I woke up at 2 am.
I couldn't fall asleep.
I decided to go for a ride by night-time Los Angeles.
I changed in other clothes and left my hair in natural waves.On the counter I put a little note for Chris in case I wouldn't be home when he'll wake up.I grabbed my carkeys and drove my car out of my garage.
Driving by night time is quiet dangerous but then I didn't care. My backpack was in the passenger seat next to me and there I had a gun in case if someone will try to rape me.
Nah,it wouldn't happen.
I was alone in the car but the city was still awake. The city of sleepless people...I decided to go on one of the Hollywood Hills. From there I can see the whole LA. Arriving there i got out from the car and sat on the ground. My phone buzzed. Damn it,who needs me righ fucking now? MAY I BE ALONE FOR SOME HOURS,PLEASE?
I grabbed my phone.Just notifications...
I stood up and drove to the bus place,where the buses were when we started.
I got out from the car,locked it and sat on the dry asphalt of the parkway for buses.
There should be a lot of buses, but tonight is ariving just PTV.
Oh, I remember the day when we told everyone that we were in an oficial 'relationship'.
Funny,huh?
The day he told me he's leaving wasn't as 'I don't give a fuck' as I thought it would be.
And the news,the big news developed my mind like shark bites. Those news weren't as painless as they had to be.
I was broken inside. I really thought he liked me. I opened up to him and he left me behind for a lead singer.
Maybe I'm not as hot as her,and definitely I'm not as horny as her. I'm not cheating on someone and I don't sleep with several guys.
And she did. Funny fact again: I knew she's going to cheat on him. I wanted to tell him. In the tour I saw her with many bandmembers and to be honest I can say that she slept not just with Lee. There were a lot more guys she slept with.
I'm not like that.
Maybe that's why he left me for her. But I still have feelings for him. I don't want to see him in a bad mood. The truth is that I care about him,but that's the dark side of getting attached to someone. They just end up hurting you and leave.
I was strong enough not to show him how hurt I was,but now I can't handle it inside. His words when he told me he was going to miss me and when he didn't want me to go.
I am sure he'll find another girl. They all are rock stars,badass rock stars. They can hook up with groupies or band whores.
"But that's it. I have to go through it." I said heavy breathing.
I stood up from the cold asphalt and got in the car.After turning it on I left my head on the leather steering wheel. I took a deep breathe and drove out from the parkway. Driving to nowhere I noticed a bus,a green fucking bus. That was The Green Monster. Ha,damn,thank you fate,but you're a dork and I hate your pranks. The new driver maybe noticed my Cadillac driving out from the Parkway . In the passenger seat was Tony. I looked at him and suddenly he looked at my car. He recognised it.
The drove into the parkway and soon I got a message.I stopped the car in a parking lot to read the message.

From Turtle<3
I saw your car.

To Turtle<3
Congratulations. I saw your bus.

From Turtle<3
Where are you now?

To Turtle<3
Going home.

From Turtle<3
I know you too well. You're not going home and that's not the way to your home too.

To Turtle<3
So?I will go home.

From Turtle<3
Fine. I will sleep all day so see you tomorrow.

To Turtle<3
K bye.

Nah,I'm not going home. I know it's 5 am and it's getting light outside but no.
Driving full speed ahead and not caring if cops were near. But they didn't catch me.
I stopped at a 24/24 Market. I took a chart and started to throw food ,snacks,alcohol,candies and stuff like that. After my chart was full I paid ,grabbed the bags and threw them on the backseats.
I rove my way back to home and it was 7 am.
I unlocked the door lightly not to wake up Chris. I placed all the bags in the kitchen on the table and started to unpack. After finishing I started to make a breakfast. After making the breakfast I sat on the chair and started to look through twitter for news.Nothing new. Just arrival tweets from band members.
I heard a light crack and steps towards the kitchen. I looked at the door and saw Chris yawning. I gigled and put my phone on the table.
"How did ya sleep?" I asked him.
"Awesome. I stood up at 6 and saw your note ont he counter and then went back to sleep."He said still yawning.
"Nice." I said.
"So where have you been?" He asked and sat on the chair.
"On the Hollywood Hill. It's nice there."
"I think so." He said again yawning. How much can he yawn?
"Tea or coffee?" I asked standing up.
"Coffee please." He said and I nodded.
"When you're going for work?" I asked handing him a cup of coffee.
"I have to be there at 10 am." he said
"Oh,I'll be home all day ."
"That's awesome!"
We ate the breakfast in awkward silence but since I turned on the TV in the kitchen the silence wans't so awkward.
"How much you'll stay at the office?" I asked putting the plates in the sink.
"About 6 hours." he said.
I nodded.
"Hey let me wash the dishes. I'll clean up. I have to help you." He said and smiled brightly.
"Thank you." I said and sat on the chair.
After the morning stuff,which was extremly boring and awkward,he thanked for the breakfast and went upstairs. Soon he left and I did nothing that day.Nothing but thinking about Tony. I shouldn't fall for him. Damn you head,please,I don't need anyone in my life and I don't want to fall in love. It all will end hurting me.
"FUCK." I yelled and groaned.

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"Kelly?!" I heard Chris yelling from the hallway. I stood up and went to see what the hell he wants.
"Here." I said jumping from the stairs.
"Wanna go out? It's pretty nice outside." He said.
"Well,I know how's outside. I live here and sorry but no. I don't want to go out." I said in the most cute intonation not to upset him.
"Alright,How'd ya slept?" He asked.
"Oh,pretty awesome."I answered yawning."Did you eat?Are you hungry?" I asked.
"I'm fine,Kells. I already ate." He said and I nodded.
Night came again making me more dreary. I can't sleep,I can't eat.
I want Tony by my side but I'm sure he doesn't want me.
What should I do?
Oh.
I grabbed my keys and ran out from the house after telling Chris that I'm going for a walk.
I drove my way to the cemetery,to visit my parents' graves.
As I arrived I place the flowers on their graves.I fell on my knees and started to sob.
"Hey Mom,Dad. I miss you. I'm now alone. Like I always was. I know you're proud of me. I'm exactly who I wanted to be,but I'm alone.When you two were alive I was less lonely. And know I think I'm falling inlove. But I don't want to. I don't want to be hurt again. Oh,how I wish you two were here. Dad,I miss your headbanging,and Mom,how I miss your chocolate pancakes made with System Of A Down. My metalheads,how I miss you.How I wish,How I wish you were here. We're just two lost souls swiming in a fish bowl,year after year."I said singing the Pink Floyd part.
I stood up from the ground taking a deep breathe last time . I left the cemetery wiping my tears away. I got in the car and made my way to nowhere. I'm just going nowhere spending my time on nothing.
The phone brightened and showed `Turtle<3 is calling you`.
I answered and put on speaker phone.
"Hey Kelly,how are you?" Tony asked.
"I'm fine. Did you sleep?"
"yeah. Can you go out? I need to talk to you."
"I'm already out,Tone. I'll pick you up. are you home?" I asked.
"Yup." he said.
"Get your ass ready. I'll be in 5 minutes."
When I arrived at his home I waited for him in the car.Maybe he's going to tell me about another whore.
He got in the car and sat on the passenger seat.
"What's up?" I asked.
"Kelly,you cried." He said.
"No. Where are we going?" I said trying to change the topic.
"Hollywood Hills. I know you cried." He said. Well fail,he is not going to change the topic.
"Whatever." I said and started to drove to the Hollywood Hills.
It was dark outside.
"Not whatever. Why did you cry?" he asked after some minutes of silence.
"I went to the cemetery to visit the graves of my parents." I said.
"Oh,why?"
"I had to tell them something." I said as we arrived at the hills.
I got out from the car and locked it.
"What did you tell them?"
Curious Tony.
"I can't tell you." I said as we walked on the path as we could see the LA.
"Why ? Tell me." he said.
"NO! I just can't!" I yelled.
"BUT WHY?" He said looking at me with his dark eyes.
"Because I'm falling for you Perry,I'm in love with you but all you did was hurt me!" I shouted.
"What?" he asked.
"Don't make me say it again." I answered .
In that moment he pulled me and kissed me.
"That's what I wanted to talk about." He said lowly but not breaking the kiss.
Butterflies,you winged motherfuckers.

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