What's So Good About Picking Up The Pieces? (Discontinued)

"Tony, c'mon. You need to get up." Lidia spoke softly, tentatively.

I slowly pried my eyes open and immediately regretted it.

My eyes burnt and my head throbbed like a bitch.

"O-okay." My voice came out scratchy, from the continual crying, and I slowly sat up.
"Thank you, Lidia." I Mean it, for everything.

She gave me a small smile in return before exiting my room.

I Stood up and walked to the door, pulling it open, and tiredly hobbled into the bathroom, and flicked on the switch and staring intensely into mirror.

The first thing i noticed whilst looking in the mirror were my eyes, red and puffy, with bags underneath, a tell tale sign I had been crying. I Ran the tap and splashed some water onto my face, hoping to atleast wake up a little before being faced with the challenge of making it through the day.

Walking back into my poster and picture covered room I picked out some clothes, a White & black Pantera shirt, Black skinnys and my favorite converse. it'll do for now..

Slowly, I wandered down the stairs, my footsteps being lost in the racket from the kitchen. Sounded like a smoothie maker..

Sure enough, as I entered the kitchen, I was greeted by what most people would think a pleasant smell, but to me, it was repulsive.

"Feeling any better today, Tony?" My mother asked, a beaming smile ever present.

I gave her a small smile and nodded, may as well keep her happy, even if I did feel like complete shit.

"Good to hear, do you want anything to eat?" She asked, the same smile staying put.

I shook my head cautiously, fearing her answer.

"Oh, okay.. well, make sure you eat lunch." She gave me a caring smile before rushing Lidia and I out of the door.

We hopped into the car, and the only sound to be heard was the Blink CD quietly filling the silence, and or once, Lidia told me she'd be driving..

"Tone, will you tell me what happened?..." Lidia sounded hesitant, but kept her eyes on the road.

I sighed and screwed my eyes shut, willing myself to fight off the memories.

"w-we... H-he dragged m-me to this p-party.. and... h-he was.. f-f....fucking someone. in one of the rooms." My voice was stronger at the end of the sentence, but that didn't mean I didn't let a few tears escape my already bloodshot eyes.

"Oh.. You deserve better than him, Tone." She tried to reassure me.

I stayed silent the rest of the drive, trying to keep the tears back.

And it was working, too.

That was until we pulled into the small parking lot, and less than a moment later, he puled up beside my car.

I began to breathe heavily. Lidia noticed and reached over, to give my hand a small, reassuring squeeze.

I gave her a small smile, which she mirrored.

I scrambled to get out of the car before he noticed.

"Tony!" I kept walking. I heard heavy footsteps but simply walked faster to my locker and when I finally reached the drab yellow piece of metal, the footsteps had stopped.

Paranoia, perhaps?

Apparently not as when I turned round, I got the fright of my life to see Mike standing behind me.

"Tony, listen to me, please!"

I simply kept my eyes glued to the floor and walked swiftly past Mike, hoping to be able to avoid him for the rest of the day.

Oh how unlucky I am!

Unfortunately for me, I had all the same classes as Mike, well, 5 out of 6, anyway. 6th period could not come soon enough.

I heard Mike sigh from behind me, but I didn't stop or turn around, just kept walking to my first period class, music.



It's currently lunch and I'm sitting surrounded by my four "Friends", but I wasn't really listening to anything they were saying, i was too busy being trapped by my thoughts.

When i'm skinnier, Mike will like me. Thats what I kept telling myself, Maybe if i wasn't as fat, he wouldnt've cheated on me Thoughts like that swirled around my head, and I was so distracted by them that I hadn't realised the warning bell had sounded.

"Tony, we need to go to class." Larry seemed to be the only one out of my "friends" that even spoke to me, which I didn't really mind, but it was different.

We left the cafeteria and headed to the Science department.

"I'm going to the bathroom" I muttered, and slipped into the nearest bathroom.

I Leaned onto the sink an exhaled, and looked into the mirror. My eyes were lest bloodshot and puffy, but the dark circles were still there.

The door opened once again and I didn't have to look up to know who had walked in.


"Tony.."

I glared at him through the mirror.

"I am so sorry for what i did, if i had any sense, I would never have done it, I swear. You know how much you mean to me."

"Blatantly not." I murmered under my breath, not meant for him to hear.

I saw Mike frown and then take one step forward, coming a little closer.

"I was shitfaced drunk, and had no idea what I was doing, Please, Tony. give me one chance?"

i sighed and shook my head, no, staring at the dirty, piss colored floor beneath my converse clad feet.

"Please.." Nothing more than a whisper.

I quickly spun around and glared at him.

"Why the fuck should I?" My voice was slightly raised.

"Because!" He yelled, louder than I had.

"Because what Mike? Because You want to break me even more? Because you want to hurt me? Because you want me to hurt myself? Why Mike? Why the fuck should I?" I spat loudly, venom laced words.

"Because I Fucking love you, Tony!" He screamed.

And then he ran out.

Holy shit.

Notes

I HAVE HICCUPS!!!!! Dx!

Here's 2 songs, 'cause i cant decide. First SongSecond song

Hope you like it, and I'm sorry i didn't update yesterday, my brother refused to give me the laptop and its near to impossible to update on my phone. Anyway c:

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-Alisha (BrothersInCrime)