Wonderless ♡

It was week 3 of the tour and we were at sound check for tonight's show. I stood side stage watching Vic sing parts of Caraphernelia. I realized then that I never get sick of hearing Vic sing on his own. Without the drums, the guitars and even the lights all you focus on is him and his voice. I felt like I could hear him sing all day.

I went over to Kevin who was on the phone and gave him a hug and he laughed "hang on Alex, I got a clinger"

I smiled and let go before heading backstage and sorting all the equipment for the band. I really liked sorting things and ensuring they were neat for some reason. After I left their dressing room I saw a tour poster on the wall and realized it said "Pierce The Veil and All Time Low" together on the same page. I then turned around and saw Alex Gaskarth standing there also staring at the poster.

"Would have looked better if our band was put there first" He chuckled and I stared hopelessly at him

Let me explain.

At some point in every girls life they obsess over a band full of boys. Mine was Backstreet Boys and Nsync, but as I got older I noticed All Time Low and mainly, Alex Gaskarth. You see photos and see them live, but it wasn't the same as when they were standing 3 steps from you.

Alex Gaskarth was the hottest person I have ever seen in person and on Google Images.

I didn't know what to say.

I was standing there with my mouth open a little and possibly drooling.

"Um" was the only thing that happened to come out when all I wanted to say was "I love you, please sleep with me, you are ridiculously fine"

"Hi, I'm Alex" he said putting his hand out and I slowly shook his hand

I died. I died and went to heaven.

"Are you okay?" he asked confused

I nodded slowly and felt like my eyes were getting wider every second I was staring at him and decided to walk away quickly without saying another word.

18 year old Zoey was crying because she just touched Alex Gaskarth of All Time Low.

A bottle of water later, I was running around to find Angelica to fan-girl to. I have no idea what was happening to me until I saw her outside and run gripping her shoulders and making her stiffen.

"Angelica. Alex. Hotness. Perfection. ithinkimgoingtofaint" I said and she laughed

"Are you talking about from ATL?" she said and I nodded as she loosened my grip from her shoulders

"He is a babe" she said "nice boy too, a little slutty"

"I just looked like the biggest idiot infront of him! Oh my god" I said frowning "I'm pretty sure my ovaries popped while he was in my presence!"

"Didn't you see the band was touring with them for like two weeks?" she asked

"Uh, no! I was busy eating sour worms backstage!" I yelled and she smiled and hugged me "come on we'll go make it better"

"I can't let him see me again" I said "I need to put on more make up"

I quickly tried to make myself look more presentable without remembering what I just did a few moments ago when I ruined the chance to let Alex think I was this confident and amazing woman.

I got off the bus and pulled the front of my top down to try and show a little bit of cleavage. Ange held my hand and we walked around the venue looking for him.

"He might be near the stage" Angelica said as we walked out to the seating area and saw him standing there watching PTV practice

We walked over and I felt my heart race as he saw me and smiled.

"Hey Alex, this is my friend Zoey" Ange smiled

"Hi Zoey" he smiled and gave me a hug and I almost passed out from his cologne

"Um, I'm sorry for before" I said "to have posters of you on my walls to seeing you right now kind of... Mindfucked me"

"I get that alot" he grinned "are you girls hungry?"

Before I could answer Angelica stepped in "I'm full, but Zoey is starving"

I looked at her funny and she winked at me.

"Come join us then" he said "I was just heading there now"

I nodded and followed him and turned to see Angelica waving to me and mouthing words of inspiration. I frowned a little and followed Alex to another section of the building where all the food was.

He got me a plate and I thanked him, then after we got out food we sat down. I didn't realize until I looked up the rest of All Time Low was there, staring at me.

"Oh jeez, hi" I smiled awkwardly "I'm Zoey"

They all introduced themselves and Alex explained how I was with Pierce The Veil's crew. They were all really nice and after a while I felt comfortable talking to them about tour and stuff.

"Are you single?" Alex asked and my heart started going again and tried to sound confident in my answer "yes I am... Are you?"

When I asked I looked around as if I was asking everyone else too.

"We actually all are" Rian said

"There has to be perks to that" I said "not having to worry about doing gross things on the tour bus"

"It's true" Jack said "I only want men to watch me masturbate it'd be weird with a girl watching"

I laughed so loud I had to cover my mouth.

"Jack's not very tame, he'll say what he wants. I'm much more sophisticated" Alex grinned

I started to tell them about my weekend where I didn't remember a thing when Vic came and sat beside me. I gave him a quick smile before continuing my story and felt him put his hand on my thigh.

After lunch it was All Time Low's time for sound check so I went with Vic to watch them for a while.

"Girls go crazy for these guys" Vic said randomly and I glanced at him "are you jealous?"

He smiled "it's actually like crazy crazy"

"I totally get it" I laughed

The doors opened and the floor started to fill with fans. I watched All Time Low with Angelica and questioned why she left me with Alex.

"You're young and single. It's all about fun" she smiled "besides, he likes you"

"How do you know that?" I asked

"He didn't say anything dirty to you" she said and I realized it was true

We high fived the boys as they got off the stage and went to find the other guys.

"Hey Zoey" I heard and turned to see Alex had a towel around his neck, he handed me something and I saw that it was his phone number

"Just... if... you know" he said and I smiled "thanks Alex"

Even though I'm sure girls would sell blood for the numbers that were written on the piece of paper in my hand, I still cared for Vic more. I knew for a fact that Alex wouldn't be interested in a serious relationship.

PTV were backstage prepping but Vic wasn't there. I went into the dressing room and Vic was undressing. I closed the door behind me and he looked over "occupado young lady"

"You have nothing to hide you're a guy" I smiled "nearly ready?"

He nodded adjusting his new shirt and stretching. I gave him a hug and kissed his cheek. Because we were holding back I think it was making it harder to keep everything a secret. The thing was, that I didn't want to fool around with him if we weren't a proper couple, because then he'd be like every other guy I've made out with or slept with and it wouldn't be fair. Vic wasn't like those guys and I didn't want to hurt him.

"I have something for you" he said

I smiled "oh really?"

He picked something up from another part of the room and came back with a dozen red roses and I gasped.

"You shouldn't have" I frowned

"A beautiful girl deserves beautiful things" he said and I felt like I was about to cry

"Oh Vic" I said softly giving him a proper kiss but it didn't last long

"I have to go" he said "there's a vase on the table with water"

"Thank you" I smiled and gave him a hug "good luck"

He ran out and I put the flowers in the vase before heading out to the side stage to watch them perform. All I did was stare at Vic all night. The way he made me feel, felt a million times better than any one night stand.

I think I'm ready.

I wanted it to be done right though. My period was coming up though so I decided a week after next, I was going to tell Vic I was ready to be his girlfriend.

That night after the show we had dinner and then went to the hotel.

"I'm exhausted" Vic said stretching in the mini van

"You'll get sleep soon enough" I smiled "we're almost there"

Kevin allocated everyone keys and I realized I didn't get one, before I could go 'what the hell' on him, Vic grabbed my hand and gave me one of his keys and put his finger to his lips. I nodded and we went upstairs to the 14th floor.

We entered the room and Vic immediately went to the bed and sighed deeply. I laid beside him and we started to make out and I couldn't stop smiling. That was until he put his hand down my pants again

"Oi quit it" I said

"I won't do anything I just want to touch you" he smiled cheekily

It didn't help that I was sexually frustrated too.

We kissed more and I let him touch me with his hand and I liked it. Alot.

I couldn't let us have sex because the timing wasn't right. I wasn't mentally prepared to tell him. So the night fulfilled with 'hand stuff' and us both quietly moaning in each others ear.

Notes

I find writing sexual things awkward. I don't know what's TMI and what's not so I'll try and not go too far! :) xx