Fuentes Next

We had fifteen minutes left until we go on stage. I was trying to rush. We'd shown up here late and then had soundcheck. Everything seemed to be going wrong. I know I've done this so many times before but the thought of going on stage terrifies me. Things have already gone wrong. What if everything else does? What do I do if the mic doesn't work? What about if my voice goes off key? I might even fall off of the stage.
I tried to calm myself down but nothing was working. I sat down with my back against the tiled wall in the shower room. I rested the back of my head against the wall and sighed. "Chill out." I told myself over and over again. But it didn't work. "'Cus maybe..... You're guna' be the one that saves me. But after all... you're my wonderwall." I sang softly.
Even this wasn't working. Mike promise me it would always work. I kept on singing. I tried to tie my hair back so it was out of my face but my hands couldn't do it. Every time I just kept on fumbling. I'm so out of sorts. I just want a few pills. No, I don't want them. I need them. My body desperately needs them.
I heard someone knock the door and I jumped. "Ef?" Fay asked. "Quit singing Oasis and get your ass out here! We're going on soon." he called.
"I'm coming!" I called back timidly.
I got to my feet and stumbled across to where I had put my underwear. I took my time getting my underwear on but then turned to my dress. I tried to undo the buttons at the back but my hands wouldn't let me.
"Fucking hell!" I spat.
"Effy?" V asked and knocked the door. "I'm coming in, okay?"
"Yeah." I breathed. The door opened and V walked in. She shut the door behind her and came over to me. I put my head in my hands and started to freak out again.
"Hey, what's wrong?" V asked urgently.
"I can't do it! I can't get ready. My hands won't let me." I rushed.
"Shh... Let me help you." she said. She took my dress and started to undo the buttons. Then V let me step into the dress before she tugged it up and guided my arms into the arm holes. She did up the dress for me at the back and stood back. Then she sat me down and took my make-up bag. V did my make-up for me and started to do my hair, positioning it nicely before she sprayed it.
"Thanks." I muttered.
"This is about those pills, isn't it? It's because you're not taking them."
"I don't know." I shrugged.
"You do. You know it's those pills." she said and I reluctantly nodded. "They're not good for you, Ef."
"Neither is being like this!" I exclaimed.
"You can't preform like this." V sighed angrily.
"I can! I'll go on stage. I'll be fine." I said urgently. I don't know who I was trying to reassure. Her or myself.
"Damn it." V muttered. "Here, smoke this." she said and put a joint into my outstretched palm. I looked at it for a moment and she nodded.
"Thanks V." I told her. She lit it for me and I took the first drag. As I took another and exhaled my lungs and throat were burning. But it was nice. It was starting to calm me down. I sat and smoked the rest of it. V was watching me cautiously. I finished it and stood up. I could feel the rush in my head. I didn't care about the pills anymore.
I put on my shoes and ran out of the shower room. I saw the others waiting and grinned at them. V followed me and raised her eyebrows. "Are we ready?" I asked.
"Yeah." Matt nodded.
"Why do girls take so long in the shower?" James asked.
"Because after we shower we get fucking high." I said smoothly.
"So that's what fucking stinks." Fay said, the corners of his lips twitching up into a smile.
"Come on, guys." I rolled my eyes. I walked out of our room and the others followed me. I saw Ethan waiting for us. He started positioning us and gave me a high five as everyone went out.
"You okay tonight?" he asked me quickly.
"I feel great." I grinned. He nodded and I went out on stage. I heard some cheering and waved at the crowd. "Hello!" I called into the mic. "What the fuck is up you guys?!" Everyone cheered and I smiled.
The others started playing and Fay stepped up to the mic to scream. "Fuck!" Fay screamed.
"Why did the perfect boy shoot his heart today?" I sang. "He stamped it in the ground. And why did the pretty girl run away? She's stuck in a web." I picked the mic up out of the stand and started to walk around. "Add to your list. You've got them running scared. Does it make you feel good to brush the weak away? I'm going no where."
"Stop! Take a look back!" Fay screamed.
"Do you see why you're deserving? Do you see why you're alone? I'm not crying. Your blood'll run. Your teeth go flying." I went to the edge of the stage and got down so I was nearly touching the small crowd. "Everything new distracts the old. You're on my mind. I won't do this much longer. I'll have you running scared." I sang. "Is it any wonder you'll be lying on the floor. Eyes rolled back. I'll wipe that smirk. Take away your skin and sell it for some pills. You haven't been pretty since 1984." I stood up and felt my head spin. I breathed deep through my nose and straightened up. "Now listen well. Listen good. I'll say this only once. You better run. You better hide. I'm coming for..."
"The kill!" Fay finished.
"Thanks guys." I muttered into the mic. I staggered over to put it back into the stand.
"You okay?" Fay mouthed to me. I shook my head and grasped the stand.
Then my legs gave way and I fell to the stage floor. "Fuck." I whispered. I saw the crowd all watching. Some of them was trying to get closer to me.
"Effy!" Fay yelled. He ran over to me and pushed his guitar on Seth. "What happened?" Fay asked me.
"I don't know." I mumbled. I could feel my eyes closing. I was close to falling asleep.
"Keep looking at Fay." Oliver told me.
"Sorry I fucked up." I said softly.
"You didn't." Fay said.
"I can't feel my legs." I told them all.
"I'm calling an ambulance." Ethan told me. "We'll get you looked at."
"Can you call my dad?" I asked Fay. I felt him take my hand, but I couldn't stay away. My eyes closed and I blacked out.

Notes

Hey! Sorry I haven't updated. But I am now! Was this okay? The song lyrics are my own and the song is called Witness Protection Programme. It's copyrighted so don't go stealing it! What about Effy? What will happen to her? :)