What if i cant forget you?

*Vics POV*
I stared at the beautiful girl sprawled across my bed.
This wasn't right, I couldn't use this girl. I couldn't have meaningless sex with this girl, even though i had no doubt i was in love with her.I wanted it to be special!Not like this goddammit.
"Dani put your clothes back on, I don't want this." I sighed heavily, ignoring the bulge in my pants. I don't believe i was saying no to getting laid.
"You do want this, Vic. I can tell." Dani seductively whispered.
"Dani, put your clothes on. I want it to be special."
"But viccccc" she moaned. Maybe she wanted this more than I did...I doubt that though.
"No Dani. Not tonight." I walked away and went into the bathroom. I couldn't sleep with a boner, it'd make it awkward for me and Dani.
I was annoyed that I had to say no. But it didn't seem like the right time, was I being cruel?I hope not.
Man i needed to get laid.
*Dani's POV*
Why had he just said no?Was i not sexy enough?
Maybe he didn't love me.
But if he didn't love me, then why had he helped me?
Before i knew it, I was digging through my draws. If Vic didn't love me, then I didn't want to be here.Tears were streaming down my face, and all I could find was a sharpener. Fuck, I'd have to use my nails to unscrew it. Anything would do. The blade had come out and I help it to my thigh.Vic walked in with a hand on his head, he was running his fingers through his hair,"Look Dani it's not that i don't wan--DANI NO" He looked up at my holding the blade and ran over to me and slapped it out of my hand, cutting his finger in the process of doing this. "FUCK" he yelled, holding his hand in pain, it was a pretty deep cut." Fuck. Dani what the fuck were you doing!"you could notice tears in his eyes, he was very sensitive about this subject.
"I was just-" My voice cracked; I coughed to hide it," I was just drawing, there's no need to worry honey..." I smiled a very fake smile at Vic.
"Danielle, I'm not in the mood for bullshit.Why were you going to-- to cut?" He was in tears by now, and it broke my heart. He was still holding his hand in pain. I was concerned.
"Let me look at your cut, Vic" I mumbled, trying to change the subject. He sighed in annoyance.
"Dani, don't try and change the subject. I wont be mad, I just want to help you." He sounded sad. This pissed me off and without thinking i quickly snapped at him.
"Fucking hell Vic!I'm Not your fucking charity case! Yeah, I'm depressed, I'm suicidal, I'm anorexic and bulimic, get the fuck over it!I don't need your help, I didn't ask for it.Fuck, i just wanted to kill myself in peace!" I shouted. Tears stained my face as i realized what i had just said.I quickly covered my mouth.
"Well, if that's how you feel, I'll go back home." he mumbled sadly, his face also tear stained.I shook my head, my mouth still covered with my hands. Vic stood up to leave.
"No,Vic! I didn't mean for it to come out like that!
"No, Dani, go fuck yourself! I Saved you!I don't give a fuck if you wanted saving or not, you needed saving! I Love you, Dani, when will you realize i don't just want you to fuck you, or else i would have done yesterday! When you've sorted your shit out. call me and we'll talk like adults."
And with that, he left, leaving blood on my door handle.
I don't believe i just said that he should have left me to die.
I don't believe he just left.

Notes

Okay so i didnt want to do smut.
Soooo what do you thinks gon happen?
Im going to update a few times tonight bc im bored af
im going through a lot of stuff right now and i can't sleep properly and i cant even lay down because my thighs and my stomach are so fucked up.
i cant lie on my back because it hurts my neck ow.
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