Since Tony told me that he will arrive in Los Angeles in few hour I was waiting for him 3 hours in the airport. Excitement filled my body and I was checking every plane that landed . Even if we dated for some months and I didn't see him in a while. That's funny because if your boyfriend tours alot and you always have to wait for him you would probably break with him because it's too much to handle,same about hate tweets and messages from his fans .
It's very interesting how all these teenagers get attached to them. I know,music saves lives,they saved their lives and I am very proud of him because he saved my life too. I was numb,too numb to feel or to love. I could've cheated on Tony with Alan the first day he left for tour,but I didn't.
I was feeling like in the high school. Or even when I first met my ex-boyfried,my fiance who treated me like a queen but instead of being faithful he turned out to be a cheat. That fucking broke my heart in a billion damn pieces. I don't really know how's he doing now but I don't really care.

Still checking the planes I didn't even notice that Tony's plane already landed and four crazy guys were running towards me .

"Kelly!" They all shouted in my ears and making my ribs break because of their tight hugs.

"I missed you guys,I missed you all so much!" I replied to their greet .

"Oh shut up now! We all know who missed you the most! Who was talking about our Kellandra all the time?" Hi-me keep teasing me.

Three of them looked at me waiting for an answer but I just started to giggle so they just yelled " TONY DID!" . My cheeks were heating up by every move they made and every word they said.

Tony just came closer and hugged me and then kissed me. His lips were now softer that they ever were. Maybe because I missed his kisses and him at all.

"I missed my woman,did you know? " He asked still hugging me.

"I missed my man,did you know?" I anwered ,leaning my head on his chest. I missed his scent.

But then I heard a familiar voice filling the airport.

"Vic ,I found it!" I turned to see who yelled and saw Sky running towards us carrying a purple suitcase.

Vic didn't stay to watch her carrying her suitcase so he grabbed it and walked towards us giggling.
Then Sky noticed me and her face bright up .

"Kelly,I haven't seen you in a while! I missed you so much!" She said and hugged me but I have to admit that I noticed white ,already healed scars on her arms. I have to ask her about her past one day,but first I want to get home.

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Next day I decided to meet with Sky in a cafe near my place.
"Sit." I ordered to her trying not to sound harsh or rude.

She sat on the chair and I ordered two cups of green tea.
We stayed in silence until our drinks arrived.

"Hey ,what haooened?" Skylar asked worried. I can understand her though...

"What happened to you. We know each other for some months but I don't know why you used to selfharm,or were all these suicide attempts?" I said lifting up her sleeve gently.

She sighed " I can tell you actually, it's not like I want to look weak because I'm not weak anymore. It started a long time ago,when I was a teenager. I was 16 and my brother was 17. We were coming back from a trip. I just talked to him and a truck hit his car. I was wearing a seatbelt but he didn't,he never did,but that could've saved his life. After that car crash I survived but he didn't. My parents kept blaming me for his death and one day I couldn't take it anymore,all those bullies in my school,my parents and I got locked in with my demons,all alone.I tried to kill myself and I cut really deep but not enough. I tried so many times but they always found me and I couldn't die,this was killing me much more. That's how I got them. I was 21 when I was on my own,with a career and a built up future. Then I met Vic and that's all... I never heard about my parents anymore and I think that they don't care about me now. Too late." No sobs,no crying. She drank her tea letting me stare at her.

"I'm sorry." Was the only thing I could say.

"It's not your fault.I didn't get help. I understood that too late. " She said.

But that's the only thing I wanted to know. And now,I understand how strong Skylar Riot is.

Notes

For anyone who ever tried to kill theirselves or used to selfharm and still do,please talk to someone. Letting it out always help. I used to selfharm,so please talk to someone. There are people who care about you,who will listen to your story. Whenever you want to let it out you can message me on tumblr and ask advices. please stay strong. my tumblr

Don't give up.

PS:I will update more interesting chapers later. I promise.

I love you all.
~Rebeca