A Fool's Revenge.

Do you ever get scared of the love and trust you put into someone? I do. I was so scared to give myself, my whole self, to Mike last night and I felt even worse when I lashed out even just bit this morning. I felt worse because, yet again, I was running. I was running from the emotions I knew I had but refused to accept. I was subconsciously trying to push him away so I wouldn’t have to face the mixed pot of feelings I felt when I was with him. The feelings I had really always felt with him.

“Christopher! Put some fucking pants on! What. The. Fuck.” I groaned as his naked ass popped up on my screen. I heard him chuckle and slip some basketball shorts on and turn to me with a smirk.

“Sorry.” He smiled and picked his computer up and moved to his bed. I let him settle in before speaking again.

“I’m sure you are. Anyways, what’s up?” I smiled falsely and he picked up on it real quick. His face dropped his infectious smile and he glared at me. he didn’t even have to say it, I just sighed.

“It’s Mike.” I shrugged.

“What about him? He came over last night, right?” he said with a knowledgeable look.

“Yeah. I, just know I feel something but I guess I don’t want to admit I do. Last night was far too… perfect to not confirm feelings but I don’t know.” I sighed and looked away from his glare that I knew I was receiving.

“Well, you said you had a lot to tell me, so spill.” He said like a fifth grade girl dishing over a cute guy.

“Okay. well, I guess I’ll start with Mike and I having sex last night…” his face contorted and he rolled his eyes.

“I could tell that we felt the same way but I felt so angry with myself this morning and I honestly don’t know why. I know everything I felt was real and I knew it was being reciprocated but there was just something about waking up this morning that got me all upset.” I mumbled and picked at my growing nails.

“It sounds like you’re just in denial.” He said bluntly and I motioned for him to elaborate.

“You two have such strong feelings and such a shitty background with each other that neither of you want to admit to said feelings. It’s normal but you need to speak up.” he said knowingly and I nodded.

“I know but, but there’s just some things I don’t want to admit. I know we both feel the same but I feel like if I said it out loud, he’ll just reject me and go back to fucking every bitch with a pulse.” I said bitterly but rationalized.

“Jay, that kid loves you, like really loves you. And you love him! just grow pair and fucking tell him already!” he whined as his bedroom door opened.

“Yeah, grow a pair.” Ricky said as the bed shifted and he came into view.

“At least I’ll know my pair will always be bigger than yours, Ricky.” I chuckled and shrugged. He glared at me and rolled his eyes while Chris suppressed a laugh.

“Anyways, other than your love life, what’s up?” Chris smiled and Ricky looked at me suspiciously.

“Same shit just a different day. How about you guys?” I sighed but smiled.

“Writing, writing, eating wings and more writing.” Chris listed off and they laughed.

“Soo, when are you coming to Cali?” I smiled coyly and he rolled his eyes.

“You’re impatient.” Ricky said before Chris could speak and I flipped him off.

“I think in another week and a half. Hold on, I’ll go check.” Chris said and hopped out of his bed, tossing the computer on Ricky’s lap. He smiled wickedly and I cocked an eyebrow at his strange behavior.

“Okay, so spill on this supposed love life before Mr. Serious comes back.” He said and watched me intently.

“It’s just the same shit you already know about.” I bluffed but he called it with the demonic deadpanning stare he gave me.

“Fine! Mike and I had sex last night and I don’t want to tell him my feelings, even though I know he feels the same, because I’m freaked the fuck out about rejection.” I blurted quickly and he rolled his eyes.

“Jesus Christ. Jayme, he loves you and you love him. Please just go live happily ever after with him already!” he said with a frustrated sigh.

I mulled a few things over in my head as Chris plopped back down on the bed and appeared back into view with a bright infectious smile.

“I have some either really good or really bad news for you.” He said excitedly and both Ricky and I looked at him in confusion.

“We’re all coming to Cali…” he coughed and I smiled and held in the urge to jump through the screen to hug them.

“I thought it was just you?!” I said happily and they both just smiled at my joy.

“I thought so too. I just called our manager and he said all of us were going to record instead of just me writing. He thinks we need a vacation too.” Chris chuckled as did Ricky but I just shook my head.

“Okay, more important question, where are you guys gonna be staying and for how long?”

“Some house in San Diego that he rented out for a few months.” He said carefully as he thought of the details and I nearly jumped.

“Why are you so happy about that?” Ricky asked and I smirked.

“I live in SD!” and they looked at each other before giving me a devilish smile.

“Guess we’ll be seeing you a lot then.” Ricky clapped and smiled.

“I guess so.” I sighed.

“Alright, we’ll let you get back to whatever you were doing and I’ll text you or call you later.” Chris said with a smile and I nodded.

“Okay, love you, Jay! If you need me just call.” He smiled again and I nodded.

“Love you guys, see you in a few weeks!” I smiled and hung up.

I stayed in bed pondering what to do about Mike. I weighed out the pros and cons of telling him and my heart outweighed my head. I knew what I had to do. I threw on some sweat and quickly brushed through my hair before grabbing my keys and phone and making my way to point B.


I must have sat in my car for an hour contemplating really going through with this. If I was rejected, I don’t know what I would do and if he repeated my words, I still wouldn’t know what to do but I was willing to take the fall.

I stepped out of my car with a large intake of the calming cool air before walking up to his door. Ricky and Chris’ along with everyone’s words rang around in my head as well as Tallahassee from Zombieland’s lovely line ‘It’s time to nut up or shut up.’

I gingerly knocked on his front door and waited for an answer and after about ten minutes and no answer, I was ready to leave.

As I was merely five feet from my car, my name sounded through the air. I whipped around to face a very disheveled Mike in only his boxers. I couldn’t help but chuckle and walk up to him.

“Sorry, I was still sleeping.” He smiled awkwardly and let me in. I eyed him up and down and he held up a single finger before running upstairs. He was back quickly; now clad in some basketball shorts.

“So what’s up?” he asked as we sat down on the couch. I wanted to be blunt but I could feel myself getting ready to ramble on. I looked down at the ground as the cons threw themselves at me. the first one being a visual of my father leaving my mom and I all alone when I was little and seeing the look of pure confusion and rejection on her beautiful face.

“I wanted to talk about last night…” the festering words that clung to the back of my throat burned like a good whiskey and I had to bite my tongue before they spilt out like word vomit.

“Okay… what about last night?” he said quietly and didn’t look at me, just his twiddling thumbs.

“I know you felt it too.” I mumbled and his head snapped to attention with the tiniest bit of a smile tweaking his lips.

“I know what we have is real and I’m sorry that after everyone’s input and opinions towards whatever we are, it has taken me this long to realize it and just after such a tragic thing. I don’t know how to say it and I’m afraid to say it but I think and hope you know where I’m going with this and I really should shut up but I need to-” he cut me off by connecting his lips to mine in fiery passion.

“I know what you are trying to say but I want to hear it. I feel it too.” He said with his eyes still closed and his hands still lightly grasping my face, caressing it with his thumbs.

“I, I like you a lot, Mike.” He finally opened his eyes and they just sparkled like gorgeous gemstones.

“I like you a lot too, Jayme.” He gave me one chaster kiss before pulling me onto his lap.

We stayed like that for what seemed like an eternity before either of us made a sound.

“So, is this the start if us?” he asked quietly with hope burning through his chocolate brown eyes.

“Yes.” I said with a smile. He looked apprehensive as he tried to speak but every time he opened his mouth, words never came.

“Jayme Brooks, will you be my girlfriend?” he hesitated with the simple but meaningful question.

“As long as you’ll be my boyfriend, of course!” we both smiled widely and snuggled for a little while longer; sharing kisses and hugs along the way.

“I have to go. I have work in the morning.” I sighed and struggled to pull myself away from his warming embrace.

“Okay, I’ll either call you or text you or see you tomorrow.” He chuckled and walked me to my car.

“I like you, Michael Fuentes.” I smiled as he opened my car door.

“And I like you too, Jayme Brooks.” He said before leaning into one final kiss goodbye. I held onto him for a few minutes longer before stepping into my car and driving back home.


I had finally let the past go and I was hoping it wouldn’t come back to bite me in the ass. I was glad we were finally on the same page, same book even; it put my heart at ease but didn’t stop my forever racing mind from bringing up cruel things ever so often.

I arrived home and went straight for my bed. I grabbed my phone and went to my group text that contained Ricky, Chris, Myself and Devin. I was closest to them and talked the most to them so
I was glad to share my news as they would be excited to hear that I ‘grew a pair’


I sent the text and plugged my dying phone onto its charger before falling asleep, a well-deserved but lonely sleep.

Notes

Aaaaaaand, They're official! :D
Drama soon to come............



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