Memorial

Matt Nicholls.

Everyone was sverely devastated about finding out it was infact Lisa's fault that Casey was dead. No one wanted to accept it but it was just a fact that everyone had to face, if they didn't then their pain and misery would be trapped forever. It hurts but she's gone.

Lisa being arrested meant she was gone and everyone had anger to release, and the target was Jordan. "You should've told me my sister was ill, you had no right to keep that from me" Matt snarled at Jordan.

Jordan kept quiet, composed more like. I think the stress of keeping this secret was difficult for him. He was a bit of an outsider when it came to Casey and the fact she confided in him must have been a really great moment him, making him feel accepted by her. Granted it was a heavy secret and him knowing it has cause a lot of anger. I decided to speak up. "Hold up a minute. Why are you all being like this to him? Giving Jordan shit for something Casey done is beyond stupid. Maybe look at your reactions now and see why she maybe didn't wanna tell you anything" I sighed. They're all so childish in the most inappropriate times.

Jordan looked at me with a grateful smile. "I just didn't wanna tell you anyone until she knew for sure. I encouraged her to come clean but she refused until she got home. After that I have no idea why it didn't work out like that, she should have said something. I'm sorry" Jordan apologised. He shouldn't have to. They're the ones being complete jackasses to him.

"I just don't get why she'd tell you" Oli snorted obnoxiously at Jordan. He raised an eyebrow at Oli's remark.

"Maybe it's because you were too busy getting high and ignoring her" Jordan rolled his eyes. I agree with Jordan, if Oli had of just stopped when Casey first found out about his problems then maybe she might still be here.

Oli stormed over to Jordan and punched him in the face. I dived over to them and pulled Oli off of him. "You bastard! You have no right to say stuff like that!" Oli shouted at Jordan, who was standing with his hand over his nose. He pulled it away and blood flowed out of his nose and down to his chin.

Jordan looked at Oli with no expression on his face. "All people ever do is walk on eggshells around you Oli. Everyone wants to protect your fucking feelings but maybe, just maybe for once in your precious life someone is saying no, I won't do it anymore. Fucking face your problems and stop being a fucking pussy" Jordan spat at him.

Oli tried to push me off him to attack Jordan again. I held onto him tightly as he struggled, feeling his body go limp eventually. He fell down onto the ground, dragging me down with him and began sobbing. I've never seen Oli react like this, he was always so kept so this was unusual. I wrapped my arms around him and hugged tightly. "It's gonna be fine" I said softly.

To anyone else this would look like an extremly odd scene but he was one of my best mates, I couldn't leave him when he needed me. I looked around the room and watched everyones reactions, Stephanie walked over and sat down with us. She hugged Oli and he turned to her. "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry" He sobbed. "If I just paid more attention to her instead of being so selfish then maybe she'd still be here" He cried even more. It broke my heart and made my eyes water seeing my mate like this.

"It's okay, it's not your fault Oli" Steph said soothingly, running her hand through his hair as he cried. Matt and Lee both came over and sat down with us.

"Oli, please don't blame yourself" Matt told him. Oli looked at him with puffy red eyes.

"You blamed me though" He sobbed out.

"And I was being stupid and selfish. You're not the blame" Matt told him.

"And neither is Jordan" I added. Oli looked at me then up at Jordan. He rose to his feet and walked over to him. He wrapped his arms around him and hugged him.

"I'm sorry" He mumbled into Jordan. He just nodded accepting Oli's apology.

"It's okay, I love you man" He told Oli. We all felt his pain but it was a bit different than how Oli was feeling. We were her friend but Oli was her husband.

"Come on, let's go get a drink and celebrate Casey's life. Tomorrow we have to be brave and say our goodbyes" Matt stood up. Everyone followed suit and we all went out to the nearest pub, drowing our sorrows and reminiscing on all the good times with Casey.

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