A Fool's Revenge.

Waking up was rough. It always brought me back to my harsh reality I called a life. I wanted to know more about what the guys were talking about yesterday morning but I knew I wouldn’t get much.

I had been up for a few hours since I went to sleep so early and it was only seven in the morning now. I decided to just get up and get ready and just relax. The bus was still in motion so I stumbled a little when it came to a stop and caught myself on the edges of Ben’s and James’ bunks before I hit the ground.

I stood up straight and walked into the kitchen to start the coffee. While I waited for the coffee, I got dressed. I was up to be productive today and productive I will be. I was determined to put off all of my love life drama to focus on photography, for today at least. I had so many pictures to edit and take along with wanting to see a few bands preform today.

I walked back out in fresh clothes and made a cup of coffee and quietly walked to the back lounge and shut the door. I turned on the TV and searched for something to watch. I ended up with cartoons and was quite content with that. They were the old cartoons that I watched when I was much younger not the crappy ones that are on now. Just as Tom and Jerry ended, the door opened. Ben came in and sat next to me with his own cup of coffee. We stayed quiet, occasionally laughing at the silly and slightly violent kids show.


“Can I ask you something?” I asked suddenly and turned to him. It was far too early for him to be awake so something must be on his mind, maybe I can get him to share. He nodded and I took a long sip from my coffee before setting it down and looking for the right words.

“What’s going on with everyone?” I knew that didn’t make sense by the way he tilted his head.

“I mean, why does everyone seem so… upset, I guess. Like I heard you and James fighting twice so far and yesterday… I, I’m not too sure what I heard. I just want to know what’s going on.” I sighed as my rambling mouth got the best of me. He scanned me over, debating if he should tell me or not, before getting up to close the door.

“It’s stupid, really.” He paused to see if I would push him or not which I did to his dismay.

“I got mad at James for liking you even though Mike has come to us admitting his feelings. Then he slept with you and I lost it. I know, it’s really none of my business but I’m trying to look out for everyone in this case. I know we’ll never be more than friends so I don’t go after but believe me, I want to. I just know we wouldn’t work. I’ll put my two cents in now on the little triangle you have going; you and Mike may not seem good for each other but you really don’t know until you try. He’s a dick to you and I don’t like that but it’s only when he’s drunk and he’s hurting. As for you and James, he’ll make you happy but for how long? I don’t exactly know how he feels but I can sure as hell tell you two have something. All I’m saying is whatever you do, I want you to be truly happy.” I was definitely not expecting that to come out of his mouth, especially this early. I sat back in half shock and half realization. He had good points and I was glad he knew to keep his feelings at bay but I was mad that he was beating James down for liking me. I get that he is just trying to be a good friend to Mike but it’s got nothing to do with him anymore.

“I understand you trying to be a good friend to Mike but honestly, everything is up to me now ad if Mike or you or anybody has a problem with me going out and getting some then tough shit. I know Mike’s feelings for me haven’t changed but neither has the way he’s been acting. I’m a big girl and it’s my life. I’m starting too really like James and I’m just gonna let whatever happens happen. I’ve decided not to stress out about this anymore. Ever since the party for Mike, everything has me stressed and I’m not gonna go through it anymore.” I sighed and got a little mean throughout my little rant. He nodded and pondered what I said for a moment before speaking again.

“I’ll leave it alone then. I know having both of them around has got to be all kinds of confusing and stressful and I just want you to be happy. I don’t want to see you hurt, ever. You’re pretty much like my little sister now and nobody hurts my little sister.” He pulled me into a tight side hug and I chuckled.

“Well, I don’t want to be your little sister because we’ve fucked twice so… that’s awkward but I know what you mean. I love you, Ben. Thanks for understanding and not pushing me towards one person.” He laughed loudly and smiled.

“Yeah, that is a little weird but you’re welcome. There’s really no need to thank me, it’s common sense and I’m not that kind of person anyways.” He smiled and shrugged as the door opened again revealing Danny in all his tired glory. He looked at us cautiously before sitting down on the other side of me.

“What’s going on? You are never up before I am, let alone both of you.” He peered at the both of us and sipped on his coffee.

“We were just talking, calm down.” Ben laughed and I rolled my eyes. I guess they were all feeling the same way; far too protective of me and my fucked up feelings.

Danny just nodded and turned his gaze to the television where the Looney Toons was now playing. We all sat for a while, not talking much, just laughing at how incredibly and amazingly stupid these cartoons were. it was nice and reminded me of Saturday mornings when I was younger and would be glued to the couch watching cartoon till the late afternoon with a big bowl of Captain Crunch fit snugly between my tiny hands.

It wasn’t long before Sam, James and Cameron joined in on our nostalgia fest. I didn’t feel as awkward of a tension between us but it was still evident. I felt bad for getting James yelled at but it wasn’t directly my fault. I was mostly curious as to where this would take me after warped is over. I had a little over a month to feel things out with him then see from there but I was nervous to get into something with him too because I wasn’t sure about anything, even myself. I wasn’t sure when the next mental breakdown would come or, even worse, the next relapse. They have never really seen me at my worst or really my best, I’ve always tried to keep it to a somewhat neutral. It hasn’t worked out all the time but I’d say I’ve been pretty close.

It was nice to sit around and watch cartoons, do something normal. I never would have imagined in a million years that I would be doing something I dreamed of doing when I was back in high school and yet, here I am hanging out and taking pictures of one of my favorite bands along with being friends with more of them. Who knew that your life could change so drastically just by knowing a handful of people from way back when?

As I said earlier, I planned on being productive today so I bid a goodbye to the guys and headed out for the beginning of the day. I wondered around aimlessly taking pictures of people who recognized me from Instagram. Since I had sent the guys all the pictures they liked and when they posted a few, tagging me for the credit, people have found me during the day and asked for their picture to be taken. I figured that at the end of this I will make a nice collage of all the people and post it. Every picture held a different story. Some may say it’s just a picture but there’s so much more to them.

I checked the set times for a few bands I wanted to catch and most of them were towards the end of the day, including AA, so I just snuck onto the bands sets that I’ve already seen and took crowd shots along with some of the bands.
While walking towards catering, I bumped into Austin. I hadn’t seen him since I hit Alysha. I was glad I skipped out on explaining things to him. He wouldn’t understand the way Mike and I work.

“Hey Austin!” I smiled and snapped a picture of his smile.

“Hey Jayme.” He chuckled and I showed him the picture. He called Alan over and made me hand him my camera. He pulled me close and poked my side so I screamed and burst into laughter. I heard the minuscule snap of the camera and I pushed Austin away.

“Jerk!” I giggled and looked at the picture. It was cute. We were side by side and I was doubled over in laughter while Austin was bent back a bit and laughing.

“Where’s my picture?” Alan inquired as I started to walk away. I really wanted food but walking away would be rude. I handed Austin my camera and pulled Alan into a tight hug and smiled brightly.

I grabbed the camera and walked into the large tent filled with food with the guys. I filled a small plate and went outside to eat. It was beautiful out and the sun was just barely starting to set, a light breeze lightly tickling my face.

“So what have you been up to, kid?” Tino said with a smile as all of them sat with me in a circle.

“Same shit, different day. How about you?” I asked as I popped a mouthful of pasta salad in my mouth.

“Playing and partying. Nothing too special.” Phil chuckled.

“Playing at warped is pretty special though.” I gasped. They must have been so used to playing shows but I was still a newbie and even if I was just a photographer, it was still special.

“Of course it is but it’s tiring as hell. Definitely worth it though.” Austin smiled and the guys agreed. We talked for a little while until the sets I wanted to see were just getting ready to start. I finished eating and said goodbye to the guys and wondered off to the Spotify stage to see Crizzly.

I wanted to be pumped for the AA show tonight because it was a huge turnout for today and Crizzly’s set was right before theirs. I took a few shots before I turned into just another fan and bounced around to his remixes and fun beats. He was always a good show and put me in a damn good mood. I was still dancing as I walked to the Kia Forte stage where AA was doing their warm up and getting ready.

“You know, I think you might be tanner than the Fuentes’ right now.” I glared at Danny even though he meant well and was right. I had gotten very dark over the past month and could very well be darker than Vic or Mike.

I watched as the guys, one by one, ran on stage and the huge crowd went fucking nuts. I was too intent and focused on taking pictures to realize I wasn’t alone back here.

“Jayme.” I jumped at the sound of my name and turned to see Mike.

“Oh shit! Hi Mike. Thanks for scaring the fuck outta me.” I chuckled and went back to taking pictures.

“Jayme!” he shouted and I turned to him but before I could say anything, he got a gentle but rough grip on my face and planted his lips to mine. It was quick but when he pulled back I was in complete shock.

“I’m sorry, I had to.” He rushed out and quickly walked away. I had to blink a few times to make sure I wasn’t hallucinating this but sure as shit, I watched him as he walked away to the bus lot.

I turned back to face the stage and heard Danny just talking to the crowd. I looked at James who was glaring at me with angry almost black eyes. It scared me for sure but I had to stay at least until their last song.

I didn’t want to have an awkward walk back with them so as their last song started to close, I ran off to the bus. I knew I couldn’t avoid them forever but I could at least hide away in my bunk for the night at least.


Why does someone or something always have to ruin my good mood when I finally get into one? Can’t I just be happy for one whole day?

Notes

Oopsies, I'm stirring shit up again.....

From the little heart to heart with Ben to Mike randomly kissing Jayme. What will happen next? :o

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