Dear dairy,
almost a whole month of staying in the hospital, and I've never felt so... Alone in my life. Yeah not even when Mike left me. Ever since I called him Dad again, because I was an emotional wreck, he hasn't visited me. I wonder why sometimes but I don't know. Maybe he finally realized that I'm just a mess and that I wasn't going to give in to some words that easy, no matter what. Not only that, but Penny hasn't visited either. I think that this fight finally out her over the edge and our friendship is over. I wouldn't blame her. I'm a mess. That's why Mike left me in the first place.
Stephan, on the other hand, is totally gaining the best cousin award.
He visits me everyday making sure that I can move without difficulty and that I'm doing emotionally well. According to him, Mike and Uncle Vic are strongly agreeing for me to get some therapy. I don't want it. The last one, I grew close too, that I called him my friend instead of mental doctor. Then bad luck game, and he got ran over, dying instantly. Stephan agrees as well, but he understands me as well. Kitty and Ashley did drop by and we had a girl hangout. Planning and laughing. I missed this, I just wished that Penny was here as well. But we don't always get what we want.
a few days ago! Oh my god.
Stephan came in with balloons and was accompanied by his best friend, Ashley's cousin, Bryan. (Who is extremely attractive) the two of us talked but only because Steph left the room to go use the bathroom.
anyway, that's my hospital life. Tomorrow's my release day! Yay! I hope they caught that bastard. ^^
-Alia

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"Hello?" I look up from my diary and see Uncle Vic smiling.
"hey Uncle Vic!" He walked to me and gave me a hug. "What's sup?"
"I need to talk to you."
"what about?"
"about your dad."
"what about him?"
"he said that he wants to give you space. But he's always there for you."
anger went through my whole body.
HE WAS LEAVING ME AGAIN!
"he knows that some words can't change your opinion on him, and he understands that sometimes you can't see him. That's why he's making this decision."
"okay," was all I could say. I felt abandoned once again. But maybe if I wasn't such a selfish machine. I want him back but then I don't.
"I'll come pick you up tomorrow and then I'll drop you off with Stephan at my house"
"why can't I go back home?"
"your father doesn't want that."
"well I want to go home. If he isn't going to take care of me then I won't go to anyone's house."
"he can go visit you at my house."
"whatever."
"Yeah. Well I'll let you rest." He kisses my head. "See you tomorrow Ali. And I'm glad you're doing well."
"yeah." He smiles and walks out. I close my eyes and let the anger tears fall.

mom, if you're listening. Please help me. I don't know what too feel. I'm so confused. Can I love the man that left me for so many years? Can I actually start feeling loneliness again? Momma, please. Make his words worth fighting.

Notes

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Sorry I haven't updated in so many days;~; the wifi I was using blocked it. And it's making me so angry cause I'm letting you guys down. Anyway! I hope you guys like this chapter!

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