Wonderless ♡
Chapter 1.
"Darling you'll be okay.... You'll be okay."
My name is Zoey and I'm 23 years old living in California.
Lately I've been feeling like something was missing or lacking in my life, and there's only so many times you can visit Disneyland and forget your troubles with Minnie Mouse ears and cotton candy.
Everyone I knew was getting engaged or married or having kids and I struggled to decide if I wanted toast or pancakes this morning.
Tonight I was excited however, because a guy I was seeing when I was 18 is performing in the area. I hadn't realized his band had made it and thought it would be nice to see how he was going. What was even more strange was that I won a meet and greet before the show.
I felt nervous that I was going to see Victor again, what was more strange was that it has been 5 years since I even thought about him, I wondered if he'll even remember me.
Vic was another person who has done so much with their life. Goddamn. Why did I only befriend the good kids on Facebook that would make me feel shitty about myself.
I had enough money to support myself but I wasn't very social. I had guys come and go but I never really felt it. Maybe that was why I was alone, I'm so picky and critical.
After my usual morning depression I finally went and got dressed for the day. Because I moved a year ago, I kind of lost my friends. I liked being alone, with my thoughts, only worrying about me and no one else. I do love my family, but I just still haven't found what I've been looking for in life.
On the train to the show I was listening to Pierce the Veil on my iPod. I moved my brunette hair from my eyes and looked up to see a guy staring at me. I smiled slightly and looked out the window and thought about Vic instead. Vic was the last boy I really liked that I didn't even sleep with.
I tried to imagine what the next hour is going to be like when the train arrived at my stop. I hopped off and started walking to the venue, whilst walking I pulled out the printed email from my pocket telling me to go to the south entrance when I noticed another piece of paper with a phone number on it.
"How the fuck" I said out loud and tossed the scrap in the bin and continued to the south entrance where I was greeted by security.
"Hi" I smiled and showed him the email
"Go in and wait in the waiting area, its the second door to your left, the band should be out in about 30 minutes" he said and I nodded and followed his orders. The room was filled with girls with too much eyeliner and band shirts that I felt really overdressed. I took off my blazer and held it in my arm and stood by a wall on my own while everyone stared at me, the attention quickly moved when the band came out and faint squeals were heard by some of the girls. I immediately saw Vic and felt strange, he looked so good, maybe even better then when he was 18. He was smiling and happily taking photos and signing autographs for everyone.
I decided to stop being weird and go to the other guys and get some photos too, I recognized Vic's brother Mike but the other two guys I couldn't remember. I went to the guy with a big smile first and he gave me a nice hug.
"What's your name?" he asked
"Zoey" I smiled
"I'm Jaime, I hope you enjoy the show" he smiled wider
"I'm sure I will" I nodded "thank you"
I went to the shy guy with the shitload of tattoos and awkwardly waved hello and got a photo. After Mike, I noticed Vic's line got shorter since everyone went to him first and now they were in corner showing off their autographs on social media. I decided to go last and he smiled at me "hey"
"Hey" I replied and started to feel sick "um, can I please get a photo?"
"Of course" he said and he put his arm around me and I tried to smile without vomiting in-front of everyone
"Thanks Victoria" I said without realizing I just called him what I did when we were 18.
The security started telling us to leave and I was at the end when I got pulled back by Vic and looked into his eyes for the first time tonight
"Zoey?" he said softly and let go of my arm
"Uhhh... maybe" I said looking away and he laughed "oh shit it's been forever"
"5 years" I smiled slightly and nodded trying not to be more awkward
"We have to catch up, wanna watch from the side stage?" he asked
"Oh no, I couldn't ask you to do that" I said "It's okay I'm gonna be at the back anyway, I'm pretty sure I'm not appropriately dressed"
"Well meet me later after the show?" he said
"Uhhh" I said again and he laughed and got his sharpie and gently wrote on a flyer before handing it to me
"What's this?" I asked
"My hotel room number" he said and I blushed "Oh"
"Go into the lobby after the show and I'll meet you there" he smiled and I nodded
Everything was happening so fast and then we hugged "It's so good to see you" he said softly in my ear and I felt myself blushing and I let myself out of his arms
"Okay bye" I said quickly and walked out of the room and followed the security to the venue and stood by the bar with a beer in one hand and my blazer in another
"what the hell what the hell" I said softly to myself. What just happened. Why do I want to throw up again.
While waiting during the first band I went on Google maps to find the location of the hotel.
Am I really going to go?... Well he's an old friend I used to kiss at parties, it would be rude to not catch up with him. But he's famous. An invitation to the hotel is an invitation to get it on. Shit. Fuck.
Finally Pierce the Veil came on stage and the crowd was so energetic and crazy over them. They must have worked so hard to get this far.
Vic was sitting on stage with his acoustic guitar and smiling to the crowd
"I decided to play a song we haven't for a while" he spoke into the microphone "I hope you enjoy it, it's called Wonderless"
The crowd cheered and I smiled because it was my favourite song.
"And if you don't find me on the front page
Find a way to say that you saw me
And if you don't find me in a movie
Find a way to say that you knew me
You and I got lost along the way
But this will end some day some way
And if you don't find me at all
Then I won't care"
I left the show really happy and found myself at the front of the venue.
To the left was the way to the train back home and to the right was the hotel.
I looked at Vic's writing in my hand and I had to decide soon because I didn't want people following me.
I felt the butterflies rise in my chest. If only they would come out and lead me to a way.
My name is Zoey and I'm 23 years old living in California.
Lately I've been feeling like something was missing or lacking in my life, and there's only so many times you can visit Disneyland and forget your troubles with Minnie Mouse ears and cotton candy.
Everyone I knew was getting engaged or married or having kids and I struggled to decide if I wanted toast or pancakes this morning.
Tonight I was excited however, because a guy I was seeing when I was 18 is performing in the area. I hadn't realized his band had made it and thought it would be nice to see how he was going. What was even more strange was that I won a meet and greet before the show.
I felt nervous that I was going to see Victor again, what was more strange was that it has been 5 years since I even thought about him, I wondered if he'll even remember me.
Vic was another person who has done so much with their life. Goddamn. Why did I only befriend the good kids on Facebook that would make me feel shitty about myself.
I had enough money to support myself but I wasn't very social. I had guys come and go but I never really felt it. Maybe that was why I was alone, I'm so picky and critical.
After my usual morning depression I finally went and got dressed for the day. Because I moved a year ago, I kind of lost my friends. I liked being alone, with my thoughts, only worrying about me and no one else. I do love my family, but I just still haven't found what I've been looking for in life.
On the train to the show I was listening to Pierce the Veil on my iPod. I moved my brunette hair from my eyes and looked up to see a guy staring at me. I smiled slightly and looked out the window and thought about Vic instead. Vic was the last boy I really liked that I didn't even sleep with.
I tried to imagine what the next hour is going to be like when the train arrived at my stop. I hopped off and started walking to the venue, whilst walking I pulled out the printed email from my pocket telling me to go to the south entrance when I noticed another piece of paper with a phone number on it.
"How the fuck" I said out loud and tossed the scrap in the bin and continued to the south entrance where I was greeted by security.
"Hi" I smiled and showed him the email
"Go in and wait in the waiting area, its the second door to your left, the band should be out in about 30 minutes" he said and I nodded and followed his orders. The room was filled with girls with too much eyeliner and band shirts that I felt really overdressed. I took off my blazer and held it in my arm and stood by a wall on my own while everyone stared at me, the attention quickly moved when the band came out and faint squeals were heard by some of the girls. I immediately saw Vic and felt strange, he looked so good, maybe even better then when he was 18. He was smiling and happily taking photos and signing autographs for everyone.
I decided to stop being weird and go to the other guys and get some photos too, I recognized Vic's brother Mike but the other two guys I couldn't remember. I went to the guy with a big smile first and he gave me a nice hug.
"What's your name?" he asked
"Zoey" I smiled
"I'm Jaime, I hope you enjoy the show" he smiled wider
"I'm sure I will" I nodded "thank you"
I went to the shy guy with the shitload of tattoos and awkwardly waved hello and got a photo. After Mike, I noticed Vic's line got shorter since everyone went to him first and now they were in corner showing off their autographs on social media. I decided to go last and he smiled at me "hey"
"Hey" I replied and started to feel sick "um, can I please get a photo?"
"Of course" he said and he put his arm around me and I tried to smile without vomiting in-front of everyone
"Thanks Victoria" I said without realizing I just called him what I did when we were 18.
The security started telling us to leave and I was at the end when I got pulled back by Vic and looked into his eyes for the first time tonight
"Zoey?" he said softly and let go of my arm
"Uhhh... maybe" I said looking away and he laughed "oh shit it's been forever"
"5 years" I smiled slightly and nodded trying not to be more awkward
"We have to catch up, wanna watch from the side stage?" he asked
"Oh no, I couldn't ask you to do that" I said "It's okay I'm gonna be at the back anyway, I'm pretty sure I'm not appropriately dressed"
"Well meet me later after the show?" he said
"Uhhh" I said again and he laughed and got his sharpie and gently wrote on a flyer before handing it to me
"What's this?" I asked
"My hotel room number" he said and I blushed "Oh"
"Go into the lobby after the show and I'll meet you there" he smiled and I nodded
Everything was happening so fast and then we hugged "It's so good to see you" he said softly in my ear and I felt myself blushing and I let myself out of his arms
"Okay bye" I said quickly and walked out of the room and followed the security to the venue and stood by the bar with a beer in one hand and my blazer in another
"what the hell what the hell" I said softly to myself. What just happened. Why do I want to throw up again.
While waiting during the first band I went on Google maps to find the location of the hotel.
Am I really going to go?... Well he's an old friend I used to kiss at parties, it would be rude to not catch up with him. But he's famous. An invitation to the hotel is an invitation to get it on. Shit. Fuck.
Finally Pierce the Veil came on stage and the crowd was so energetic and crazy over them. They must have worked so hard to get this far.
Vic was sitting on stage with his acoustic guitar and smiling to the crowd
"I decided to play a song we haven't for a while" he spoke into the microphone "I hope you enjoy it, it's called Wonderless"
The crowd cheered and I smiled because it was my favourite song.
"And if you don't find me on the front page
Find a way to say that you saw me
And if you don't find me in a movie
Find a way to say that you knew me
You and I got lost along the way
But this will end some day some way
And if you don't find me at all
Then I won't care"
I left the show really happy and found myself at the front of the venue.
To the left was the way to the train back home and to the right was the hotel.
I looked at Vic's writing in my hand and I had to decide soon because I didn't want people following me.
I felt the butterflies rise in my chest. If only they would come out and lead me to a way.
Notes
Hey everyone!
Just a little side note, Zoey Deutch is Rose in the new Vampire Academy movie.
I don't know much about her, I just really really love her in the movie!
x
I love it
4/25/14