My World is You

I was sitting in my room right next to my overnight bag and I wasn’t planning on getting up anytime soon.
“October come on! Dallas is going to be mad if we show up anytime past five!” June yelled up the stairs.
I sighed and stood up slinging my bag over my shoulder. It’s the day before the guys leave for tour with my two best friends. I was dreading tomorrow he told me he wasn’t going to wake me up in the morning. I’m dreading waking up without him, I’m dreading the fucking party that I wish they’d let me cancel, I’m dreading everything.
“It’s about fucking time missy.” June snapped as I walked down the last few steps.
“Let’s get this shit over with.” I whined
She smiled and we walked out to the car. The drive to Dallas’s house was only about twenty minutes but they were the quietest twenty minutes of my life. I pulled into Dallas’s driveway and got out slinging my bag over my left shoulder. June and I walked into his house and we were greeted by Austin’s boyfriend Aiden.
“Hey beauties.” He said
I smiled and he led us up to the rooms we’d be staying in. Vic was staying the night tonight so he had packed early and Mike had his bags. I walked into the room I was staying in and he was asleep on the huge bed. I dropped my bag and walked over to him.
“Baby.” He said pulling me onto the bed
I let out a slight squeal when he decided to tickle me again.
“Stop…. Stop I can’t breathe anymore.” I huffed
He eventually stopped and pulled my top up to my underwire of my bra.
“What are you doing?” I asked
He didn’t answer but she started planting open-mouthed kisses on my stomach. I giggled and laced my fingers into his hair.
“Knock knock! Whoa keep it in your pants until we are all asleep.” My brother Austin said coming into the room.
“Ugh mood killer.” I whined pulling my shirt back down
“There is dinner in the kitchen.” He said
“What is it?” I asked
“One of dad’s recipes.” He said
“Which one?” I asked
“The tacos.” He said rolling his eyes
I smiled and Austin walked away.
“Your dad had a taco recipe?” Vic asked
“Yeah, you’ve had them a few times.” I said
He just looked at me.
“When we were little.” I said
“Oh those.” He smiled
He got off of me and pulled me up by my hands.
“I’ll get you later.” He growled in my ear
I walked in front of him and stopped him from moving out the door.
“Oh really?” I asked raising my eyebrows
“Really.” He smirked
I squinted and stepped closer to him and pressed my chest to his and looked up at him, he looked down and I felt his breath on my forehead. I bit my lip and wrapped my arms around his neck and hugged him pressing my nose to his throat.
“Are you okay?” He asked
It felt so weird that his Adam’s apple was vibrating my nose but I suppressed my laugh and nodded. He laughed.
“I’m still going to get you later.” He said
I took my chance and turned my lips to his neck and kissed his Adam’s apple, I gently bit down and sucked gently leaving my mark. He moaned and I smirked, it was one of his sweet spots and it always got him going. When I was done leaving my mark I put my lips right next to his ear.
“Maybe I’ll be the one getting you later.” I whispered
He groaned and I went to walk away but he grabbed my shirt and pressed me against him, I could feel him slightly hard in his jeans.
“You know what that does to me.” He stated
“Maybe that’s why I did it.” I smiled
I walked away and went downstairs, and sat at the table.
“It’s about time.” Austin said
I smiled and picked up a taco and then Vic showed up right next to me.
“This smells really good.” Vic said
I smiled and June was staring off aimlessly while she ate her soft taco.
“Dearie what are you thinking about?” Missy asked
“How much I miss him.” She said
“Dad?” I piped in
“Yeah.” He said looking down at her food.
“Here is my idea. How about we all sit in the sitting room and talk about this. Kind of like things you miss about him, things you didn’t like about him. This is what my mum and I did when my dad died, and also I’d like to know how it happened.” Missy said
“I’d love to turn down that offer but.” Aiden piped up
“But what?” Missy asked
“Who can say no to you accent?” He smiled
Aiden had a point, Dallas couldn’t even say no to her because of her accent and probably her big greyish blue eyes. Missy was from Australia and even though she had been here with us for about since she was about twenty and she’s thirty-one now she hasn’t lost her heavy accent.
“I’m in.” Dallas said
“We all are.” June said
I nodded and we all ate in silence. Honestly I didn’t really want to talk about my father but I know June needed this because she was really young when he died. I was going to turn fifteen and she was going to turn nine, he was never really around that much when she was home because of his job, he worked constantly. Someone cleared their throat and drew me out of my thoughts.
“October?” Dallas asked
“Huh?” I asked
“I’ve been trying to get your attention for a while now. Did you space out?” He asked
“I was thinking.” I said getting up from the table and following him into the kitchen to put the dishes in the dishwasher.
“About what?” He asked
“Who’s going to tell June how he died?” I asked
“You are. You two are the closest and I know she’d want to hear it from you and plus…. Well you know.” He said
I nodded understanding.
“She tried to kill herself Dallas.” I said
“When?” He asked
“About a week ago. I was her emergency contact because she thought if they called you that you’d just tell the nurse off. They wanted to send her to the place.” I said
He knew exactly what place I was talking about.
“That’s utter bullshit.” He said
“Dallas I know, I didn’t have it in me to tell her that you would of done the same thing I did because you did it for me all three times…. Fuck you even helped me set up a plan to escape that place.” I said
He smiled and pulled me into a hug
“Don’t say anything right now, maybe in like a week okay?” I asked
He nodded and we walked out into the living room or sitting room as Missy calls it. I walked over and sat next to Vic on the couch. Austin and Aiden were sharing a chair, Missy and Dallas were on the loveseat and June was sitting cross legged on the wood floor.
“I have one question.” June said after a few minutes of silence.
“What is it Hun?” Aiden asked
Aiden knew the entire story.
“How’d he die?” She asked
“We’re leaving this up to October.” Dallas said
He eyes flickered to me.
“June you were pretty young when it happened around like nine.” I said
She nodded
“He….he.” I stuttered over what I was trying to stay
I was a complete daddy’s girl and it struck me hard.
“You can do it babe.” Vic said while rubbing my back.
Vic knew but didn’t at the same time, my hands trembled but I wasn’t going to cry.
“He killed himself.” I managed to get out.
Horror struck June and Missy’s face.
“Who found him?” Missy asked
“I….. I did.” I said
“When did he do it? Why did he do it? How did he do it? Where were we when he did it?” June asked
“He did it in January of two-thousand-three.” Dallas said
She was going to be nine
“He did it because he was struggling with depression and our mother was the cause of it and she wasn’t helping. He hated his job and he hated being away from his huge family, but he couldn’t quit because mom didn’t have a job.” Austin said
“He slit his own throat……… And all of the kids that lived in the house at that time which were August, May, you and I and we were all at grandma’s house with mom.” I said
“It’s two-thousand and twelve now so I was going to turn nine.” June said doing mental math.
We all nodded and I looked over at Missy who was still struck with horror
“What was he like?” June asked
“He was a great man who loved every single one of his kids and his kid’s friends.” Austin said
“He had a fuck ton of potential but our mother fucked him over.” Dallas practically growled
“Here June, later this week we’ll go to mom’s and I’ll dig out the photo albums.” I said
She smiled and nodded. We sat around and talked about other things and everyone decided to go to bed. I pulled Vic up the stairs and smirked at him as he pushed the door closed and locked it. He pushed me down onto the bed and straddled my waist, he had a hand on each side of my face and I wasn’t going to have that. I pulled all of his weight down onto me and I rolled us so I was on top. I connected our lips and then I kissed down his neck and again sucked gently on his Adam’s apple. He moaned and brought my face up to his and kissed me while rolling us again so he was on top. His hands played with the hem of the t-shirt I had on and I broke the kiss and helped him pull it off, I tried to get his off myself but failed so he had to help. I ran my hands down his toned chest and arms. Vic had chest hair but not enough to gross me out. He played with the back of my bra trying to unhook it and he was failing miserably probably on account that the hook was in the front. I started to laugh.
“What’s so funny?” He asked
“The hook is in the front.” I said
“You could of told me that.” He smiled
I winked at him and pulled his face to mine connecting our lips. He finally undid my bra and I flung it on the floor with our shirts. He kissed down my neck sucking on it roughly to leave his mark and to make sure it stayed there, I’d have to do that to him before the night ends so bitches know to stay away. I gasped in surprise when he took my nipple into his mouth and then let go, he left open kisses down my stomach and then fiddled with the button my shorts.
“Did you do this on purpose?” He asked
“Do what?” I asked
“Wore a pair of button fly shorts.” He said
“Maybe, maybe not.” I laughed.
He finally got all the buttons undone and he pulled the shorts off and dropped them onto the floor, I was laying there in just my green and white striped boy shorts, he pulled them off as well and climbed back over me. I reached and attempted to pull his basketball shorts and boxers off but I failed. He eventually caught on and dropped them to the floor. He ran his hands down my sides and connected our lips when he got to my hips. I let out a moan when he pumped two fingers in and out of me.
“I need you in me.” I said in his ear.
He pulled his fingers out and positioned himself over me and guided himself into me with his hand. I griped the red comforter that was on the bed and arched my back. The room filled with the sound of our moans and grunting. When I reached my climax I moaned his name and fell limp, his thrusts were getting sloppier so I knew he was about to reach his. When he did he collapsed on top of me and eventually rolled off of me. He pulled the red comforter back and pulled us under and pulled me tightly to his chest.
“I love you Toby.” He said
“I love you to Vic.” I said
He kissed my sweaty forehead and we eventually fell asleep.

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