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Fresh Start Fever

If I Tell You The Truth

This is insane, I can't do this. Oli wanted me to sing onstage with him. I can't. They're going on in five minutes and he wants me to sing Don't Go with him. After finding him having a breakdown in the cupboard he wanted me to sing with him. I don't do public singing and he knows it but... the look of hope on his face makes me feel sick. "Please" He begged. I looked at his hands that were covering mine.

"Oli you know that I get nervous singing infront of people" I looked at him with panic.

"I know you get insecure but Casey I need you tonight, I need you more than I've never needed anything" He had tears forming in his eyes.

"Oli" I groaned. I took a shakey breath and sighed.

"I just need a reminder of why I'm fighting this" He grabbed my face and pulled me in closer. Our noses were touching, we stared into each others eyes. I could see the pain and restraint in them. It was heartbreaking for me.

"Okay" I whispered. I noticed his face break into a smile, and that eased the pain growing in my stomach.

"I love you" He said and kissed me quickly, grabbed my hand and pulled me towards the side of the stage. "Just take your pictures at the end of our set" He smiled.

"When is it I come on" I asked, looking at him.

"After It Never Ends" He smiled.

"I'm glad this is making you feel better" I crossed my arms over my chest.

"It does, having you next to me on that stage singing a song I wrote for you 10 years ago will make me feel the most safe, I'll ever be able to feel" He took my hands in his and kissed them. "You're the only person I ever want to sing with from now on" He smiled.

"I'm touched" I smirked at him.

"30 seconds" A tech guy said to Oli. Matt, Jordan, Lee and Nicholls came over to us with their instruments and all huddled together.

"Goodluck" I yelled at them as they ran onstage. The intro kicked in and Crucify Me was their first song.

"Crucify me, and nail my hands to a wooden cross. There is nothing above, there is nothing below. Heaven and Hell lives in all of us and I've been cast astray" He screamed out into the mic. He took a second to look at me and it made me blush. "I am an ocean, I am the sea. There is a world inside of me. Lost in the abyss, drowned in the deep. No set of lungs could salvage me. Only a shipwreck, only a ghost. Merely a graveyard of your former self. We just watched the waves crash over I've been cast astray" My heart was beating hard.

His voice was so emotional and his actions spoke louder than his voice. He was dying inside and all he needed was for me to love him. And these feelings weren't something that just appeared. They have been growing and mutating for awhile now. Maybe even since the day he met me. "I love you Oli" I whispered to myself.

"If we make it through the night, if we make. We'll have mercy and pray for the dead. You say that you can save me. Don't hope to ever find me I fear I'm too far gone. Pray for the dead." He dropped to his knees and hung his head. The crowd cheered the last parts of the song and slowly his head rose up, a small smile played on his lips. A small piece of hope.

Four more songs passed and it came to the end of It Never Ends which was ironic because I never wanted that song to end. "Here you go" One of the techs handed me a mic.

"Thanks" I mumbled as I looked down at it. Nope. I'm gonna pass out. I took a peek out at the audience and felt sick. There was a lot of kids out there.

The song began and Oli sung with so much passion. I was so mesmerised by him I didn't realise how far into song it was. "Don't go... Don't go" He shouted. He looked towards me and I started to walk onstage.

"If I let you in, you'd just want out. If I tell you the truth, you'd vie for a lie." I walked over to him and looked into his eyes. "If I spilt my guts, it would make a mess we can't clean up. If you follow me, you will only get lost." I looked out into the crowd and felt sick. There were so many people staring at me. "If you try to get closer, we'll only lose touch. But you already know too much, and you're not going anywhere." I finished.

"Tell me that you need me 'cause I love you so much." Oli grabbed my hand.

"Tell me that you love me 'cause I need you so much." I stared into his eyes.

"Tell me that you need me 'cause I love you so much." The look on his face made me realise how much this meant to him. How much I meant to him.

"Say you'll never leave me 'cause I need you so much." I wrapped my arms around him and hugged him tightly.

"Don't go, I can't do this on my own. Don't go, I can't do this on my own. Save me from the ones that haunt me in the night. I can't live with myself, so stay with me tonight. Don't go, I can't do this on my own. Don't go. Save me from the ones that haunt me in the night. I can't live with myself, so stay with me tonight. Don't go." He sung out and looked at me lovingly.

I looked at the crowd and felt the beaming of the lights up above. I scanned the crowd and I began to feel dizzy. "Don't go... don't go... don't go... don't go" I sung. My head was pounding and my heart was beating rapidly. I looked at Oli and he had his back to me, facing the crowd. I tried to grab his arm for help as I felt myself falling backwards. "Oli" Escaped my lips as I slammed to the ground and everything went black.

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Comments

@OliverScottSykes

There's a final installment :')

who's the writer? Godsake. I cried a lot. Can't take it :(

NONONONONONONONO

No no no please just change the end it can't end like that! She can't die! please im begging you! :'(

WAiT HER FUNERAL!?!?!