We're All Crooked Young

Beep .. beep. . Beep.. beep




I ran my hands through my hair roughly as the heart monitor blared through the room.



It's been Two weeks , three days , six hours and twelve seconds. .. I constantly counted down as i bit my lip nervously.




The hospital scents constantly fill my nose .



"Mr. Carlile? " The nurse whispered and i looked up to see a pair of blue eyes and black hair.



"You've been here everyday for two weeks.. are you sure that you're okay? " She questioned sounding concerned.




I looked at my feet and back to her.



"Yea.. I'm fine. I just need to be here . Just in case , ya know? " I whispered and she smiled softly before refilling medicines and leaving.







Suddenly my phone started beeping loudly and I pulled it out my pocket and checked it.



About four unread messages from Cass popped up .



She wanted me to be safe and to come home.




I got up and walked out the room for a bit. The second I walked into the elevator , a crowd of girls piled in as well. They all looked about seventeen with huge gleaming attentive eyes.




"Y-youre.. austin.." One girl breathed out poking my side to make sure i was real.




I chuckled lightly and she blushed.




"Yea.. It's me in the flesh. Is there anything you want me to sign for you girls oorrr?" I questioned and they all nodded and giggled as they shoved things in my face to sign.




Throughout the whole time , i learned things about them all.



Like how music kept one girl from dropping out of school. Or how my bands lyrics are tattooed all over one girl's back.





"I'm really glad i got to meet you beautiful ladies , im honored that you're fans of my band. " I cooed sweetly and they all pulled me into a group hug.




The elevator doors , pulled open and we parted our separate ways.




I walked outside to see the dark sky.





Smooth shades of purple, orange, pink and yellow cascaded the sky as the full moon and stars gleaned above.





I kept thinking about Cass.



So i decided to call her.


The phone clicked on her contact and she picked up on the first ring.




"Babe,"


"Yes?"



"I know you're hurting right now.. we all are. But i need you. We all need you. You've completely shut down .."


"I know. . I'm s-sorry. .. i just don't know how to deal with all of this. I was supoosed to be there. It wasn't supposed to go like this , Cass.Every time i close my eyes i see the same nightmare. "




"Aussy , please. . Come home. I love you and i know you're hurt right now.Through sickness and health remember? I'm here for you "


"I love you so much Mrs. Carlile"


"I love you too Mr. Carlile.. see you home soon?"



"Definitely"




The phone call ended and i looked back at the hospital and smiled weakly. As i walked back to that room , i thought about what to say.


I thought about all the memories and the happiness in the last two years. I thought about the smiles and tour as i walked into the elevator doors.





As they opened back up to see Arlet leaning against the door frame looking at her feet.





-Arlet's POV - I looked up through my hair to see Austin. "Hi" we uttered in unison.


"I just came to-" I rambled before getting cut off.


"Whatever your reason. . As long as you're here. " he whispered apologetically before walking into the room with me following him.



As we both stood there looking at the creme walls. The doctor came in.






"Mrs. Olson and Mr. Carlile. .. the patient has a slim chance of waking up. When EMTs rescued him from the ocean.. several bullets pierced his major organs and he suffered severe head trama. We've stopped the bleeding and swelling on the brain but it's just a waiting game. .. We've done all we can do " He uttered apologetically and i burst into tears as Austin held me.







I looked at Oliver.



His ashened skin and dark ring around his eyes. .. the feeding tube lodged down his throat.


His hair has grown long and covering his eyes.


All i want is to see those golden green orbs one more time but i don't think I'll ever see them again.


The doctor left and i looked at Austin.



"I'll leave you alone for a bit.. you need it" he whispered before kissing my forehead and leaving.




I looked at Oliver and intertwined our fingers.



"I can't help but feel like this is all my fault. If only i never went to the bar that night. You'd probably be living a happy normal life. I know you can hear me. Deep inside your soul maybe but... i really need you to wake up okay? I love you... I've always loved you and i need you to wake up please. ." I trailed off brokenly laying my head on his chest.







Feeling his soft heart beat rumble against my cheek made me cry more.



I slowly lifted up my head and pressed my lips against his softly.




"Goodbye Oli" I whispered as I walked out the room.





As i walked into the elevator and down to the hotel lobby , i couldn't help but think about everything I've been through.



All the pain .


All the suffering.


The darkness.


But then there's the light in my life.


The smiles.


The memories.


The love.


I realized that i had to go through all of the pain of my eating disorder , the horrific effects of being raped , the death of my parents , the heartache of anyone I've ever tried to please. .. because i was destined to crack.




I was destined to be bent past my breaking point.




As i got in my car and looked back at that hospital , i thought of something that will stick in my mind forever.













This life was never meant to be easy. It was meant to break you , make you bleed , make you cry. Because , in this savage harsh world. .. We're all crooked young.

Notes

I want to say that you guys/girls are seriously my happiness. This story and you all have kept me going through so many rough times.
i just want to hug you all.
I'm seriously about to cry because I'm such a emotional blob.
but i just love you all ♡♡♡
Flood my comments with your favorite parts about this story!
I see some of you want a sequel. Given the fact that I'm sooo extremely not busy , i might consider it but I'll need enough feedback so i know i have you guys blessing on it lol.

well , this is good bye i guess.

-CrookedYoung ♡