Sofia p.o.v.

We spent two hours at my grandparents house.
My grandpa and Tony talked about guitars all the time, my abuelo used to play in a band when he was younger and after her wedding he took it as a hobby.
My grandma wanna know everything about me and Tony, so I told her what happened, from our first met to when he asked me to be his girlfriend. At the beginning she wasn’t very happy, over all for the story of the suicide, but then she changed her mind when he saved my from the drunk man.
“It seems that is not easy for you being a couple, but at the same time you are cute together.
I hope he won’t break his promise and treat you good.”
“I’m sure he will do.
Abuela, I gotta ask you a thing.”
“Tell me, mi nina.”
“What’s papa address? I wanna meet him.”
She sighed.
“He creates a new family.”
“I don’t care, I wanna give it a try.”
“Ok.”
She got up from his chairs, rummaged in a drawer and then she gave a note with an address and a phone number.”
“Muchas gracias.”
After that we talked for a bit and then we left the house, I promised that the next time I will try to bring Vivi with us.
“How was meeting my grandparents?”
I asked Tony when we were in the car.
“Your grandpa is a genius, he knows a lot about guitars. I love chatting with him and your grandma seems to approve my tattoos and my dermal piercing.”
“I told you that they will like you.
Now there’s an awkward things to do: I need to speak with Viviana.”
“Well, good luck. I don’t think she will forgive you easily.”
“Why?”
He sighed.
“You are on Jaime’s side, you left her alone and with nobody to talk to.”
“But she knows she can talk to me anytime!”
“I’m not so sure.”
We arrived home and we found an happy Fanny.
“What’s up, girl?”
“Alan said it was okay, a nice idea, to move from here to his house at Costa Mesa.”
“Nice, I’m so happy for you! When do you move on?
In a week, would you help me?”
“Yes, but not now. Now I need to talk to my sister.”
Viviana nodded and I reached Viviana’s, I knocked a couple of time and then I saw her, she was still angry.
“What do you want?”
“Talking.”
“Ok.”
She let me in and I sat on the bed.
“Are you really angry with me because the others always cared about me?”
“Yes. When you had the overdose everybody were worried about and they didn’t even notice that I was covered in bruises because my class mates beat the shit out of me.
When you tried to kill yourself the first time everybody were by your side and they didn’t notice that I cut and puked.
Now you keep insulting Matt, the only one who cares about me and you told me to forgive Jaime, because he was just drunk.
Poor thing, don’t hold your breath while you wait for me to forgive him. I was drunk two times and I never kissed anyone.
Plus he told me clear he didn’t want me back in his life, why should I beg for pardon?
But all this questions never touched you, you were his friend and you acted like a friend against your sister.
I don’t forget, Sofia.”
I watched her with my eyes wide.
How many things did I lost about her?
It made sense that now she was angry with me, I always cared about me and never about her because I thought she was strong enough and I was wrong.
I didn’t know what to say, I felt guilty.
“I’m sorry, Viviana. I had no idea of what you’ve been going through, I always thought that you were strong and I was wrong.
I’m sorry, really sorry.
And you are not forced to come back with Jaime if you don’t want to, you can be just friends and I’m sorry if I insulted Matt. I didn’t know he was so important to you.
I won’t do it anymore.
Can you forget me?”
She stayed silent.
“In two weeks Matt will leave San Diego because his visa will be over, I hope he will ask me to come with him.”
I collapsed, my knees hit violently the floor, but I didn’t care.
“Why?”
“Because I need to put some space between me, you and what happened with the guys. I’m angry and seeing you all the time didn’t help.”
“So, is over with Jaime and you are now falling for Matt?”
“I think yes, stay away will help me to understand.”
“If it’s what you want.”
“It is. I need it.”
I went out from her room completely destroyed.
“What’s up, Sofia?”
“Matt will leave in two weeks and my sister wanna follow him.”
I said apathetic to Tony.
“I’m sorry, honey. But maybe is better for everybody, there’s too much hate between everyone.”
I started to cry in Tony’s arms, I wasn’t ready to let my sister go, I will feel alone without her.
Why was this happened to us?
Where did I go wrong?
I felt like a shit.
“Do you wanna eat something?
It’s almost dinner time.”
“No, I’m not hungry.”
He grabbed me from my shoulders.
“Please, Sofia, don’t do it again to yourself. Eat.
Don’t eat won’t help you with Viviana.”
I nodded.
He was right, I couldn’t stop to eat right now, I don’t wanna make Vivi think that I’m an attention whore.
I felt really bad and confused.
How did we arrive to this point?
I shared a dinner with Tony and the girls, then I went back to my room. Viviana was going to go outside with this Matt and Fan was packing her shit.
I switched on my laptop and I went into Skype. No one was online except for Oli, so I wrote to him and he agreed for a call.
Seeing his face made me feel a little better, at least I’m not an enemy for him.
“What’s up, Sofia?”
I told him everything and when I finished I see sorrow in his eyes.
“I’m so sorry, Sofia. I wish that nothing happened, but it had.”
“What I should do?”
Oli sighed.
“Let her go. I know it’s not easy, but it’s the only way to make things work again.”
A little tear came out from my eyes.
“Maybe you are right, but it hurts.
It hurts because I have no idea how things get so shitty so soon.”
“I think that Jaime’s story made it collapsed everything.”
I didn’t say nothing, he was right.
The only way to show love to my sister was to let her go, no matter how much it hurt and how much I will miss her.
Why can’t I have a normal life?

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