I think I'm in love with you..

"Can we talk alone? It's important." Kellin asked me.

"Uh...yeah let's go into the kitchen." I was starting to get really nervous. I'm sure he was bring up what we talked about on the phone.

"So, babe...Uh-no, I'm sorry. Vic, remember what I asked you over the phone? I really want to know. I feel like I deserve an explanation to why you left me." Shit. Shit, shit, shit. I was right. Fuck. Wait...did he just call me babe?

All I could do was stand there quietly as I thought of what to say. "Uh..yea. You're right. You deserve an explaination.." as much as I wanted to deny the truth, I knew it had to come out sometime. "Well...you see..uh, I was scared, I guess you can say.." I felt my cheeks blushing.

"Scared? Scared of what?" Kellin asked.

"That you would leave me as soon as you knew I was in love with you..." I felt myself blushing again & I was too embarrassed to stay, I just started to walk away. But before I could, Kellin stopped me, grabbing my arm.

"Baby, but you know I fucking loved you..I still love you.." Kellin's word's surprised me & I don't know what the fuck got into me...but, I wraped my arms around his waist & pulled him into a kiss. He didn't pull away. "I do too..."

I was so caught up in the moment that I had't realized what I was doing until I heard a shout from the living room. I pulled away quickly & looke up at kellin. Our eyes met but I turned away.

"VIc!! Get over here, we need to go over the song!" It was Jaime. God, poor Jaime. I just..I just cheated on him...What the fuck is wrong with me.

"I'm coming baby!" I ran into the living room leaving Kellin behind, not caring to look back.

I sat down by Jaime & hugged him tight. I didn't want to let go. I felt so bad about what I did, I felt tears start to roll down my cheeks & I couldn't stop them. I was crying violently & kept repeating the same thing into Jaime's ear. "I love you, Jaime. I fucking love you. I love you." He pulled me up to kiss me, then took us to another room. Kellin was still in the kitchen so he took me into the bathroom.

"Vic, babe. What's wrong? Don't cry baby, it's okay." Jaime held me close & moved away to gently wipe away my tears & Kissed me on my forehead.

"I fucking love you, Jaime. Promise me you'll never leave me?" I cried into his shoulder & he hugged me tight.

"I promise. But could you tell me why you're crying so much?" Jaime seemed really worried.

"I-I..I ki-kissed Kellin...I'm so fucking sorry. Jaime, really I love you. More than you could imagine..it's just..we were talking & I couldn't help but kiss him when I heard him say he was still in love with me. He's my ex Jaime, I'm so fucking sorry. I don't want him anymore, baby I just want you." As if I wasn't already crying enough, the last part of what I said made me start crying even more. I could feel Jaime starting to release his grip & move back a little.

Jaime was crying....I started to feel my heart break into a million little pieces."Say something.." I whispered.

"Why didn't you tell me before...why didn't you tell me he was your ex?" Jaime asked.

"Cuz...I knew If I did you'd be jealous.."

"Well clearly I had a reason to be. Didn't I 'Vicky' ?" Jaime said it imitating Kellin's voice as he said 'Vicky' God I felt so bad. I didn't know what to say.

"I'm sorry...it won't happen again, I promise baby. Believe me, I'm fucking in love with you & I have been since I first met you." I began crying again.

"I love you too Vic...I just..can I be alone for a while?" Jaime wiped away his tears, looking at the floor.

"Sure...bye Jaime..I love you." I went over to the door & closed it behind me as I stepped out of the bathroom & started walking away.

When I walked out I saw the clock on the wall & realized it was 8:30 pm.

I walked into the living room with probably red puffy eyes. Everyone got quiet when I walked into the room. I noticed Kellin still wasn't back. "Hey..uh..where's Kellin?"

"I don't know but he just came in here a few minutes ago saying he was leaving. Vic, were you crying? Where's Jaime?" Tony was concerned but I ignored his question & went out the front door.

I walked & walked & walked. I had no idea where I was going but I didn't care. I needed to clear up my head. I was thinking too much & so I started running. I kept running & I didn't stop. What if Jaime wants to leave me? He doesn't trust me anymore. I was still running. I was running so fast I was convinced I could out run a car at the moment. I ended up in the park & I ran into the field where no one would ever go. I threw myself onto the ground & as soon as I hit the freshly cut grass I felt like I got the air knocked out of me. My head was spinning, my body was shaking, & I felt like I was choking. I wasn't able to take even one breath of air into my lungs. I felt myself start to black out as I slowly closed my eyes & rolled over on my side.

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"Vic, are you awake? Wake up Vic." I felt someone shaking me & heard them talking to me but I couldn't make out who's voice it was. Soon I started hearing more voices..it sounded like four at a time maybe? I still couldn't figure out who it was. I slowly opened my eyes although it kind of made me dizzy when I did. I saw Mike, Tony, & Jaime all above me. I was wrong. Three voices. Why are they around me? All I could see above them was what looked liked the dark night sky. For some reason my left cheek really hurt.

"What happened?" I looked up confused & tried sitting up. I couldn't get up on my own so they helped me.

"Tony followed you out the door when you left to make sure you were okay. He saw you collapse on the grass & immediately called us." Mike said.

"I saw you fall & I didn't know what to do, so I slapped you a few times..." So that's why my cheek hurt. Tony fucking slapped me.

"You were out for about 20 minutes, we were gonna take you to the hospital but you woke up." Jaime finally said something. Jaime was here & he was worried. "Babe are you okay? ..You fucking scared the hell out of me you little fuck!" Jaime pulled me in for a hug & kissed me softly on the lips. I kissed back. I was so happy. He still wanted me. Even after what I did.





Jaime's P.O.V.

I was so happy that Vic was okay. I don't even care anymore that he kissed Kellin. I looked over to Mike & Tony & told them he'd be fine with me. With that, they got up & left.

"Aye, baby..you want to spend the night at my house for tonight? You don't have to, but I wanna make sure you're okay." I waited for an answer , hoping he'd say yes.

"I'd love to, Jaime." Vic smiled at me & I decided to make things a little better for him & carried him bridal style to my car. He laughed & I smiled at him.

Notes

Here's the update & sorry it's not too good. I didn't really know what to write.

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