Fresh Start Fever

I walked into the flat again and looked around for Oli but I couldn't find him. Nowhere in sight. I searched through all the people in the living room and nothing. He wasn't anywehere. I don't understand why a few words from Stephanie made me suddenly want to see him. Only 20 minutes ago I told him to go fuck himself and now I'm here, totally gutted that I can't find him. I spotted my brother and decided to go ask him if he knew where Oli was. "Yo Matt, have you seen Oli?" I asked.

He looked at me and raised his eyebrow. "Um, no why are you looking for him. Thought I said that you should stay away from him" He sighed.

"Matt, it's fine" I reassured him. I walked away and went over to the drinks table and decided to drink as much as I could in order to be able to speak to Oli. I poured a shot of Jack Daniels. "Bottoms up" I mumbled.

"Hey better slow down on that JD" I heard from behind me. I turned to see a guy I've never seen before in my life.

"What's it to you mate?" I rolled my eyes.

"I want some, that's what" he laughed as he stood next to me and filled his cup halfway, mixed it with Coke and took a huge drink. I watched him in awe.

"Nice" I laughed and nodded. I decided to take another shot but it didn't quite hit the spot so I decided to just drink from the bottle. I took two big gulps and the liquor burned my throat. When I put the bottle down I looked at this guy who just cocked his head to the side. "What?" I asked.

"Just seems like you're trying to keep up with me" He laughed and pointed at his cup.

"I have no idea who you are, I'm sorry. My name's Casey" I held my hand out for him.

He took it and shook it carefully. "Jordan" He smiled. "So you're the famous Casey. Heard so much about you". "I hope it's all good" I said as I poured myself another shot and threw it back.

"Are you trying to drink yourself into oblivion?" He asked with a small laugh.

"I just need some Dutch courage" I laughed nervously.

"Why is that?" He raised an eyebrow.

"I've just met you, why would I tell you?" I questioned. "Like I said, heard a lot about you" He took a drink from his cup. I squinted my eyes at him and bit my lip.

"I need to talk to Oli" I sighed.

"Ah, the old Oli and Casey epic romance. You know your relationship with that lad is almost like a storyline in Eastenders" He laughed.

I playfully nudged him and laughed. He was right, it was. "Shut up, it's not that bad" I rolled my eyes.

"You're alright Casey" He nodded.

"I guess you're not too bad yourself Jordan" I smirked. "So, what do you do?" I asked.

"I play keyboard and write music. I actually just joined Bring Me" He smiled.

"Really? My fucking brother doesn't tell me anything" I laughed, cursing my brother silently.

"Well Casey, it looks like your man has arrived" He nodded behind me. I turned to see Oli standing awkwardly in the doorway.

"Thanks Jordan, see you in a bit" I took the rest of his drink and downed it before winking at him and walking over to Oli.

"Goodluck" I heard him call out.

Oli's head snapped up and he gave me a confused look. "I think we should talk" I looked up at him. He just nodded in agreement.

I grabbed his hand and led him into the hallway, pushing through the many bodies we finally made it to Matt's bedroom. I led him over to the bed and he sat down, I just stood infront of him trying to think of what to say. "Please don't hate me" He said, fiddling with his thumbs.

"I can't help but hate you a little" I told him. He just nodded, accepting it.

"I understand if you fully hate me to be honest. I hate myself right now. I think I'm the most arrogant, self centred prick in fucking England" He sighed.

"Maybe not quite but you're up there" I joked a little. A small smile played at the corner of his lips but nothing really came of it. "Why did you do it?" I asked, finally deciding it was time.

He looked up and bit his lip. "It was time to make you mine again" He said looking me dead in the eye. "Well, I thought that at the time. I convinced myself that I was doing the right thing. In the end I hurt so many people and I really regret it" He rubbed his hands over his face. "I've learned that if I can't have all of you then I'll settle for friendship because I really can't live without you" He mumbled.

I looked at him with disbelief. Am I really gonna buy this bullshit off of him? Probably. I walked over to him and held my hand out. He looked at it with uncertainty but took it nonetheless. I pulled him up onto his feet and he looked at me in wonder, waiting for my next move. I wrapped my arms around his neck and hugged him tight. "I don't forgive you yet, but I'm willing to let you into my life again to convince me that I can forgive you" I whispered. I felt his arms around me get tighter, it made me smile that it was making him feel a little better.

I pulled back and walked over to the door. His face looked disappointed. "Where you going?" He asked.

"Now's your chance to make me forgive you" I smirked. His lips curled into a huge smile, the one that I always loved. It made my heart skip a beat actually.

We left Matt's room and went back into the livingroom to hang out with everyone else.

We found the guys in the livingroom, drinking and talking. I walked over and sat with them. The conversation was about something completely random so I wasn't really paying a huge amount of attemtion. That's where we hung over for a majority of the night. By the time 80% of the guests had left Matt decided it was karaoke time, in my drunken state... I didn't say no.

I looked through the songs and found one I thought would be funny, I turned to Jordan and pouted. "What?" He asked.

"Please do this with me?" I begged. He looked at me and sighed. "Fine" He smirked. Luckily there were two mics. I grabbed one and handed the other to Jordan.

"What you guys singin' then?" Nicholls slurred from the couch. We both stood with our backs to the guys and I just looked round and winked.

The song started and I heard a chorus of laughter from behind us. Jordan suddenly turned around and began. "You were workin’ as a waitress in a cocktail bar, when I met you" I turned around in time for him to point at me. "I picked you out, I shook you up and turned you around, turned you into someone new" He playfully shook me. "Now five years later on you’ve got the world at your feet, success has been so easy for you" He winked at me. "But don’t forget, it’s me who put you where you are now and I can put you back down too" He came right up and put his forehead on mines. He jumped back suddenly and sung. "Don’t, don’t you want me? You know I can’t believe it when I hear that you won’t see me. Don’t, don’t you want me? You know I don’t believe it when you say that you don’t need me" He pretended to wipe away tears and I laughed. "It’s much too late to find, you think you’ve changed your mind, you’d better change it back or we will both be sorry" He winked at me again and danced around as he sung. "Don’t you want me, baby? Don’t you want me, ohh? Don’t you want me, baby? Don’t you want me, ohh?" I rolled my eyes at him and giggled.

I looked at Oli for a second and he looked amused but jealous. "I was working as a waitress in a cocktail bar, that much is true" I ran my hand down Jordans chest. "But even then I knew I’d find a much better place, either with or without you" I blew him a kiss. "The five years we have had have been such good times I still love you" I winked at him, which he just laughed at. "But now I think it’s time I live my life on my own I guess it’s just what I must do" I laughed at his face when I done this.

"Don't" He sung.

"Don't" I repeated.

"don’t you want me?"

"Don't you want me" I copied again.

"You know I can’t believe it when I hear that you won’t see me" He laughed. "Don’t, don’t you want me? You know I don’t believe it when you say that you don’t need me" He playfully danced with me. "It's much too late to find When you think you’ve changed your mind, you’d better change it back or we will both be sorry"

"Don’t you want me, baby? Don’t you want me, ohh? Don’t you want me, baby? Don’t you want me, ohh? Don’t you want me, baby? Don’t you want me, ohh? Don’t you want me, baby? Don’t you want me, ohh? Don’t you want me, baby?" We both sung out until the end of the song. Everyone began clapping and laughing hysterically.

"Thank you, thank you" I bowed.

Jordan hugged me tightly and then laughed. "I'm not doing that again for a long time" He fell down onto a catch and passed out. I pretty much done the same.

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