beautiful!" He yells
"You look pretty good too."
"Here let go."
And were off to the ceremony. I don't want to go. We get there just as it is about to start. The announcer starts speaking about the beauty of mating... Blahblahblah.
"Now let us begin Daniel Worsnop and Benjamin Bruce"
They go up and kiss each other passionately. The way they look at each other is so cute. Someday if i get really lucky, even on accident, someone might look at me like that.
"Next Andrew Biersack and Ashley Purdy."
Ashley and Andy run to the stage basically making out. They are obviously meant for each other. Its been obvious for years.
"Moving on. Christofer Cerulli and Joshua Balz."
They go us and kiss each other.
"Tony Perry and Justin Hill."
They are really cute together even though they weren't previously dating. They kiss and the guy continues.
"Victor Fuentes and Secret Finch."
Oh god.Out of him and Vic he's the one that hates me more. By a long shot.
"Are you serious? No i refuse! I am in love with Jaime. And I'm gay. I don't like girl, especially not this one.How am i supposed to love her? She's-" He's interrupted "That is enough Victor."
Vics' words stung like venom. I had loved him for years but knowing he will always hate me is too much. He dragged me to my house and i gathered my boxes and instruments. My flute, violin and electric guitar. After that he dragged me back to his house and shoved me in my room.
Time lapse one week...
I have been mated a week and it pure hell. Im rapidly dying. I haven't eaten or drank and thing in a week. And the part that hurting me the most and killing me from the inside out is Vics' lack of affection. He hasn't kissed me at all. The thing about mated fertiles it we need intimacy. If he doesn't kiss me in the next oh say eighteen hours then its light out for me. Maybe then he'll be happy. Probably. I haven't left my room except once and that was to get a couple new tattoos. One saying
'You've got a mouth like a razor-blade.
It cuts so deep.
So kiss my wrists, my neck
and give me eternal sleep.'
and another saying
'I tear my heart open,
I sew myself shut
and my only weakness is that
I care too much.'
Im happy with them. Their nice. Its starting to get cold. Really cold. Good this means ill be dead sooner than i thought. I get out my guitar and begin to absentmindedly play Artificial Flowers. (look up the lyrics and make up a melody because the real melody makes the song sound fucking happy and i can't stand it). When the song finishes i hear the front door open and Chris, Balz, Ashes, and Andys' voices al speaking. I play My Immortal more quietly. It reminds me of my sister. She was 5 years old when a human found her and beat her to death. Part of the reason e fell so hard for Vic was because he had the exact same smile as her. It hurt so much. In the middle of the song i just stop and cry. Even crying is painful. I hear foot steps and i compose myself. It the last person i expect to see. Vic. "Why are you crying?"
"Why do you care?"
"Because its fucking annoying."
"Well if it bothers you so much then just leave me. I can guarantee that in about an hour i will never cry again. Your literally killing me."
"You ar so over dramatic. Just fucking calm down." Then he leave. I hear him faintly talking to the other guys.
"She was being so dramatic saying i was killing her and shit. She's the one who won't leave her room to eat."
I hear Ash speak sounding really worried. "Well, When was the last time she ate?"
"She hasn't since being here."
"What?! Well when dud you last have sex?"
"Hasn't happened."
"Fine when did you last kiss her?"
"Once again hasn't happened. I don't like her why would i be showing affection?"
Now Ash sounded fucking pissed. "Well then you are killing her!"
"Okay look living without affection doesn't kill people."
"Oh my god how do you not know this? If fertiles don't receive affection they literally freeze to death. It is slow and painful." Ash is yelling. "Well i guess a good Dominant wouldn't need to know that because its instinct to love the fertile and care for them!"
Heehee I've got about ten more minutes tops. I'll finally escape and see my sister and Vic will be happy. I put my guitar down and lay my head back. Its too hard to hold it up. Its so cold. I can't feel my legs or my arms. My breathing is becoming more and more shallow because i don't have the energy to breath fully. five minutes. They're still yelling. I feel light headed. My heart doesn't have the strength to pump all of the blood. My heart rate is dropping. I hear footsteps as my vision blurs. As the door opens my vision fades. I can still hear the crying, probably Ashley. The shuffling of feet. I feel soft lips. Its like someone is breathing life into me. My eyes flutter open and i am met with Andy. Wait what?
I hear Vic's voice in the corner "So i just have to have one of you kiss her once a week?" The sound of a slap echoes in the air. I look over to see that Chris has slapped Vic. Balz speaks now "No you fucking idiot! You should be kissing her like three time a day and having sex at least once a week and in all honesty me and Chris do it like every other night.
"Same with me and Andy." Ashley stated just as a phone goes off. Vic answers it still not giving a fuck that i almost died. "Hello... Oh hey babe... Yeah... No she's just being an inconvenience... What?!... Really?!... Oh god the is amazing ill kick her out immediately!..."
"What the?"
"By bitch! They fucked up on our mating thing so now they got it figured out that your supposed to be with Kellin and i get my Jaimie back!" Over what seemed like a couple of minutes All of my stuff was in a box and i was out the door. Literally Vic picked me up and THREW me out his door. Andy and Ash lead me to Kellins' house and Chris stayed back beating Vic for the way he treated me. When we get to Kellins house i basically died. It is fucking huge. Kellin walks out with Jaime who smiles sympathetically. "Im sorry about how Vic treated you." I smile a little to reassure him. Then he's gone. Ashley and Andy hand me off and Andy whispers something in ear. "He did what?! To MY mate?" I could feel his rage and it was a major turn on as a fertile. Kellin leads me the entrance of his house. He quickly showed me everything. (kitchen, living room, Foyer, Entrance hall, man cave, bedroom, bathroom)
"Ummm sorry Kellin but where do you want me to sleep? The couch? Basement?" He looks at me like I'm crazy.
"Okay Secret i need to tell you something. Im not gay. When i was younger it was drilled into my mind that is i don't like guys then I'm screwed. Because female Nakos are RARE. Like there have been 50 Female Nekos in history. So i taught myself to be gay. And then high school began and you were there and i had hope. But that came crashing down when you and Vic got close. I knew you two would be mated. And when he started pushing you away i had hope again, but you were so sad and it broke my heart. I love you and I care about you. And whatever Vic told you, just fuck it. And as for the sleeping arrangements you will be sleeping with me. I get cold and i need someone to hold close to me." At that moment he leans down and kisses me. i don't know is its him or the lack of human interaction but i am so turned on. I want him. No i need him! Now! And he obviously has the same ideas. He picks me up and carries me to the bedroom laying me delicately on the bed and i am ready for the greatest night if my life...

Notes

Hey so i don't know a whole lot about Dominants, Fertiles, Vampires and Nekos. So if i say something stupid then feel free to start a shit storm in the comments. This story is also up on the sleeping with sirens website and there is a very smutty scene coming in the next chapter... So yeah, hope you enjoyed-Brooke