I'll do anything for you

Victor's P.O.V.

I can just imagine what Mike & Tony are doing in the hotel right now. It makes my blood boil. I can't believe how much this is bothering me. Tony. Is. A. Guy. Yet he's the only exception. There's something so different about him...I've never felt anything close to what Tony makes me feel with any other girl. Tony just makes me feel...like I'm in love. Everything about him makes me smile. Knowing he's alone in a hotel room with Mike right now...it just...it makes me furious. My veins are burning with jealousy & my brain just won't stop thinking about it. I just wish Mike would have never left Tony & I alone that day. Then everything would be fine. I'd be straight. I'd be single. I could sleep around with anyone & be excited for school. Now I just don't really want to do anything unless it's with Tony. I want to feel him in my arms, see him in my dreams, kiss him when he needs it, and hold his hand when he's scared. I want to protect him & let him know how much he means to me. That if all of the girl's or guy's in the world were thrown at me, I'd still chose him.

I threw my head back in my bed out of frustration & groaned. I know Mike had him first but I don't want them together. It's actually really starting to hurt. Not like hitting-your-hip-on-the-corner-of-a-table-pain but pain that comes with every thought about those tow. It won't go away & my heart feels like it's slowly falling to my stomach. I got up & decided to get some water. Maybe I'll feel a little less empty. I walked downstairs, quiet, not wanting to wake up my parents. I reached the fridge & there was something far better than water in there. Juice. Not just any juice.

SunnyD. I stared at it like the heavens had been calling me & the angel's started to sing around it. I was careful not to hurt the poor SunnyD. I grabbed it as softly & lovingly as I could, carefully & cautiously, I turned the cap to the right. Hearing that little crack put a smile on my face....it was opened. It was finally opened. I slowly bought it to my lips. The angel's sang all around me, the light shining down on me & SunnyD.

"All hail, SunnyD." I whispered. I pressed my lips onto the opening of the small bottle & tilted it back just a bit. I don't want to rush poor SunnyD into doing something she's not ready. I felt the cool juice flow into my mouth & run down my throat as I swallowed. I've been kissed by an angel. I swallowed & swallowed, finished her until she was no more but an empty bottle. I walked over to the trash can.

"This is goodbye." I whispered. I gave one little kiss to SunnyD & screwed her cap back on. I held SunnyD over the trash can & closed my eyes as I let her go. Only know you love her when you let her go. I let her go. I opened my eyes & watched SunnyD as she fell into he pile of waste that would now be her home. I slowly walked away & back upstairs.

I was in my room now. I layed down & texted Tony. I miss him a lot right now. He could be sleeping in my arms...he might be sleeping in Mike's now.

To: Tony
Tony, what's up?

I hesitated. What a dumb text. I erased it all & re-typed something else.

To: Tony
Hey :)

I looked at the text. He won't reply to that. I erased it again.

To: Tony
Aye, my man (;

That was toooo forward. I erased that too.

To: Tony
I'm bored. What are you doing?

Ugh. No.

To: Tony
How are you & Mike doing?

Shit. No. He'll think I'm jealous.

To: Tony
Hey

I settled on that & sent it. Why was it so hard to send a simple text? IT'S JUST A TET, VICTOR. I waited for a text back but it's already been three minutes. Was it not enough? I should have put an emoji. Emoji's make everything better. I sent him the smiling emoji with pink cheeks & waited for a response.

From: Tony
Hey :)

To: Tony
Having fun in the hotel? :\

From: Tony
Not really...I just yelled at Mike straight in his face. I'm outside right now, just smoking.

To: Tony
You smoke?

From: Tony
Not cigarettes. Just hookah, sometimes a bit of weed too. How about you?

To: Tony
Nah. It's not my think. How come I never seen you do it?

From: Tony
Jaime always had money to buy it. He knew people. I don't know any here, but I found an old hookah pen I had in the back of all my stuff.

To: Tony
oh. um...I kind of wish you were here with me right now. I need cuddles. :c

From: Tony
I wish I could, babe. ;\ I gotta go apologize to Mike....goodnight. ;*

To: Tony
Goodnight...<3

I threw my phone at the carpet floor & hid my face in the pillow. This blows.

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