Bulletproof Love
I Still Love Him.
Ellie's POV - 3 months later
It's been 3 whole months since all the drama happened and I broke up with Jaime, I haven't seen or heard from him ever since. It's been weird not having him around but he brought this all on himself with cheating on me with his slutty ex girlfriend so it's his fault all of this has happened not mine, I just ended it.
I'm actually with Alex now, not that its surprising at all, we all saw it coming. He's helped me a lot with Megan and he's just been really great to us but if I'm completely honest he's just not.. Jaime. I know it's been really hard for Megan not seeing her dad for 3 months, I feel horrible keeping her away from him for so long but she's been having a lot of fun with Alex to distract her from thinking about him. Her and Alex get along really well, she has fun with him and as long as she's happy, I am. For these couple of month all I can think about is Jaime, I know I shouldn't because all this was his fault and I shouldn't miss him but I do, I still love him but I'm with Alex now, but I guess things happen for a reason.
"Mummy can we go to he park?" Megan asked.
"Of course sweetie, if put your shoes on then I'll take you" I smiled. Her face lit up like a kid on Christmas morning and she ran to the hallway to put her shoes on. I followed behind her and put my shoes on as well. When we were both all ready we left the house and headed to the park down the street.
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When we got there Megan sprinted off to the climbing frame, I just sat on the nearby bench that I always sit on and just watched her have a good time. I watched her play with other little kids about her age, she's not afraid to talk to strangers or make friends, I wish I had her confidence.. She got all her confidence from Jaime that's for sure. I pulled my phone out and started to text Josh who I haven't seen in a while.
Me: hey bud, need to see you soon miss you loads x
I pressed send and put my phone back in my pocket. I was minding my own business when I felt someone sit next to me on the bench. I looked over and my throat hitched, it was Jaime.
"What are you doing here?" I asked calmly.
"I saw you here as I walked past, I just wanted to see you both" He said with a slight smile. That smile would always make me melt.
"Megan misses you a lot" I shrugged and looking down at my feet like it was nothing, which was stupid because it did mean something, his little girl misses her daddy. Then there was a bit of silence between us because neither of us really knew what to say to each other.
"I am sorry you know" He said breaking the silence. I just sighed and looked up at him.
"I know you are Jaime" was all I said, I truly believed that he was sorry but I couldn't just forgive him that easily.
"I miss you Ellie, I know I really screwed us up" He said in a sad tone.
"Yes you did Jaime, but you can't just assume that if you say sorry then I'll forgive you that easily, it doesn't work that way and I'm with Alex now anyway" I said. He looked devastated when I added the part about Alex.
"I do hope you're happy with him and I mean it, all I want is for you and Megan to be happy" He said and he sounded like he genuinely meant it which made me want to pulled him in a hug so bad but I couldn't, "can I just see Megan for a bit, I do miss her?" He added. I nodded and shouted Megan's name. Her head snapped looking at us and as soon as she saw Jaime her face lit up and she instantly started running towards him.
"DADDY!!" She screamed and tackled him into a hug. He picked her up in his arms and hugged her tightly.
"Hey princess, I've missed you a lot" He said.
"I've missed you too daddy" she replied. This was a cute father daughter moment that I didn't want to ruin so I sat there silently and just watched them contently.
"When are you coming back daddy?" She asked sadly. This was one of the questions I was hoping she wouldn't have asked but I spoke to soon.
"Um, your mummy has Alex now... he makes her happy" He said. I could see that it really hurt him to say that.
"But I miss you, your better than Alex daddy" She said and I sighed silently at that, I knew she missed Jaime, I just wanted her to like Alex for me.
"I miss you too but it's not my decision baby, I'm sorry" he said sadly. She looked like she was about to cry but I could tell that she forced a smile just for him, she's always been a brave girl.
After a couple of minutes of them chatting and catching up on the 3 months away from each other, I saw Megan looking really sleepy so I thought about taking her home.
"I'm sorry to ruin this father daughter moment but I think it's time to take you home missy" I said mainly towards Megan. She just whined and pouted.
"But I don't want to leave mummy" She whined.
"Well Alex is coming soon and I have to be there" I said. She just sighed.
"Fine." She said. Then she turned back to Jaime and hugged him tightly.
"Bye daddy" She smiled.
"Bye princess" He replied. "I better go, but I hope to see you again" He added.
"You probably will, it's not fair to keep you away from your daughter" I shrugged. "bye Jaime" I smiled and walked away with Megan next to me.
~~~1 week later~~~
Through out the week all I could think about was what happened with Jaime, I didn't realise how much I actually missed him until I saw him a week ago. I miss being with him, I miss being able to hug and kiss him whenever I want to, this sucks.
I've kind of gotten over the fact that he cheated on me, I'll never ever forget that he did it but when he said sorry to me I knew that he truly meant it. My life is so complicated, I want Jaime back I do actually like Alex a lot..
"Hey baby" Alex said as I opened the door for him to enter my house.
"Hey handsome" I smiled and pulled him into a kiss. I pulled away and closed the front door. We looked at each other for a while and I kissed him eagerly again, I wrapped my arms around his neck and he pulled me closer to him, we both knew what was about to happen. Before I could deepen the kiss he pulled and looked at me.
"We can't, Megan's in the house" He said.
"She's at Joshes for the day" I replied and then instantly attached my lips back to onto his again, he deepened the kiss and lifted me up off the floor to my surprise. I smiled into the kiss when I realised he was taking me to the bedroom.
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The next day my head was all over the place, Jaime and I have been texting all day, he's been so sweet, but I feel guilty because I'm with Alex. What am I getting myself into?
"A cup of tea for my lady" Alex smiled as he walked into the lounge with 2 cups of tea in his hands.
"Thanks baby" I replied and took one of the cups off him. I sipped the hot drink and felt instantly warmed up. I sat there thinking about everything and I knew there was one thing I needed to do, I just hope it's the right decision..
"I need to talk to you Lex" I said seriously. He looked at me and saw the serious look on my face.
"Okay, about what?" He asked, I seriously can't believe I'm doing this, this better be all worth it.
"I can't do this anymore, I don't think us is a good idea anymore" I said. His face completely dropped at my words.
"Can I ask why?" He asked surprisingly calm.
"I just don't feel anything anymore" I lied, I do love Alex a lot but my love for Jaime is a lot bigger. He sighed and took one of my hands in his.
"You still love Jaime don't you?" He asked catching me off guard, how did he know?
"..Yes, I'm so sorry Alex" I said with sadness laced in my voice, "you have to understand that I do love you but I guess my love for Jaime never went away" I added. I hate doing things like this it makes me feel horrible.
"I understand Ellie, I always thought you did" He said and he saw that I started to cry and pulled me into a tight hug, "hey, don't cry even though us didn't work out you'll still always be one of my bestfriends Ellie, nothing will change between us" He said.
"You promise?" I asked looking up to him.
"I promise, now stop crying, you're too pretty for that" He smiled and wiped the tears away.
"I did mean it when I said I love you Alex" I said. He smiled.
"I know, so did I" He replied and we just cuddled for a while. That went better than I thought it would. That's what I love about Alex he's so understanding, I'm glad I haven't lost him because of this.
Maybe now me and Jaime can work things out.. I hope.
It's been 3 whole months since all the drama happened and I broke up with Jaime, I haven't seen or heard from him ever since. It's been weird not having him around but he brought this all on himself with cheating on me with his slutty ex girlfriend so it's his fault all of this has happened not mine, I just ended it.
I'm actually with Alex now, not that its surprising at all, we all saw it coming. He's helped me a lot with Megan and he's just been really great to us but if I'm completely honest he's just not.. Jaime. I know it's been really hard for Megan not seeing her dad for 3 months, I feel horrible keeping her away from him for so long but she's been having a lot of fun with Alex to distract her from thinking about him. Her and Alex get along really well, she has fun with him and as long as she's happy, I am. For these couple of month all I can think about is Jaime, I know I shouldn't because all this was his fault and I shouldn't miss him but I do, I still love him but I'm with Alex now, but I guess things happen for a reason.
"Mummy can we go to he park?" Megan asked.
"Of course sweetie, if put your shoes on then I'll take you" I smiled. Her face lit up like a kid on Christmas morning and she ran to the hallway to put her shoes on. I followed behind her and put my shoes on as well. When we were both all ready we left the house and headed to the park down the street.
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When we got there Megan sprinted off to the climbing frame, I just sat on the nearby bench that I always sit on and just watched her have a good time. I watched her play with other little kids about her age, she's not afraid to talk to strangers or make friends, I wish I had her confidence.. She got all her confidence from Jaime that's for sure. I pulled my phone out and started to text Josh who I haven't seen in a while.
Me: hey bud, need to see you soon miss you loads x
I pressed send and put my phone back in my pocket. I was minding my own business when I felt someone sit next to me on the bench. I looked over and my throat hitched, it was Jaime.
"What are you doing here?" I asked calmly.
"I saw you here as I walked past, I just wanted to see you both" He said with a slight smile. That smile would always make me melt.
"Megan misses you a lot" I shrugged and looking down at my feet like it was nothing, which was stupid because it did mean something, his little girl misses her daddy. Then there was a bit of silence between us because neither of us really knew what to say to each other.
"I am sorry you know" He said breaking the silence. I just sighed and looked up at him.
"I know you are Jaime" was all I said, I truly believed that he was sorry but I couldn't just forgive him that easily.
"I miss you Ellie, I know I really screwed us up" He said in a sad tone.
"Yes you did Jaime, but you can't just assume that if you say sorry then I'll forgive you that easily, it doesn't work that way and I'm with Alex now anyway" I said. He looked devastated when I added the part about Alex.
"I do hope you're happy with him and I mean it, all I want is for you and Megan to be happy" He said and he sounded like he genuinely meant it which made me want to pulled him in a hug so bad but I couldn't, "can I just see Megan for a bit, I do miss her?" He added. I nodded and shouted Megan's name. Her head snapped looking at us and as soon as she saw Jaime her face lit up and she instantly started running towards him.
"DADDY!!" She screamed and tackled him into a hug. He picked her up in his arms and hugged her tightly.
"Hey princess, I've missed you a lot" He said.
"I've missed you too daddy" she replied. This was a cute father daughter moment that I didn't want to ruin so I sat there silently and just watched them contently.
"When are you coming back daddy?" She asked sadly. This was one of the questions I was hoping she wouldn't have asked but I spoke to soon.
"Um, your mummy has Alex now... he makes her happy" He said. I could see that it really hurt him to say that.
"But I miss you, your better than Alex daddy" She said and I sighed silently at that, I knew she missed Jaime, I just wanted her to like Alex for me.
"I miss you too but it's not my decision baby, I'm sorry" he said sadly. She looked like she was about to cry but I could tell that she forced a smile just for him, she's always been a brave girl.
After a couple of minutes of them chatting and catching up on the 3 months away from each other, I saw Megan looking really sleepy so I thought about taking her home.
"I'm sorry to ruin this father daughter moment but I think it's time to take you home missy" I said mainly towards Megan. She just whined and pouted.
"But I don't want to leave mummy" She whined.
"Well Alex is coming soon and I have to be there" I said. She just sighed.
"Fine." She said. Then she turned back to Jaime and hugged him tightly.
"Bye daddy" She smiled.
"Bye princess" He replied. "I better go, but I hope to see you again" He added.
"You probably will, it's not fair to keep you away from your daughter" I shrugged. "bye Jaime" I smiled and walked away with Megan next to me.
~~~1 week later~~~
Through out the week all I could think about was what happened with Jaime, I didn't realise how much I actually missed him until I saw him a week ago. I miss being with him, I miss being able to hug and kiss him whenever I want to, this sucks.
I've kind of gotten over the fact that he cheated on me, I'll never ever forget that he did it but when he said sorry to me I knew that he truly meant it. My life is so complicated, I want Jaime back I do actually like Alex a lot..
"Hey baby" Alex said as I opened the door for him to enter my house.
"Hey handsome" I smiled and pulled him into a kiss. I pulled away and closed the front door. We looked at each other for a while and I kissed him eagerly again, I wrapped my arms around his neck and he pulled me closer to him, we both knew what was about to happen. Before I could deepen the kiss he pulled and looked at me.
"We can't, Megan's in the house" He said.
"She's at Joshes for the day" I replied and then instantly attached my lips back to onto his again, he deepened the kiss and lifted me up off the floor to my surprise. I smiled into the kiss when I realised he was taking me to the bedroom.
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The next day my head was all over the place, Jaime and I have been texting all day, he's been so sweet, but I feel guilty because I'm with Alex. What am I getting myself into?
"A cup of tea for my lady" Alex smiled as he walked into the lounge with 2 cups of tea in his hands.
"Thanks baby" I replied and took one of the cups off him. I sipped the hot drink and felt instantly warmed up. I sat there thinking about everything and I knew there was one thing I needed to do, I just hope it's the right decision..
"I need to talk to you Lex" I said seriously. He looked at me and saw the serious look on my face.
"Okay, about what?" He asked, I seriously can't believe I'm doing this, this better be all worth it.
"I can't do this anymore, I don't think us is a good idea anymore" I said. His face completely dropped at my words.
"Can I ask why?" He asked surprisingly calm.
"I just don't feel anything anymore" I lied, I do love Alex a lot but my love for Jaime is a lot bigger. He sighed and took one of my hands in his.
"You still love Jaime don't you?" He asked catching me off guard, how did he know?
"..Yes, I'm so sorry Alex" I said with sadness laced in my voice, "you have to understand that I do love you but I guess my love for Jaime never went away" I added. I hate doing things like this it makes me feel horrible.
"I understand Ellie, I always thought you did" He said and he saw that I started to cry and pulled me into a tight hug, "hey, don't cry even though us didn't work out you'll still always be one of my bestfriends Ellie, nothing will change between us" He said.
"You promise?" I asked looking up to him.
"I promise, now stop crying, you're too pretty for that" He smiled and wiped the tears away.
"I did mean it when I said I love you Alex" I said. He smiled.
"I know, so did I" He replied and we just cuddled for a while. That went better than I thought it would. That's what I love about Alex he's so understanding, I'm glad I haven't lost him because of this.
Maybe now me and Jaime can work things out.. I hope.
Notes
Sorry for not updating yesterday but Ellie and Alex didnt last long haha
@emilypfletcher
I know, I was just joking because little Megan really really liked Mike :-D
5/26/14