You can't just turn back time

Mike's P.O.V.

Tony & I came out of the kitchen & I couldn't believe what I just did with him in there. I felt pretty fucking bad. I just fucking wish he was mine to have. I saw Tony walk over to Jaime & he leaned down to him speaking quietly but I was close enough to hear him.

"Jaime, I need to talk to you..." Tony looked so frustrated. I think he might be regretting what we did. Fuck! He might tell Jaime....I don't want to already be on Jaime's bad side. I never wanted to mess this up, dammit. Shit.

"Hey, Victor I think we should go get something to eat? I'm starving & I don't think my stomach can take anymore waiting." I spoke. Victor looked up & his cheeks were a little pink. He nodded & stood up.

"Alright, I guess we're going." Victor spoke.

"Yea, Tony has to talk to me anyway. Come over tomorrow, yea?" Jaime asked with his goofy grin.

"Yea, definitely." Victor smiled. They hugged & then I said bye to both of them. Ugh. I don't know what he's gonna tell Jaime, but whatever it is, it better not include me.

"Alright Mike, where do you wanna eat?" Victor asked.

"Anywhere." I spoke. Victor shrugged & off we went in his car to eat.

It had been about three hours since we were at Jaime's house & I was rattling questions in my head left & right. I haven't gotten a call or text from Tony & I'm really starting to panic.

"FUUUCCKKK!" I screamed out into my room. I put the pillow over my head & screamed into it.

"FUUCCKKK! FUCK FUCK FUCK!"

I threw the pillow at the wall & rolled over on my side to relax. My phone started ringing & I quickly spun around to take the call.

"Hello? Tony, is it you?" I asked. I didn't even look at the caller ID.

"Um...yea. Why? Where you waiting for my call?" Tony asked. I sighed in relief & quickly hurried to get my question out.

"Tony...you didn't tell Jaime anything, did you?" I asked. Tony didn't say anything. He just breathed into the phone. "Tony?.."

"I was going to..."

"Tony, what the fu-"

"But I didn't! I swear!"

"Tony, please don't. I didn't want it to go that far..."

"Than why did you do that to me? You were teasing me....what did you want?"

"I just wanted to see if you were still a little attracted to me..."

"Mike..I....you're hot but..but those feelings aren't there anymore. they used to be, but now they're long gone. The only guy I like, or even love right now is Jaime. I'm sorry Mike....but I guess now you know how I felt in 8th grade...let's just be friends again, okay?" Tony spoke. My heart hurt just a bit at hearing that, but I can't blame him. I'm too late now & he doesn't want me like he did before. I just can't quite believe him all the way.

"Why did you keep going?..." I asked.

"What?"

"Why didn't you stop? You kept going & don't say it was my fault. You could of stopped whenever you wanted to."

"I didn't want to stop..." Tony admitted.

"Why not? Do you like me? Tony, don't lie....please."

"Mike...I was just turned on..& there was so much sexual tension, I had to." Tony replied. I sighed. "I'm sorry, Mike..."

"It's okay..."

"You sure? I don-"

"I'm okay, I swear. We just...we can't be friends." I spoke. Tony went silent. I wanted to scream. Why did I say that? Ugh.

"Mike, I'm fucking sorry, okay? Just...please don't throw this away again...not again." Tony begged. He kind of sounded like he was crying?

"Tony, are you crying?"

"Yes...I don't want to lose you again. Please, Mike."

"I have to go, Tony..." I hung up the phone & turned it off. I guess I'm just really fucking mad. It's not fair. He does all that to me, knowing he's the first I've done something like that with, but he tells me he's not interested? Ugh.

About twenty minutes later I was still laying on my bed pretty frustrated, then someone was at my door.

"Go away!" I yelled.

"Mike! It's me...let me in!" It's Tony...

I got up & walked to the door, but took a deep breath before I opened it.

"What are you doing here?.." I asked. Tony's eyes went straight to my body. I didn't realize I was only in my boxers.

"Shit! Sorry...um..I'll be back." I spoke. Tony's face was pink. I ran off & slipped on some sweats & a muscle shirt.

"Sorry about that..."

"It's okay...Mike, I'm really sorry....please just don't leave me again." Tony spoke. I closed the door & motioned for him to sit on the couch. We sat there & I looked at him for a while.

"It's gonna be hard being 'just friends' with you." I replied.

"Why?"

"Tony, I'm unbelievably attracted to you..." I answered.

"Don't say that..."

"It's true."

"Mike, please don't."

"Why not?...." I asked getting an idea. "Do you like me? Did you lie to me earlier, tone-bone?"

"N-no."

"Tony, tell me the truth. Nothing about Jaime. I don't care about him right now, just tell me how you really feel about me." I spoke, taking Tony's hand in mine. Tony's face went bright red & he tensed up just a bit.

"...I can't."

"Why not, Tony?! Just tell me you like me! I know you do!"

"I don't!...I don't like you!" Tony yelled getting up.

"You don't like me?! Than how come everytime I look at you, you smile? Or how about when we touch in the slightest & your face burns red? Or when we talk & have those moments of just staring, saying nothing? Don't tell me you don't like me, Tony!"

"Mike, shut the fuck up! Just shut up! Shut up!" Tony yelled. Tears were streaming down his face. I just need to hear him say it.

"Tony, just admit it. Please." I spoke softly, bringing him closer, holding his waist hovering my lips over his.

"Mike, let go..." Tony insisted.

"Admit it, Tony.." I closed the small gap between us & we moved our lips together. I knew it. He likes me. If he didn't he wouldn't be kissing me too. I felt water fall on my face & realized it was Tony's tears. He was crying again. He pulled away & sniffled.

"I have to go."

"Tony, don't." I tried stopping him but he ran out the door leaving sounds of his little sobs behind. I ran downstairs from my apartment & tried to catch him before he left, but it was already too late. He was driving away faster than I could shout out his name.

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