Curtains Close; Take a bow. I think we fooled all of them now.

Chapter 1 - I've Dug My Grave, So I'll Lie In It

Rain's POV

My eyes fluttered open, a dark haze seemed to hang over them. As soon as my eyes adjusted i sat forward and looked around. I was in an unfamiliar room with white walls and little furniture. I instantly looked down. I was in a hospital gown with bandages around my wrists and a drip in my arm. There was little time for breaths before i started to panic. Where were my parents? What happened? And most importantly, how did they find me?

I glanced back and forth quickly before swinging my bare feet over the side of the bed and letting them touch the cold hard floor. I pulled the drip out of my arm and watched a tiny blot of blood rise from my punctured skin. I started to walk slowly and unsteadily, as i still felt a little dizzy and dehydrated.

"Mom?" I asked, leaning my head around the corner. I could hear her quiet voice.

"Oh my baby girl." She got up and a nurse followed her. "Why didn't you come and talk to us about it?" She cooed and held me in her arms, swaying me gently. The nurse took my hand and lead me back to my bed, where she tucked me in and told me to get back to sleep before ushering my mother back outside.

I laid back. The events of last night were hazy. I remember locking my bedroom door and running myself a bath. I had poured myself a few glasses of Jack Daniels and sat down for quite a while, getting myself drunker and drunker. I cried. I sobbed until my stomach felt sick and my heart was racing. Then I... I can't remember.

I glanced around the room one more time and saw my clothes neatly folded in the corner on a chair, with my rucksack hanging on the back. I eased myself out of the bed, and reached out for it, grabbing it by the strap. I searched through it for my things. And that's when i saw the pills. That's when i remembered.

I'd over dosed on the pills. I had decided to end it finally. I had written a note to my family and slid it under the door of my room into the hallway. That's when i took a handful of the pills and guzzled them down like no tomorrow. I sat myself in the bath, fully clothed and ready to die. And i remember closing my eyes. The feeling of darkness filling me up. I could remember the panic in my fathers eyes as he lifted me from the tub. My soggy jumper clung to me as my head weakly lolled against him. He was shouting. Not at me though. At my mother. At my Brother. At everyone else but me. I laid in his arms like a dead flower, drifting in and out of consciousness. It was scary. I wanted to die. But i wasn't so sure i was going to now. And my head started to fill with guilt. I would have grief from my family if they spoke to me alive again. And everything would get worse. All the things before that made me want to die, they would be even worse if i survived. So in my father's arms i let out a few tears before falling unconscious again.

And that was when I ended up here. Alone in this room. With these pills in my hand. My eyes closed. I was going to finish this no matter what. I shoved another handful into my mouth and swallowed hard, choking a little. Then i returned to the bed for the rest of my slumber. For the last of my slumber.

Notes

So what do you guys think? This is my first fan fic :o