You can't just turn back time

Tony's P.O.V.

I was sat in Mike's hospital room, after the surgery he had on his head. The doctors weren't specific on what exactly happened to his head but I've been waiting here, holding his hand ever since he's gotten out, for him to wake up. I was silently crying. Victor was sitting in the room as well and I could feel his eyes on me. When I looked up at him with bloodshot eyes, he didn't look angry, he just looked genuinely devastated and yet his eyes still held an ounce of joy. I didn't know why though.

"Why are you staring at me?..." I asked, focusing back on Mike and kissing his hand.

"Because you've been here since he had the surgery."

"That's what friends do, Vic."

"It's been three days though...you haven't gone home or even slept...and all you've been doing since we've been here is tell him how much you love him and you kiss him in a way I can't explain...friends don't do that, Tony." Victor answered. I didn't say anything. I didn't look at him and I didn't really care about this right now.

"Have you and Mike been-"

"No, Victor. Look, I don't know what you're getting at here, but I am not cheating!" I yelled. Silence filled the room before Victor spoke up again.

"But I didn't say you were..." Victor whispered. I tears fall even quicker out of my eyes and I went back to giving Mike my undivided attention.

"I..." I stopped, contemplating if I should say it. "I'm in love with him..." I finally choked out, only for it to turn into a sob. I completely turned away from Victor so he wouldn't see me cry, although he could still hear me.

"I-Is that why he...why he ran?...Does he love you too?" Victor whispered. I felt my heart shatter again for the millionth time today and when I only broke out crying even louder, Victor wasted no time in coming over to me and holding me in his arms.

"H-He does....He keeps t-telling me, that he, he loves me b-but I ca-n't...I just...I lo-love hi-im so much" I cried into Victor's shoulder. Now it was Victor who didn't say anything.

"T-Tony.." I heard Mike's voice behind me and spun around so I could see him. He looked tired and his eyes weren't open all the way.

"Mikey...h-how do yo-you feel, baby? Are you, are you okay?" I asked frantically, kissing his head. "I'm so fucking sorry...I-I'm so sorry, Mikey...I'm so sorry..." I sobbed. I just couldn't stop crying. I felt so bad about everything and it was coming at me like daggers.

"It's okay, Tone...I'm...I'm just an idiot, you know?" Mike asked, letting a few tears spill. Yet he gave me a sad smile.

"No you're not-"

"Yes I am, Tone-bone...I'm an idiot because I...I don't know, I just...this is all my fault. Not yours...I f-fell in love with you a-and I'm the one who made you cheat on Jaime...I'm the one who tore us apart as kids, and now I'm tearing us apart as adults. I'm being selfish because I want you to be with me and not him. I don't even feel bad anymore. I almost got myself killed because of one...one kiss."

I engulfed Mike into a hug, he wasn't even crying, but I knew he was beyond hurt by this point. So hurt that it pushed him to say something utterly shocking.

"Thinking of it now...being dead wouldn't be all that bad. You should have let me die." Mike spoke bitterly.

"Mike, no!" I yelled, pulling away and looking at him in shock. and fear. How could he say that?...

"I'm sorry..."

"I still don't think you're an idiot. I'm the idiot." I whispered. Mike looked at me confused.

"Why?...You haven't done anything wrong..."

"The only wrong thing I've done is pushing you away...you were right."

"Right about what?"

"You're the one I should be marrying." I spoke, my voice cracking in the process. Mike didn't do anything but smile, while tears ran down both of our faces. I had almost forgotten Victor was in the room until he spoke up.

"Tony..." Victor looked horrified, motioning towards someone who had been in the room. Who even knows how long...I felt my stomach explode. Jaime stood at the door, a card on the floor, flowers thrown to the ground, a balloon no longer in his grasp, and a face filled with tears and a look of deep heartbreak.

"Jaime, I can explain!" I shouted. But it was too late. He was already running out of the room. Fuck. I wanted to run, but my hand was in Mike's and I wasn't sure if it was okay.

"Go after him..." Mike whispered.

"Are you sure?.."

'Yea.."

"Thanks you." I stood up and kissed Mike's cheek before running out into the hallways and catching up to my now ex-fiance.

"Jaime, let me explain, please!" I spoke, turning him around. I've never seen him more broken before today.

"What is there to explain?! You...you just told him you should be marrying him!" Jaime shouted. Nurses and doctors, even strangers stared at us, having our argument out in the open.

"I cheated on you with him...Twice...maybe three times...I'm not sure, but you have to trust me when I say I love you. I love you a whole lot, Jaime, but...I...I love him too...I have since we were only kids in middle school and I never told you because it was never important. Not until he showed up again and then he just...we started talking again, everything came back and I couldn't stop myself from doing anything with him...I'm sorry, I really am. I never meant for any of this to happen, but it did and now...I need to be with him, Jaime...I love him so much it hurts. And as cheesy as it sounds, I just want you to know that you'll always have a special place in my heart." I spoke. I hadn't even realized we were holding hands. But it didn't feel strange, and he didn't take his hand away. He just looked at me, crying yet in full understanding because by the time I finished he had taken my face in his hands and kissed me right on the lips. I gave into the kiss as he held my hand tighter.

"I love you." Jaime whispered. He then proceeded in taking his ring off and placing it in my hand. "Just...fuck...p-promise me you'll...promise that you'll be happy. And you'll take your medicine, and stay healthy, an-and don't completely walk out o-of my life...you're still my best friend." Jaime spoke through the tears.

"I pro-promise. I love you too..." My heart was breaking yet again today. I just wonder how many heart strings could break before I'd die from heartbreak.

Notes

I had to sacrifice my amazing ending of this story to have this happen ;_; ugh. Y'all better be happy, cuz my ending was gonna be amazingly sad but with this happening, I can't make that happen. I'm doing Jaime's P.O.V. in the next chapter but it might be a while since school just started and yea, I'm gonna take longer to update than usual. Sorry ;_;

Anyway, school isn't as bad and I'm joining ROTC :D and I'll also be joining softball in 2015! Woo!

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