Bulletproof Love
You Need To Wake Up.
Jaime's POV - 1 week later
It'sbeen a very long week and I haven't left the hospital once, I've stuck by Ellie's side for 1 week straight. Ellie hasn't made any sign of improvement and she's still in a coma, the doctors say she could be in a coma for many months for all we know. I haven't sleep or eaten properly but I don't care right now.
All the guys keep telling me to go home and rest but I couldn't leave her alone, I wouldn't be able to live with myself if something happened to her and I wasn't here. I told the guys to take Megan home to rest for a while, she refused to leave Ellie's side at first, she would lay next to Ellie's for hours and just play with her hair but last night she fell asleep so the guys quickly took her home before she woke up.
I was sitting in next to Ellie's bed all alone just holding her hand.
"Ellie you need to open them big, beautiful green eyes of yours for me, everyone is missing you like crazy especially Megan, she's refused to leave your side ever since I told her what's happened to you" I sighed, "me and the guys miss you a lot too.. I-I need you Ellie, more than I've realised myself actually. Ever since you've been here I've realised just how much I actually need you, you're my world Ellie, I just need you to wake up so we can be a properly family with Megan" I wiped the tear away off my cheek that I didn't even realise that had fell. Then the same nurse that's been here everyday for the past week came in.
"Good morning sir, how are you?" She asked politely.
"Call me Jaime and I've been better but I'm holding up" I slightly smiled. She smiled back.
"You know, you've been here all week hardly moving, going home and sleeping in your own bed wouldn't kill you, if anything happens we can just ring you?" She offered.
"I can't, I just can't leave her" I said hardly above a whisper. She just nodded and left the room, leaving me alone with my thoughts and the annoying, familiar sound of beeping coming for the machine. What did I do to deserve this? Everything was going great between me and Ellie before this happened. She didn't deserve this at all, she's a good person, a great mum and she gets this in return? How is that fair? I was snapped out of my thoughts by Vic walking in.
"Hey man, how's everything?" He asked as he sat the other side of Ellie, opposite me.
"No change, everything's the same" I shrugged but not taking my eyes off her.
"Hime you need to get home man, not being harsh but you look like shit, you haven't slept hardly all week" He said. I knew was right but I couldn't.
"Vic you know I can't leave her, I'm serious, I'm sleeping perfectly fine here"
"But your not sleeping properly. Look i'll stay here with Ellie and you go home sleep for a couple of hours then come back, just do it for her, she would hate to see you like this" He said. I sighed loudly.
"Fine" I simply said. I didn't want to at all but he was right, I was fucking knackered and my bed sounded amazing right now. He smiled at me. I stood up and stared at her, not 100% wanting to leave her.
"If anything good or bad happens you need to ring me right away" I said sternly.
"I will Hime-time, I promise so now go!" He said pointing to the door. I sighed and hesitantly left the room.
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When I got home, took my shoes off and walked straight upstairs. I opened my bedroom door and caught a quick glimpse of myself in the mirror.. I look like shit. I have huge dark rings under my eyes and my hairs a complete mess. Not even bothering about pjs and I walk over to my bed and collapsed onto it. I knew I was tired but my mind wouldn't let me sleep, I was worrying too much about Ellie to even think about sleeping. I got under the sheets and just laid there staring at the ceiling.
Ellie's is going to be okay, right? More & more bad thoughts came into my mind and I started to full on shake and I started to cry a little. Eventually I must have cried myself to sleep.
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My eyes flickered open and I stretched. I looked over at my clock on my bedside table.
10:30am
Holy shit I slept for nearly a whole day. I didn't realise I was actually that tired. I do feel better though, slightly refreshed from that sleep. But I know I have to get back to Ellie so I got off my bed and took a quick shower. After I was done I got changed, I wasn't really worried about my appearance so I chucked on a plain black t-shirt and a pair of blue jeans. I brushed my teeth then I headed downstairs. I put my shoes on, shoved my phone in my pocket and left straight for the hospital, praying that something goods happened but I highly doubt it..
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I walked into the hospital and instantly heading to Ellie's room, being here for a week straight I literally know my whole way round this place. I quickly made it to Ellie's room and saw that everyone was in there. Megan was back to laying next to her mum's side, she was tracing her small tattoos that she had on her arm with one hand and clutched tightly on Ellie's hand with the other. All the guys were sitting there making small conversations with each other but not really saying much, as I walked in they all looked at me and slightly smiled, I forced one back, they knew by now when I was faking or forcing a smile.
"Your daughter has one temper on her I can tell you that" Tony said as I sat next to him.
"Why?" I asked.
"When we took her home, she woke up as soon as we entered the house, she started kicking and screaming telling us to take her back, the poor thing wore herself out from shouting and fell asleep straight after" He explained. This must be so hard for her, she's only 4 years old for christ sake, she shouldn't have to got through this.
"Shes only 4 years old, she shouldn't have to go through this, She cares for Ellie so much" I said quietly. Tony just nodded in response and patted my back. I walked over and sat in the chair next to Megan.
"Hey princess come sit on my lap for a minute" She hesitantly looked up at Ellie, "mummy will be fine, I just want a hug sweetie" I smiled. She slowly crawled off the bed for the first time ever and sat on my lap. I hugged her tightly and rocked back and forth.
"Daddy, why hasn't mummy moved or spoke to me, I keep talking to her but she never responds?" She asked. I was literally lost for words. She didn't fully understand and that broke my heart. I took a deep breath and looked down at her.
"Mummy is very ill princess, it's not that she doesn't want to talk to you because of course she does, she just can't right now" I kissed her forehead, "your mummy loves you very much, don't forget that" I told her.
"I love her loads too and I love you daddy" She smiled.
"I love you too sweetie" I smiled and we hugged for a long time after that. After awhile her breathing had gotten slower and more steadier meaning that she's fallen sleep, I just held her tightly. Me and the guys talked for a while until it got late and they decided to leave. I decided that Megan should stay because I didn't want her screaming that the guys again for taking her away from Ellie again and also Josh decided to stay as well. This gave me the time to get to know him better.
"She didn't deserve this" He said quietly but loud enough for me to hear.
"I know, but she's going to be okay" I said trying to be positive.
"I know it's just, why her for? Out of all people why does this happen to her?" He looked so upset. She's his bestfriend, they've known each other for years, of course he's going to be upset.
"Life's not always fair I guess" I shrugged. He then looked up to me.
"I'm glad she's got you Jaime, ever since she came running to me telling me all about what happened with you she been the happiest i've ever seen her and you're also a great dad for Megan" He smiled. In a way I was glad I got his approval, I know it sounds silly but I'm glad he likes me because I'd hate it if her bestfriend hated me.
"Thanks man, she means so much to me and I'm just trying to get back 4 years I lost with Megan" I said.
"She always felt guilt about not telling you but you didn't exactly give her the chance" He said which made me feel bad, "but when she bumped into you a few weeks ago she was so scared to see you because she wasn't planning on telling you but she knew she had to for yours and Megan's sake" He said pointing to Megan who's still fast asleep.
"You're such a great friend to her Josh, I'm so glad her and Megan have got you' I smiled.
"I'd never leave her, she is and always will be my bestfriend" He said as he took hold of her hand.
We spoke about other thing till it got really late, Josh slowly fell asleep and Megan was still fast asleep on my lap so I thought I that I should probably sleep too. Not long after I fell into a deep sleep cuddling to my daughter.
It'sbeen a very long week and I haven't left the hospital once, I've stuck by Ellie's side for 1 week straight. Ellie hasn't made any sign of improvement and she's still in a coma, the doctors say she could be in a coma for many months for all we know. I haven't sleep or eaten properly but I don't care right now.
All the guys keep telling me to go home and rest but I couldn't leave her alone, I wouldn't be able to live with myself if something happened to her and I wasn't here. I told the guys to take Megan home to rest for a while, she refused to leave Ellie's side at first, she would lay next to Ellie's for hours and just play with her hair but last night she fell asleep so the guys quickly took her home before she woke up.
I was sitting in next to Ellie's bed all alone just holding her hand.
"Ellie you need to open them big, beautiful green eyes of yours for me, everyone is missing you like crazy especially Megan, she's refused to leave your side ever since I told her what's happened to you" I sighed, "me and the guys miss you a lot too.. I-I need you Ellie, more than I've realised myself actually. Ever since you've been here I've realised just how much I actually need you, you're my world Ellie, I just need you to wake up so we can be a properly family with Megan" I wiped the tear away off my cheek that I didn't even realise that had fell. Then the same nurse that's been here everyday for the past week came in.
"Good morning sir, how are you?" She asked politely.
"Call me Jaime and I've been better but I'm holding up" I slightly smiled. She smiled back.
"You know, you've been here all week hardly moving, going home and sleeping in your own bed wouldn't kill you, if anything happens we can just ring you?" She offered.
"I can't, I just can't leave her" I said hardly above a whisper. She just nodded and left the room, leaving me alone with my thoughts and the annoying, familiar sound of beeping coming for the machine. What did I do to deserve this? Everything was going great between me and Ellie before this happened. She didn't deserve this at all, she's a good person, a great mum and she gets this in return? How is that fair? I was snapped out of my thoughts by Vic walking in.
"Hey man, how's everything?" He asked as he sat the other side of Ellie, opposite me.
"No change, everything's the same" I shrugged but not taking my eyes off her.
"Hime you need to get home man, not being harsh but you look like shit, you haven't slept hardly all week" He said. I knew was right but I couldn't.
"Vic you know I can't leave her, I'm serious, I'm sleeping perfectly fine here"
"But your not sleeping properly. Look i'll stay here with Ellie and you go home sleep for a couple of hours then come back, just do it for her, she would hate to see you like this" He said. I sighed loudly.
"Fine" I simply said. I didn't want to at all but he was right, I was fucking knackered and my bed sounded amazing right now. He smiled at me. I stood up and stared at her, not 100% wanting to leave her.
"If anything good or bad happens you need to ring me right away" I said sternly.
"I will Hime-time, I promise so now go!" He said pointing to the door. I sighed and hesitantly left the room.
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When I got home, took my shoes off and walked straight upstairs. I opened my bedroom door and caught a quick glimpse of myself in the mirror.. I look like shit. I have huge dark rings under my eyes and my hairs a complete mess. Not even bothering about pjs and I walk over to my bed and collapsed onto it. I knew I was tired but my mind wouldn't let me sleep, I was worrying too much about Ellie to even think about sleeping. I got under the sheets and just laid there staring at the ceiling.
Ellie's is going to be okay, right? More & more bad thoughts came into my mind and I started to full on shake and I started to cry a little. Eventually I must have cried myself to sleep.
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My eyes flickered open and I stretched. I looked over at my clock on my bedside table.
10:30am
Holy shit I slept for nearly a whole day. I didn't realise I was actually that tired. I do feel better though, slightly refreshed from that sleep. But I know I have to get back to Ellie so I got off my bed and took a quick shower. After I was done I got changed, I wasn't really worried about my appearance so I chucked on a plain black t-shirt and a pair of blue jeans. I brushed my teeth then I headed downstairs. I put my shoes on, shoved my phone in my pocket and left straight for the hospital, praying that something goods happened but I highly doubt it..
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I walked into the hospital and instantly heading to Ellie's room, being here for a week straight I literally know my whole way round this place. I quickly made it to Ellie's room and saw that everyone was in there. Megan was back to laying next to her mum's side, she was tracing her small tattoos that she had on her arm with one hand and clutched tightly on Ellie's hand with the other. All the guys were sitting there making small conversations with each other but not really saying much, as I walked in they all looked at me and slightly smiled, I forced one back, they knew by now when I was faking or forcing a smile.
"Your daughter has one temper on her I can tell you that" Tony said as I sat next to him.
"Why?" I asked.
"When we took her home, she woke up as soon as we entered the house, she started kicking and screaming telling us to take her back, the poor thing wore herself out from shouting and fell asleep straight after" He explained. This must be so hard for her, she's only 4 years old for christ sake, she shouldn't have to got through this.
"Shes only 4 years old, she shouldn't have to go through this, She cares for Ellie so much" I said quietly. Tony just nodded in response and patted my back. I walked over and sat in the chair next to Megan.
"Hey princess come sit on my lap for a minute" She hesitantly looked up at Ellie, "mummy will be fine, I just want a hug sweetie" I smiled. She slowly crawled off the bed for the first time ever and sat on my lap. I hugged her tightly and rocked back and forth.
"Daddy, why hasn't mummy moved or spoke to me, I keep talking to her but she never responds?" She asked. I was literally lost for words. She didn't fully understand and that broke my heart. I took a deep breath and looked down at her.
"Mummy is very ill princess, it's not that she doesn't want to talk to you because of course she does, she just can't right now" I kissed her forehead, "your mummy loves you very much, don't forget that" I told her.
"I love her loads too and I love you daddy" She smiled.
"I love you too sweetie" I smiled and we hugged for a long time after that. After awhile her breathing had gotten slower and more steadier meaning that she's fallen sleep, I just held her tightly. Me and the guys talked for a while until it got late and they decided to leave. I decided that Megan should stay because I didn't want her screaming that the guys again for taking her away from Ellie again and also Josh decided to stay as well. This gave me the time to get to know him better.
"She didn't deserve this" He said quietly but loud enough for me to hear.
"I know, but she's going to be okay" I said trying to be positive.
"I know it's just, why her for? Out of all people why does this happen to her?" He looked so upset. She's his bestfriend, they've known each other for years, of course he's going to be upset.
"Life's not always fair I guess" I shrugged. He then looked up to me.
"I'm glad she's got you Jaime, ever since she came running to me telling me all about what happened with you she been the happiest i've ever seen her and you're also a great dad for Megan" He smiled. In a way I was glad I got his approval, I know it sounds silly but I'm glad he likes me because I'd hate it if her bestfriend hated me.
"Thanks man, she means so much to me and I'm just trying to get back 4 years I lost with Megan" I said.
"She always felt guilt about not telling you but you didn't exactly give her the chance" He said which made me feel bad, "but when she bumped into you a few weeks ago she was so scared to see you because she wasn't planning on telling you but she knew she had to for yours and Megan's sake" He said pointing to Megan who's still fast asleep.
"You're such a great friend to her Josh, I'm so glad her and Megan have got you' I smiled.
"I'd never leave her, she is and always will be my bestfriend" He said as he took hold of her hand.
We spoke about other thing till it got really late, Josh slowly fell asleep and Megan was still fast asleep on my lap so I thought I that I should probably sleep too. Not long after I fell into a deep sleep cuddling to my daughter.
Notes
This is just a filler, I'll update again sometime today later x
@emilypfletcher
I know, I was just joking because little Megan really really liked Mike :-D
5/26/14