Don't tell me I'm Beautiful.

I was feeling like a mess as I stormed off the bus, anger and sadness washing over me. I don't know why I got so mad about them drinking. Maybe I felt like I shouldn't be. I was concerned. I suddenly looked back at their bus and whimpered but began to walk away slowly. I went to pull out my phone and grumbled when I realized that I had left it in Tino's bunk and turned around a scowl set upon my face. I slowly emerged into the front walkway after walking up the steps and walked back quietly grabbing the curtian and glaring at Tino as I grabbed my phone. "I don't get why I feel so angry about this." I muttered as I snatched it up. "But I do. And I can't be around people forcing alcohol on me." I said and then shut the curtain swiftly before leaving the bus again, tears rolling down my face as I made my way back to my own bus and wiggled into my own bunk.

It was then that it dawned on me that I had also missed my period a few days before, normally it wouldn't have worried me being late and what not, but like I had mentioned before. We didn't use protection, and now Tino was raging pissed at me for not wanting him or myself to drink tonight. For fuck sakes we had just made up. I whined and pulled out my phone opening a text and slowly deciding what to say. I typed, re-typed, and re-typed again before getting frustrated and sending a message I probably would regret. 'I'm late, thanks.' and tossed my phone down while I hastely got up and quickly grabbed my shoes, purse and phone before making my way to the closest pharmacy to pick up a test.


I constantly checked my phone, no messages from Tino and frowned. Obviously he had to be lying about me being special, otherwise he would be giving a shit that I'm freaking out right now. I texted Alan and frowned, 'princess, I need help....' was all I said as I picked up a test and walked to pay for it with a frown. "Wouldn't my mother love to see me now." I muttered to myself as I paid the cashier and began my trek back to the bus. 'With what sweetie' was the message I got back when my phone randomly buzzed. 'Tino yet again hates me, and my hormones are killing me.' I told him as I walked onto the warped grounds and headed to my bus, accidentally bumping into Vic along the way.


"Sorry hun, didn't mean to run into you there." he said and picked up the bag I had dropped in shock, wide eyed as he saw through the thin plastic what was inside. "Uh oh." he said and I bit my lip. "Don't tell Tino, he's mad enough right now that I didn't want him to go out drinking tonight." I said and sighed running my hands through my already messy hair and sighed harder. "This will just make things worse right now, I just need to know for myself." I said and bit my lip as he nodded. "He's a fool if he goes off leaving you Nicole." Vic said and I smiled a little.

"Thanks Vic, have fun tonight make sure he doesn't leave me....." I whispered and turned to walk away. I sighed as I walked onto the bus and made sure everyone was cleared out before heading into the bathroom for the possible life change I was about to have.



** Later that evening **



'Tino... I need you.' No response. 'Tino please...' Still no response. I had been crying for hours, shaking, scared. He didn;t respond so I did the only thing I could think of and that was get up to go find him. When I found him some redhead was hanging off of his arm, laughing at everything I said and it stung when he looked at me and smirked. I looked down at the still very positive test and walked over throwing it at him and storming away, not wanting to look back. Wishing more so I could dissapear than anything now.

Notes

Horray we both updated today. <3


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