"Baby, remember we have a hot date tonight at Serendipity 3. I'll be back from work around 8 for you okay?" Steven said as he was putting a spare of his keys in his blazer pocket, then leaning towards me for a kiss.

I smiled, "Alright. I'll look pretty for ya." A smile formed on my lips and I shot him a wink.

"You always do, princess." He kissed me again then proceeded to walk out of the apartment door. I had a few hours to get myself ready and put an outfit together. I wanted to look good for Steven, I wanted to bring out my fancy side and New York was the perfect place to do that in.

I ran into the bedroom and grabbed my computer so I could FaceTime Nicole. She answered instantly and her bright smile lit up the computer screen. "Bonnie! I miss you!"

"I miss you too, Nic. I need your help for a date night outfit. I'll show you what I packed and if I need to go shopping."

Her face got serious as now we were discussing fashion. "How much time do you have?"

"About five hours. I showered this morning to minus shower time."

"Oh that's plenty of time." She grinned, "Alright. Show me what you got."

I showed her every shoe option I had, every coat option, and every bag option that I had with me and she studied each one via the computer and photos sent from my phone. After a good hour of debate, we finally chose something and I began to get ready; hair first.

As I was curling my hair, Cam had FaceTimed me and I answered it, forgetting that he wasn't even at home with Nic because he was doing shoots elsewhere.

"What's up?" I asked, eyeing my computer screen for a split second then going back to concentrating on creating perfect curls.

"What do you want for your birthday?" He questioned randomly, looking at himself and fixing his snapback hat.

I chuckled, "My birthday is in like three months, dude. Why are you shopping early?"

"Because I'm almost positive I just found the perfect gift for you but I just wanted to make sure you don't want this thing so badly that you'll buy it yourself." I laughed at his response because it was so true. Those closest to me never know what to get me for my birthday, Christmas, whatever because I always buy myself whatever I want.

"Just ask Nic and she'll tell you if I would like it or not."

"Riiiight. I should've done that to start with. Okay, bye." He hung up before I could reply back and continued to get ready for my hot date tonight.

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"Bon, I'm back! You ready?" Steven shouted from the living room. I walked in, completely ready for the exception of my earrings as I was putting them on in that moment.

"Yeah, I'm ready." I grinned, showing off my chic outfit, earning a grin from him.

"Wow. You look incredible. You look so beautiful, Bonnie." He took my hand and spun me around before resting his hands on my waist and giving me a peck on the lips.

"Thank you, baby. Now let's go." I grabbed my beige coat and bag and Steven grabbed my hand once he adjusted his suit jacket.

We went down the elevator to the first floor and then walked out of the front doors that framed the red brick building. He got a car service and it took us to the restaurant that I had only heard about but had never been too.

"I know you always look beautiful but I don't know, there's something about tonight. You are just so perfect, Bonnie." He grabbed a hold of my hand and stroked it gently. "I love you."

My eyes met his, a light blush hinting at my cheeks. "You look so handsome, Steven. I love you too."

He kissed me sweetly, his blue eyes not being taken off of me. "You are gonna love this place, Bon. It's so good. They have so many different kinds of dessert by the way."

"Oh fuck yes. I'm so excited!" I grinned widely, realizing we had arrived at Serendipity 3. I was more excited about the dessert than anything else, seeing as how I had such a sweet tooth. Steven opened the door for me and we both walked into the restaurant and Steven walked up to the hostess, saying he had a reservation for two.

The hostess walked us to the table that in the back and on it had two lit candles. We sat down and ordered drinks over casual conversation. As many lingering doubts as I had inside of me regarding my relationship with Steven, it was moments like this where those were lifted away.

I don't know if I could ever admit it out loud, but those doubts had reason. Fear was the most overtaking part. It always came back to me the worst moments in our relationship and I didn't ever wanna go back to that. I honestly loved this guy so much and now that we were at this point where we were good again. Maybe he was the one for me? Maybe he was the man I was always supposed to end up with and have this future with? Maybe he was supposed to be my forever?

Steven could've very well been my soulmate, my future husband, maybe even the father to my kids. He was the textbook answer if you drew up the perfect guy. Those doubts that this couldn't have been any of that diminished once I looked into his eyes. Those babies were enough to kill me softly. They provided this hope that I always needed but never knew I could want so bad. I think I was ready to make this thing public, and when I say that, I mean it's time to tell everyone we know. I think we were both ready for that; for a future together. Maybe even a forever.

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The next night was Friday night, and my friend from college Danielle was dying to meet up with me while I was in town. I decided to take the opportunity while Steven was hanging out with his cousins and some family members. She had wanted to meet up at this bar/ venue around 9 PM and I was super excited to see her. Apparently there was some bands playing tonight as there was a lot of people attending. I head out to the bar area and let her know I was here.

I admired my chosen outfit for the night as it blended in with everyone elses. I nodded my head at myself and my outfit of choice for the night, as I ordered a whiskey coke and waited. I felt a tap on my shoulder and I turned around to see Danielle and her long, reddish-brown hair curled.

"Hey Dani!" I shouted, giving her a tight hug, and she did the same.

"Bonnie! I fucking missed you dude! I'm so glad you came out." She sat beside me and ordered herself a vodka Sprite with a lime and continued talking. "How've you been?"

I grinned, taking a sip of my drink, "I've been so good. Everything's been incredible. How have you been?"

She smiled brightly, "I've been doing so well. I've been doing some modeling and it's been going really well. I follow yours and Nicole's blog religiously. You look so good by the way."

"Aw, thank you. Nic and I didn't even expect the blog to grow as big as it has. It's my baby." My nose scrunched up as I shined with gleam.

She grinned then her eye adverted behind me, "C'mon get another drink and let's go backstage. I know the band playing. Come on, come on." She begged, getting another drink.

I nodded, downing what was left of the drink I had in my hand and ordering another one. Once the bartender named Mac gave it to me, I followed Dani and we went backstage. She was telling me a story about this guy she dated at one point and how it was the worst date ever but the best sex of her life and the conundrum she was in. She was always a great storyteller.

"Dani, baby!" A voice greeted her once he saw her then gave her a kiss.

"Hi darlin'." She smiled, pinching his bearded cheeks before turning around and introducing us.

"Bonnie, this is my boyfriend Kevin, and Kev this is one of my oldest friends, Bonnie."

His blue eyes shone brightly as did his smile when he shook my hand, "Nice to meet you, Bonnie."

He gestured us into their dressing room and we followed, Dani explaining to me briefly that Kevin was the guitarist for the band A Day To Remember. Kevin introduced me to everyone in his band and then took Dani and I around to meet the other bands on the tour. His band was so nice and cute I just wanted to put them in my pocket and keep 'em warm.

We walked into the final room and Kevin was going showing us around proudly. "And guys, this is my girlfriend Dani and her friend Bon-"

"-Bonnie?" A voice from the back of the room came forward and it was none other than Mike Fuentes himself.

"Oh shit." Jaime muttered loud enough for us to hear. My mouth dropped a little as I couldn't take my eyes off of Mike, and he couldn't do the same.

"You guys know each other?" Kevin questioned, taken aback by the sudden coincidence.

"I know Bonnie very, very well." Mike answered as a smirk was growing on his lips. "You guys go ahead, we gotta catch up with Bonnie here...Don't worry Dani, she'll be back by showtime."

"Um, okay?" Dani shot me a weird look and my weak, yet desperate attempt at trying to get her to see the look of despair on my face wasn't enough for her. If Nic were here, she would drag me out of the fucking door with her. Kevin and Danielle walked out and the door shut behind them as Vic, Tony, and Jaime all came up to me and gave me tight squeezes.

"What brings you to New York?" Vic asked with a crooked smile.

I returned the grin back to him, "I'm actually visiting with someone." I decided not to say with who, not like they would ask anyway.

"With who?" Tony followed up, proving to myself I didn't know them all that well like I thought.

I chewed on my lip, "I'm here with Steven." Mike's face fell a little at that answer but nonetheless he had to keep the tough persona up. "He's here checking up on a space for my dad's firm."

"Is he here?" Mike asked quietly.

I shook my head, "No. He's visiting his family tonight."

"Why aren't you there? I would've thought that any chance you got to brag about your relationship you would. Especially to family." His words gutted me to be completely honest. There he was being bitter as fuck again.

I stood up a little taller, "Our families don't know we're together, actually."

His eyes grew wide. "Wow, wasn't expecting that one."

Vic, Tony, and Jaime sat there awkwardly as Mike was spitting his venom my way. They got up slowly and then walked out of the dressing room, mumbling something about getting more beer.

"You're such a fucking asshole." I said once they walked out of the room.

"There's Bonnie! I was waiting for her to come out and be honest." He chuckled lightly as he adjusted his hat in the mirror beside him.

"Why are you acting like that? You're coming at me like I knew you were going to be here. I didn't. Trust me, I would've rather stayed home tonight than be around you." I sipped on my drink slowly, hoping the alcohol would wash itself into my veins even harder than before. "You know, when you act like this you make me regret every second spent with you."

The smirk he had on his face fell once I said that. He changed suddenly, like his good side decided to come out around that time. He was quiet for a while then cleared his throat before he spoke, "Look, I'm sorry. I- I don't know why I'm acting like this to be honest."

I sat on the green wool couch with my drink still in hand. "You do know why you're acting like this."

He tilted his head a little, "Okay. I do know why I'm like this. I'm just bitter, jealous even."

"Why? You broke up with me, remember?"

"That's why I'm mad. Because I'm obviously an idiot. And, I'm beginning to realize I might be a little too late to try and get you back. Seeing as how you're all in love and whatnot with Mr. Lawyer Man."

I rolled my eyes. "You are too late. And I do love him."

"Are you in love with him, though?"

"Yeah. I am. I really, really realized it last night actually."

He nodded, taking in my words. "Bonnie, it just sucks you know? I overreact a little and then -BOOM- I lose you forever. Ain't that some shit?" I just sat there quietly as I watched him swing his lengthy arms and ramble on whatever was in his head. "I'm the fuck up here. Like always. You know, I've screwed up every single one of my past relationships. Every single one. And you were the most important one and I had to let jealously win. Would you still be with me if I hadn't acted the way I did?"

A simple nod fell among me. "Yeah. Right this very moment, you and I would most likely still be together. But you know."

I could tell his gaze was stuck on mine. He had more to say, but was thinking of how to say it. "Bonnie, I love you very much. And, I've never said those words before. Ever. I love you. I'm in love with you and it pisses me the fuck off because it had to be you. I had to fall in love with you. A rich girl who loves clothes more than breathing, who's loft is nicer than any house I've ever lived in, who has a really nice car. And, it had to be me. I had to fall in love with you. I'm a fucking skinny loser who plays drums and who barely graduated high school and who only cares about myself and smoking weed. It makes me sick, you know, that Steven is this great fucking perfect guy. Look," He sat on a stool in front of me, grabbing my hand. "I can't be him. I couldn't even be him if I dreamt it up. These tattoos are permanent and I can't be home every night and I can't support you half as much as he can. But, I'm okay with that. I'm okay with that because I'm in love with you, Bonnie. And that's all I can think about. All I can think about is you."

Notes

HERE WE GOOOOOOOOOOOO

What are your thoughts on this huge confession that was just made?! Who is the better man for Bonnie: Steven or Mike?

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XO,
Ambs