Tony's P.O.V.

"Tony, can I ?..." Mike asked, tugging at my jeans. Gosh, I really want him to.

"...yes, please." I answered after a while. MIke unbuttoned & unzipped my pants. I was starting to get really nervous....It's not even because he's a guy or we're brothers....it's more the fact that I'm a virgin.

"I- I can't!" I pushed him away. I didn't want him to stop, but this isn't right, & I really don't think I'm ready for sex this soon. I mean...I barley met him.

"Tony, come on it's okay. " Mike begged.

"N-no...I just. I'm not ready for this...I'm sorry Mikey...." I zipped & buttoned my pants again & put on a shirt, walking out the door. I really need to think about all this. I need to be alone. I walked out the front door, pulled out the maps on my phone & decided to head to the beach.

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I felt really lost at first but then I found my way around. It took quite a while to get there but I finally got to the beach. I looked around for somewhere to sit so I could think. I found a nice spot & sat down.I was so close that the waves were hitting my legs. The waves went up to my thighs & then back down. I didn't care if I was getting wet....I had too much on my mind. Mike. Mike, Mike,Mike, Mike, Mike. That was it. I can't like my own brother. I don't even care that I might be gay....It's just, I don't know what will happen to us if our parents were to find out. I was thinking too much & I felt like I could have a heart attack. Without thinking, I stripped down my clothes, leaving on only my boxers & dived into the water. The water was cold but I liked the feeling.It calmed me down & I started swimming. I swam & Swam & swam. I didn't stop until I figured I would have gotten too far. I let myself relax & allowed myself to just float & look up at the sky. Then I heard Mike.


"TONY! I'M SORRY!" Mike yelled out. I didn't even turn to look at him. God why does he have to be here? He continued to call out my name & I finally looked over when he said, "Tony! I'm gonna swim to you!" He was taking off his clothes & then came in. I tried swimming away, but he was too fast for me. He swam so fast I thought he could be in the Olympics.

"Tony, I'm sorry. I know I took it far....I like you, a lot. I can't help myself around you." Mike said, stopping me.

"Mike...it's okay....I'm not gonna blame you. I kissed you first & it was something I really wanted. I'm not gonna lie to your face & tell you I didn't like what was happening..." Mike stopped me before I could finish.

"Than why did you run away?" He asked.

"I rather not say..." I said.

"No, tell me Tone."

"You're gonna laugh.." I said back, blushing.

"No, I promise I won't."

"I'm...a virgin. So I was a little scared." I admitted.

"Tony...I am too. Come on....let's just try. It'll be fun, don't you think?" Mike asked.

"O-okay...but...what if someone walks in on us? Or hears us?" I asked. I can't believe I'm agreeing to this.

"Their all going to dinner, actually....We can stay home & tell them you're not feeling well & I can say I'm taking care of you? How's that?" Mike asked. It was a great idea but I was still a little scared. But it was getting pretty dark, so I had to make up my mind soon. We got out of the water & headed home.

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We came home & my mother looked worried.

"Tony! Where have you been?!" She yelled.

"I'm sorry...I wasn't feeling good. Mike told me you're all going out for dinner...mind if I uh...stay here?" Fuck. Am I really going through with this?!

My mom looked at Vincent & he nodded. "Okay, mijo. But I think Mike should stay with you." He said. Shit....I'm nervous.

"Alright. Um so, We'll be upstairs. Have fun." Mike said. We all said goodbye & Vic, my mom, & Vincent all went out the door & drove away. I feel kind of bad that Vic has been alone all this time...but I was actually kind of looking forward to doing this with Mike...We went upstairs & locked our door.

"Okay....uh...ready, Tone?" Mike asked. I really wasn't.

"Um...y-yes."

Mike moved closer to me & I could feel my heart beating faster. My stomach felt weird & I was kind of shaking.'

"Tony, I'll be gentle." Mike said. I blushed & he kissed me. I felt a little more calm now & just enjoyed the feeling of our lips in motion.

Notes

I feel like this is crappy :/ but here.

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