The Monster That Is Me

Austin:



A breeze rippled through the air sending the hammock swinging lightly. Eliza began to stir lightly, I looked down at her and couldn’t help but smile. I really love this girl, she is my everything. Her body started to tremble lightly under the morning wind. I took it upon myself to tuck the blanket tightly against her body, I can’t have my princess cold.

I turned my attention to the sky finally remembering why we had decided to sleep outside in the hammock. I nudged Eliza lightly “Wake up love.”

“Ummm go away.” She murmured.

Her head dug deeper into my chest. Her chestnut honey colored curls flying into my face. I didn’t mind though. Her hair was soft and smelt of coconuts.

“Are you sure you want me to go away?” I chuckled “You’re clinging to me for dear life.” A grunt released out her mouth causing me to laugh. “But really….wake up the sun is rising.”

I felt her body shift around. My eyes flickered down to see that she was now looking up at the magic happening above. I smiled down at her and she returned the favor. I looked back up to see a circular beaming sphere, the almighty sun itself, slowly rise into the dull morning sky. I couldn’t help but think of the sun as an arson setting the sky on fire, sending its flames spreading in all directions illuminating the sky and warming the Earth below.

“It’s beautiful!” Eliza huffed from beside me

I looked down at the beauty “Not a beautiful as you.” I looked back up at the sky. “Nothing will ever be as beautiful as you.”

“Aww Austin.” She stated. I didn’t have to look down to know she was blushing “You’re a cheese ball.”

“Yet I made you blush.” I responded smiling down at her. She rolled her eyes at me, smiling afterwards. I brought my finger towards her facing brushing against her tinted face “Why do you always blush anyway? I call you beautiful everyday.”

“Or gorgeous, or breathtaking or stunning to the eyes or God’s gift to the world.” Eliza twisted one of her long curls between her fingers “You’ve even called me sexy from time to time.” I chuckled at her childishness. She rolled over so that she was straddling me “But I can never get use to it. You get me every time.”

“Oh…..do I?” I whisper seductively. My finger traced along her chin causing a shiver ran down her back. I smirked. “Well I guess I do.”

Our eyes connected. Her breathing hitched as I brought my hand under her shirt. My hand ran down her side leaving goose bumps booming in the wake. I smirked, I loved the fact that I could make her feel this way. I brought my hand to cup her cheek not hesitating to let my thumb trail her predominant cheekbone. I leaned forward connecting our lips. The kiss was warm and her lips were soft. Passion burned brightly and desire shine with purity. I closed my eyes to savor the moment and I could sense that she did too. This was it. This was love. I pulled away with a sigh.

“Time stopped.” She whispered

I smiled. “Felt like it.”

“No! Like it really did!” She proclaimed. She was looking behind me with a mixture of fear and astonishment. “Austin I think you should look.”

She slid off of me eyes still locked on whatever scene was behind me. I turned around to see what the big deal was and what I saw blew my mind. Eliza was right, time had in fact stopped. It had stopped completely. Birds in the air lay frozen in flight. A squirrel that was scurrying across the ground was halted in mid leap.

“Oh My Goodness!” Eliza gasped. She circled a blue jay that stood motionless at eye level. “Did we do this?”

I walked up beside her looking at the bird “I……I guess we did.”

“Austin what in the hell did you do?” Phil questioned walking up behind us. He was followed by Tino and Alan. “Why is time stopped?”

“I….I don’t know.” I say honestly. I look back at my surroundings. “I have no idea. We were just kissing and then this happened.”

Alan looked at us with wide eyes. “You did all this with one kiss.” Eliza and I nodded our heads “Wow! That’s real love right there.”

We all just stood there in astonishment. Nobody quite knew what to say. I mean what do you say when your best friend and his girlfriend freezes time by simply kissing. Phil’s phone went off and he stepped off to answer it.

“What!” He yelled causing everyone eyes to fall on him. “Shit! Okay bye.” He hung up the phone slowly slipping the his phone into his pocket. “Aaron said that he was at the store and time just stopped. Everyone and everything froze except for him.”

“Aaron…..went to a store?” I questioned.

Tino chuckled lightly “That’s what I said. But ever since Ms. Sunshine over here cured him his been mingling with everyone.”

“Not the point guys.” Phil grumbled. He was obviously getting annoyed with the situation. “You guys froze probably all of Costa Mesa, probably the whole dang universe with all the magic you have in your bodies.” He glared at me and the Eliza “You guys need to undo this….NOW! Hurry up before your dad finds out.”

Fear and anger coursed through my veins. I sat back down on the hammock. “Don’t you think I would reverse this shit if I knew how?” I ran my hand through my hair tugging at a couple strands in angst. “I don’t even know how this even happened in the first place. ALL WE DID WAS FUCKING KISS!” The earth begun to shake as the sound waves of my yell rippled through. My veins were starting to boil. This was really aggravating me. “IT WAS A SIMPLE KISS!”

“Austin babe calm down.” Eliza whispered. She lightly kissed my forehead lightly. Her kiss was like ice, my veins started to cool instantly. She kissed my forehead again. “Just stay calm.”

“Hey guys…..take a look.” Tino stated.

I followed his gaze to the blue jay. The bird was moving. Not in real speed but slowly it was.

“Maybe if you guys kiss like you did last time it’ll all go back to normal?” Phil hypothesized still eyeing the lingering bird in flight.

Eliza sat on my lap causing me to look from Phil. The second I looked into her captivating eyes everything vanished. Nothing in the world existed anymore, nothing except for us. And even if something else did exist, it wouldn’t matter. The only thing that mattered right now was us. Eliza, being the charming devil she is, took the initiative and leaned forward linking our lips as one. Electricity floated from her and to me. Warmth spread from my lips through my body and radiated off my skin. My hand clasped her cheek as I deepened the kiss. I wanted nothing more than to sit here and kiss her forever but I could read her thoughts, and she needed air.

I pulled away leaning our foreheads together “I love you.”

“I love you too.” She hummed. That beautiful smile of her displayed across her face, boy how I loved that smile. “I love you too.”

“Austin Robert Carlile.” a deep voice spoke. This voice made my blood run cold.

I look up at the well-built man in front of me “Dad.”

“I see you’ve meet a friend……a dhamphir to be exact?” He stated. He smiled kindly at Eliza before extending out a hand. “Arthur Romeo Carlile.”

Eliza stands up and I follow suit. I can sense that this isn’t going to end well. Something is going to happen I can feel it.

She grins brightly sticking out her hand “I’m Eliza Marie….”

“Bathory….” My dad gasps staring at the birthmark on her arm, the birthmark that all Bathorians have. My father looks at me in anger “Austin what have you done. This can’t happen. She can’t be here.”

I sighed. “Dad you don’t understand. I can’t…..’

“Austin you know the rules. You know the agreement we made with the Bathorian Queens.” My father yelled completely cutting me off. His eyes were turning a completely “We went through hell to make peace with them. You will not mess this up just because you want to fuck some slut.”

My heart began to quicken. I could feel rage mingling with my blood. I took deep, long breaths to control myself. “Dad……dad don’t call Eliza that.”

“What? A slut? Isn’t that what she is?” He yelled. Clearly he was angry, but he was also making me angry. And I’m pretty sure he doesn’t want me angry. “Austin, you can’t really say that you’re in love with her. You met what a couple months ago. That’s not love.”

“Mr. Carlile with all do respect…I am no fucking slut.” Eliza stated. I’m proud she’s defending herself. She took a step forward. “Austin and I are in love with each other. I’m not quite sure how it happened.” She looked at me and smiled “But I’m glad it did.”

My father rolled his eyes “I know why it happened. Sluts like you like cocks like his, that’s just how it works.” My father turned his attention back to me “Was she worth it Austin? Was she worth breaking the rules? Was she worth putting yourself back on the map…..becoming a target again? Tell me!” My father raised his hand in the air “WAS THE WHORE WORTH IT AUSTIN!” His hand fell across Eliza’s face “STUPID BITCH THIS IS ALL YOUR FOUGHT!”

There was a loud crack. I looked at Eliza who was holding her cheek. She immediately looked at me “Austin doesn’t! He’s your father!”

“He shouldn’t have hit your!” I roared

I balled my hand up and flung it at my father’s face. He stumbled back clutching his face. An agonizing moan escaped his mouth as I hopped kicked him in the side sending him flying into the tree. The tree, under the pressure it had received, cracked where my father had landed. My father stood up locking eyes with me. Shifting his head from side to side he popped his neck and cracked his knuckles with ease.

“You’re going to regret that.” He spoke. He picked up half of the tree and hurled in at me.

I caught in my hand earning a surprised look from him “Am I?” Rays shot out my eyes combusting the tree into flames before it collected to ashes in my hands. Wow! I didn’t know I could do that. But I’m not going to let him know that “Nope! Don’t think I am!”

Fireballs formed in my father’s hand. I knew what was coming next. This is what he always does when we do our clan battles. He started flinging them at me. I was bombarded with balls and balls of fire. Yet, none hit me. Not single amber touched my skin. They all stopped inches in front of my face and disappeared. As if there was a force field in front of me, preventing them from touching me. I started walking towards him, each step sending the world into a rumbling, shaking mess. Once close enough I grabbed him by the neck and slammed him into the concrete wall behind him.

“All this for a slut Austin.” My father spat. I tighten my grip around him causing him to gasp. “All this for a girl that means nothing.”

“She means more to me than anyone else in this world.” I replied

He scoffed “Even your mother.”

I paused looking at him. My dad knows how much I love mom. He knows how much mom means to me. He knows that I’d do anything for her, I did anything for her. I loved her more than anyone on the earth. When she passed I was beyond devastated. I went into a huge pit of depression. My powers were just as out of control as my emotions. My mother was my everything, I loved her so much. I looked over at Eliza and I realized that I loved her more. I love her more than anybody that I’ve ever met. I’ll love her more than anyone that I’ll ever meet.

“Yes.” I spoke. My answer caused my father’s mouth to gape. “I lover her more than mom.”

“What?” He gasped. His voice was a mixture of surprise and hurt but more hurt than anything. “ How could you say such a thing? Your mother.”

“I imprinted dad.” I whisper. My grip around his neck released and he fell to the ground.

He furrowed his eyebrows. “You what?”

“Imprinted.”

His face softened “God Austin! Why didn’t you just tell me?”

“I tried!” I mutter. “You didn’t listen. You never listen to me”

I turned around and made my way to the house. It’s funny how a morning can start out so great and end so horribly. I saunter though the house, up the stairs and into my room before finally collapsing onto my bed. It’s only then that I let the tears that I was holding in fall.

Tears for the pain I just went through. It pained me to fight my father, though I had to prove a point. Tears for the love I have for Eliza. It’s ridiculous how much I love her and I feel that I’m not enough for her. That she deserves so much more, so much better than me. Tears for the pain and torture that I know will come in the near future. I can sense it and I fear it for I know it will lead to death.

But most importantly tears for my mother. I miss her kind heart, always putting others before herself. Helping others whenever she got the chance to do so, sometimes she was a little too selfless. But she had a beautiful smile that light up the room wherever she went. Her soul was so pure and sweet. The world lost something special when she passed. I never got a chance to show her my appreciation. To give her the love that she gave to me in infinite amounts. I feel like I failed her, like I left her feeling disappointed. I wish I could show her differently. But she’s in heaven now. She’s up there in those beautiful clouds looking down at me.

I just hope she’s smiling

Notes

Enjoy my loves